Discouraged Depressed and many many regrets!
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I don't want to bother everyone around me with my feelings. And I thought of writing what I am going through in this forum. I am almost 7 weeks post op LTHR posterior approach. I am not able to walk without my crutches. The pain is different than before the op but still there is pain. Back knee pelvis pain. Dic said all fine. Everyday when I wake up I feel the prosthesis. It's weird. regret a lot why I did this @#$$///@@# surgery. The only thing that is encouraging me is to have faith. That eveything will be alright. I will return to my old life soon. I discovered that I want to live and will fight till the end. Another thing is people...the look of pity when they see you. Poor Sareeta @ 33 years and crippled. My husband does not talk to me much. I am lucky that I have my parents taking care of me. I told my husband that I will divorce if he wants. He didn't reply. I miss my son since he is living with my husband.
I feel helpless and useless. If only I could go back in time...
so I decided to follow some Buddhists quotes
'The past cannot be changed'
Overthinking leads to unhappiness.
I play these in my mind when I am sad.
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suep67 sareeta50759
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Hey Sareeta, I'm sorry i didn't mean to make your post about my issues. I really hope you get well and back to what you were prior to your hip replacement. Just stay focused and positive and things will get better sending you hugs and I'm here if you ever want to talk.
sareeta50759 suep67
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Hi sue,
I am soo sorry to hear what you are going through. It's v hard. You are v courageous. I will think of you in my prayers.
Love
MVW173 sareeta50759
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HI
I'm 55 and just coming up to week 3. I was suffering from both Ostio and Avascular Necrosis prior to surgery and my femoral head was described to me post op as looking like it had exploded! Subsequently surgery was slightly more than standard shall we say. I am doing brilliantly, no hip pain whereas I was in agony pre-op and taking 5 different pain killers at the same time just to get by day by day. I do have quite a lot soft tissue pain, however I have the biggest smile. What help is this to me you ask? And I can see why why. When I was 18 a motor cycle accident left me with with multiple fractures in every bone in my left leg, a left hip dislocation, central hip fracture, ruptured Achilles and much more. I thought it was the end of the world. The pain was unbearable at times and I had 12 operations to rebuild my whole left side over the next 2 years. Very early on I realised a positive, strong and determined attitude to recovery was the best way to help myself. If I was positive, so were those around me. I was told several times I wouldn't do this again or I wouldn't do that again. Proved them all wrong and subsequently had a 30+ year career in the military. I have, over the years, been very accident prone, hence my hip replacement was my 22nd general anaesthetic, but on every occasion, no matter how bad the injury, the positivity I learned all those years ago has never let me down. Can I put that into a shorter form? Yes; chin up, and (both) good feet forward. You are young and can and will achieve soooooooooooo much in your life. Don't let that surgeons work go to waste. Good luck.