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To the most remarkable woman on earth, our mum.

3 times a lady, that's what she was,and missing you isn't going to be hard to do, her morning smile will never be there, her lifted mood when ever she saw us,that was her daily medicine,she was a critic yet her compliments on a daily basis set in stone, told us that this was indeed our mum, and she loved us more than anything.

The reality is that it's all gone, the kindness, yes she worried, and her strength to go on,ended. but the love she gave us, and the memories we have we will treasure forever, were going to miss you mum.i can't hold the tears back as I write my last farewell to our amazing mum.

she was so proud of us all and what she had accomplished. she wasn't in the best of health, and yet our mum was so brave, putting on a smile to try and not have us worrying, but we knew, it was only a matter of time,and time was not on our side.

I struggled at night, thinking of our mum and sometimes I wished I could take all the pain away, but I couldn't. Yet in my own mind I kept thinking. is she hanging on until I get married, that's one wish I granted her, another daughter in law and she loved her so much too.

2015 was a tough year, many times I cried in my mums arms, it used to break her heart and again my thoughts would be, is she holding on until I am back on my feet, my usual self.

Finally Time ran out, and I guess our mum preyed to Jesus to come and get her.it was time.

It's going to be tough without you mum, we will never stop crying over you and we will all meet you at heavens gates some day, love your 3 boys xxx

I closed my eyes and I saw a blanket of white no floor or ceiling, I could hear sound I have never heard before,a melody from a harp, the blanket of white was curling moving like clouds moving in opposite directions and a clearing appeared, there she was our mum, she was smiling and in a beautiful gown , as if she was all ready to go to the ball, she had no pain and her smile was pure happiness. She reached out her hand and blew us a kiss,she said nothing but we knew, she turned and her foot found the first step, I shouted don't leave us, we can't live without you,she put her finger to her lips as if to say hush everything will turn out right.

We had to let her go, another step appeared and another and our mum climbed the steps to heaven, she placed her finger to the clouds and inscribed the words be strong for me I love you all, what seemed like a second, she was met at the gates to heaven, we rushed forward but the steps would not accept our efforts to climb them and with tears in our eyes we shouted one last goodbye ,we could only just make out the 2 silhouettes around her ,they opened the gates and waved to us, and then everything became clear

Our mum got her final wishes her mum and dad at her side xxx

Patxxx

I too lost my mum just over 2 and a half years now and the first few months were very tough.   It does get easier with time and you do find a way to live with it and to move on with your life.  Your mum will always be a part of you and will hold a special place in your heart. 

Going to tell you a little story which might comfort you. 

My mum had a plant called a Day Lilly,  so called because the flowers only lived 1 day.   My sister had been keeping it for her and they both assumed it was dead coz it hadn't flowered for 4 years. 

A couple of weeks before the first anniversary of her death one bud appeared - just one.   I said to my sister it will flower the date of her death,  and it did.  Just for the one day.  We said 'Thanks mum,  we know you are ok now'.   A sense of peace came over both of us.   It gives me goosebumps now just to think about it.  

Your lovely mum will send you a sign - I truely believe it.   I had heard such stories before lots of times but it was the first time I have ever experienced it and it was magical. 

Take care sweetie.  bev xx 

I wish you the best Wayne.

Elizabeth.  

Pat xxxxxx