Doubts with reality, thoughts that my life isn't real.

Its so weird I cant put the feeling into words. I've started meditation which feels good but its also very temporary, but I guess that will build up over time.

Thank you for replying, It's good to talk to another person feeling depersonalization too. 

Sorry my bad, I've just done some research and what I feel is derealization, not depersonalization. But I think I can still relate since they are similar in their ways.

Yeah, suicide thoughts are horrible. You think that none of this is real so you should just kill yourself, I try to go out and do things that assure me life is real, but its so hard when you have this overbearing thoughts of reality.

Thank you so much for replying, i hope you can get through this.

I feel like stress is a massive part of derealization which is weird because my life isnt even hard, i have no job, i dont goto uni, but im constantly stressed. The feelings feed from that and makes it even worse, its like a horrible cycle. Thanks.

I feel like that's dp, I've never had that kind of symptom of not feeling your body is yours, I've only experienced derealization where the world doesn't feel like its real, or that im in a dream. Research a bit about depersonalization, but not too much because thats not good for the anxiety, the internet is a good and bad place to search up stuff about anxiety.

My psychologist says we are going to taper off it over 6 months, which seems better but im just so terrifyed for feel those withdrawls again. Im back on it as the withdrawls were nightmarish, but i still have the head feeling but less worse but still horrible. 

Thanks so much for replying.

Thanks for replying I hope you get better.

When I was on the higher dose 75 or 76 mg I had no weaning off period they just put me straight onto the 37mg tablets . I was , and still am also taking Citalopram 40mg so my side affects took awhile to get over, then when I was weening off the 37mg venafaxine dose I was told to ween myself off , one day take one next day miss a dose for a week ,but I did it for a bit longer a week and half, took a bit longer after that to recover but I'm SO glad I'm off it as FOR ME it didn't work a lot of people still take it and are OK with it. Sorry to hear that you had thoughts of suicide, PLEASE get help for that, my dad killed himself and one of my sisters attempted it too, luckily she lived, don't feel bad about ringing up people like Samaritan's, they are lovely , lots of peoe ring them up for all reasons , some even for feeling lonely. 💞?😄

how are you now

still the same pretty much, nothings changed or gotten better 😦 i dont know what to do anymore...

any improvements with dr

id like to know as well. my doctor prescribed only abilify to me at 2.5 mg then move up to 5 mg but i still have existential thoughts about a lot of things and wondering if its my ocd. but the thoughts of unreality still bother me.

No not at the moment, I still get existential thoughts which send me into a panic attack, and I still always think about reality quite a bit. If something seems out of place or just a tad bit weird, I suddenly think that nothing is real.

I'm being put on a nutritional diet by a naturopath which hopefully will help me, she seems to think I have a lack of these stuff in my body.

im sorry to hear that, it honestly sounds a lot like my symptoms im interested in this nutritional diet. how long has this been happening for? its awful because its been ruining everything i do and takes the fun away from it

How long has the derealization been going on ? About 3 years on and off but no where near as long and as this period of dr, its been going on for 11 months this time round. I dont get the bad dr attacks so often anymore but I still get the thoughts of life not being real and everyone around me is fake.

Do you know what caused your derealization ? Also Im seeing a naturopath because my psychologist seems to think alot of this could be because of my leaky gut that I've recently realised I have.

i also get existential thoughts like i question everything in the world its like i am new to be a human being i think people with dpdr feels this way its an feeling of detachment and yeah mine also has it i also feel detached now its been 5 months with this thing but the major symptoms faded like panic attacks dont come now in first month of dpdr it was hell literally i am now living in the moment my tip to you is the same try to live in it without any fear tell yourself that your not in any danger sometimes i got scared that im in this situation but i am living in it so you can too it will take time but it will go away

I know what you feel like, it is a living hell, its horrible. When I had my first episode of dp/dr it didnt go away for months, my psychologist recommended an anti depressant, after a while I finally decided to take it and that really helped me. It was almost like a miracle drug and I thought id be fixed just like that, drugs dont do that, they can help you a bit but you need to help yourself properly, try a psychologist they can really help.

i had anti depression but they made it worse giving me more side effects meds not really helped me much

the thing is that it takes time to find the correct medication for you, no patient is the same so what tablets work for some, don't work for others, unfortunately you may have to take a few different ones to see which works the best, or you may not, there are lots of other ways to beat your condition meditation, gentle exercise, group theropy etc etc. don't give up, you can beat this, you're not alone, keep asking your doctor for help. take care.

actually im on my recovery i had been doing for 5 months already i am doing exercise and eating healthy and vitamins and the main thing is i accepted the feeling and i learned how to tackle and live in it this can overcome without meds

Sorry guys im very vacant and forget to check things alot. I dont feel im so much on the road to recovery just yet, im still trying so many different things.