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I'm a 40 year old single parent. I have delt with so much in my life that has led to PTSD...and 20+ years of alcohol. The last 11 years, which was "yesterday", I have drank from a 1/2 pint up to a 1/2 gallon of whiskey...every day. In just two years ago, I made Christ my priority. I have tried to stop on my own. I have seeked help outside of medical care. I have recently seeked helped inside of medical care. I was frightened with a diagnosis and relieved to learn that I have nothing no more than a fatty liver. I have focused on my sobriety and learned that I can't last a week and a half before I break down and have to have at least a pint again. I came to these forums and read and learned that I was so close to detox and had so much more to look forward too that I have yet to experience. I have the wrestless nights, the sweating, shaking and irritability. But i will not go further.
I'm scared. I want to be done. I have so much good going for me and my children. I don't want it but every time I try, every reason, every help I seek, car accidents, arrests, name it... I still find myself hiding at home, with a glass of whiskey.
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Robin2015 taisha61931
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taisha61931 Robin2015
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My nurse practitioner is sending me to a psych in hopes that he'll be able to prescribe something. I do hope he can help.
I can't do rehab because my children and job depend on me. Or I'd sure enough go.
Bangleina taisha61931
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Oh angel it sucks dosnt it xx I've been there guilt ridden stuff ups anxiety depression the whole shebang! There are options I promise and not everyone is the same therefore we need to try every option AA works for some abstinence works for some but ultimately it depends on works for you! Abstinence didn't work for me so I read Dr Eskapas book "the cure for Alcoholism " and read about The Sinclair Method this is my current journey and so far so good it entails taking a tablet called either naltrexone or nefelame and you take the pill one hour previous to you having your drink and the idea is for it to reduce and eventually extinguish your desire it works! Do a little research and ask any questions on here or go to c3foundation they are amazing support xx wishing you well xx
taisha61931 Bangleina
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I am in the same life process. I just bought a new home and opened a wonderful life for my children. Of course my daughter uses me as an excuse and isn't making my recovery easy at all. Before i can through the 2 weeks clean, I am breaking down.
taisha61931
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Crap.
That was meant for I71207.
Bangleina, I have tried everything I can think of. I'm afraid of medication but it looks like I'm going to have to consider.
Bangleina taisha61931
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Taisha61931 I get your scared of medication I am too but one think I'm quite sure of is id rather live my life and take a pill than leave my daughter because I can't let go of this destructive habit I didn't have time to spend in rehab and also knew after three months of feeling good I would've gone straight back to the bottle and the battle xx this is no easy journey The Sinclair Method but it's sure better than killing ourself with the bottle xxx anything is worth a try! We are all here for you people understand there is no judgment and we get you! Because the majority are either in your situation or have been there xx
taisha61931 Bangleina
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I will definantly request the Sinclair Method. I'm so sick of being strapped down.
l71207 taisha61931
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Believe me I hated the thought of having to take meds. I couldn't believe that this thing could help but it did. Once I broke the physical addiction while taking the meds it helped with the mental. And believe me I've still had the thoughts and the rarer cravings but holy sh*t I'm doing a million times better. I really thought I was at my wits end but it got hella better. Just give it a try.
Bangleina taisha61931
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What country are you in taisha? As so many doctors have no idea about the Sinclair Method and advise you incorrectly in how to take naltrexone you have to read up on the Sinclair Method and follow properly it's not rocket science you basically take the pill one hour prior to having alcohol naltrexone does not work if you don't drink with it! However crazy that may seem to an alcoholic trying not to drink! It only works if you drink! It gradually takes away your want and desire to drink
Most doctors say don't drink with it but that defeats the point of TSM please read for yourself online the Sinclair Method and ask any questions here too so many wonderful people Thant can help you xxx
l71207 taisha61931
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I know TSM might sound too good to be true but it has helped so many of us. I was a 20+ shots of vodka a day drinker. Home, work, in the car and anywhere else I could. Thank goodness I never got a DUI or hurt anyone. I almost lost everything. My job, wife and my life. By taking Naltrexone and following the edicts of TSM I now only have a few drinks on the weekend or none at all. No withdrawals, no shakes and no self loathing. I've lost almost 50 lbs, am looking for my first house and have my first child on the way. I'm 38 and feel like my life is beginning and not ending. I'm not scared. Please give it a try and keep posting on this forum. The people here are great. Good luck.
Bangleina l71207
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l71207 Bangleina
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I meant that for you Bangleina 😁
ADEfree l71207
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It's wonderful to hear you're doing so well, I7! Congratulations on your amazing progress with TSM!!
l71207 ADEfree
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Thank you. I was able to do it with your help and the support of the people on this forum. I never thought I could go a whole day without thinking about having a drink let alone not having one. It wasn't an instant fix by any means and there have been bumps along the road but I love it. I'm different now and things are different. I'm living now not just trying to stay alive. Sorry for the ramble. Hope everything is going well for you and keep reaching out to others. I know it helps.
l71207 taisha61931
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Robin2015 l71207
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Robin2015 l71207
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vickylou Robin2015
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Robin, you must also feel very proud of yourself and your family. If I’m not mistaken, it’s five years for you on 31st December. You’ve been able to watch your twins grow with a sober dad. Pure willpower and an inspiration to us all. No tapering and no medication, just determination and hardwork.
Its great that you’re still such a regular poster on this forum, giving hope and showing how good life can be.
No doubt the twins are so excited and counting how many sleeps till Santa comes. Hope you’ve got a mince pie for him and carrots for his reindeers lol!
Have a great Christmas, you deserve it