Eviction to me means the End of my life

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I am so tired of living, so tired of fighting on my own.

So tired of approaching every avenue of what help we are told is out there.

So tired of ADVICE that leaves me back at square one.

So tired of ADVICE that does not provide me with a place to go to when the ballifs arrive and remove us from the property in weeks time.

So tired of the isolation in knowing that Human Rights are somethign the normal, average person cannot count on.

Human Rights must be for the rich , those with nothing need not apply.

I have pages and pages of advice, thousands of emails of advice.

I am tired of being pro active in my search by walking in and asking for help, even when I am so broken and unable to stop my tears from flowing.

Everyone has advice , but no one can provide an ANSWER.

Without an ANSWER I am resorting to the only answerthat makes sense, and to find out what ways are the best ways to take my life.

This way my fight will be over, there will never have to be another tear spilt.

I will be safe and away from a world that is cruel and for the rich.

I didnt realise how easy it was to get the only real advice that I am brought too.

I will never be seen alive when the baliffs arrive.

They can take my body out for  those lying , hateful neigbors to see for themselves that they finally got what they wanted anyway.

I have always been a winner ut this time I will have to win byith losing my own life that has become pointelss and worthless.

mental health is looked down upon , anxiety isnt even understood by the majority.

And the mental Health Porfessionals leave us in pain and without real support.

PJ

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    Hi, 

    I know that you feel like you are in a no-win situation with nowhere to go because I've been there and had my life implode. I'm not going to harp o though because this is about you. Obviously, nothing anyone says on here is going to control your actions because your life is your own. But by explaining how you feel on here I think that you may still be open to help but you want to make up your own mind what that is and not get into a situation where people are making you empty promises. 

    Mental health and anxiety isn't very well understood, you are right. But this is mainly because unlike other parts of the body which operate kind of like a big biological machine, mental health has to deal with emotions, feelings and perceptions and these are different for each one of us. However, I have noticed that a lot has to do with brain chemistry. I have been receiving talking therapy for a year and just having someone to listen to me drone on about whatever I want without any judgment has been so liberating. 

    I think that if you were to supplement with lithium orotate 5mg going up to 10mg if you don't get any effect you would be pleasantly surprised. I'm not making any promises but it has definitely helped for me. Feeling desperate is very natural and common however there is help out there if you will give it a chance. Above anything else you are the most important here. Not the bailiffs or landlords but you and your life. It is worth fighting for but it does take courage and the willingness to accept it might be a bumpy ride at times. 

    Take care

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      Thank you Eldie

      again for all your advice, but my 3 years of battle against what I have been exposed to has proved nothing in any positive way.

      I am left isolated, abandoned and soon to be without a home.

      To follow up what advice you have so kindly given me is great as far as I can see, but it doesnt provide me with a roof over my  head.

      I live with HIV infection, which is at such a poos tate now this will kill me soon enough, I have chronic Lymphodeama right now and had it for 4 years, i end up back in Hospital, I have lung infection and live infection.

      Then after what I have been through with a hateful landlord I now have depression and sever anxiety which acculalate into epapleptic style fits.

      And I am expected to live in the street.

      I have sort every answer to this problem, I remain exhausted with advice as no advice can stop what is about to happen and I am resided to the reality of life that it actually sucks and nothing is out there to give me a new place with my carer who is without income from anywhere.

      We are going to be thrown out of our home and left on the street.

      Can anyone tell me how this can be ?

      It wont be a problem for me as I will not leave this property to be placed on the streed alive.

      Life is too hard and not for those who have no value as value = having money and being able to be protected by law.

      I understand what you say very clearly, I am not so crazy that i cannot understand what you have said.

      I am happy it has worked out for you.

      But in my 3 years of seeking a place where I am able to rest , not be open to neighbor abuse and a place where I am able to thrive and not be expected to just survive has had a major toll on me.

      I cannot see a future at any angle.

      My future has been taken away from me.

      All I now have control over is where to from this point.

      The answer is not difficult to decide what is best for me.

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