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Eviction to me means the End of my life

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ozzie1961
ozzie1961

I am so tired of living, so tired of fighting on my own.

So tired of approaching every avenue of what help we are told is out there.

So tired of ADVICE that leaves me back at square one.

So tired of ADVICE that does not provide me with a place to go to when the ballifs arrive and remove us from the property in weeks time.

So tired of the isolation in knowing that Human Rights are somethign the normal, average person cannot count on.

Human Rights must be for the rich , those with nothing need not apply.

I have pages and pages of advice, thousands of emails of advice.

I am tired of being pro active in my search by walking in and asking for help, even when I am so broken and unable to stop my tears from flowing.

Everyone has advice , but no one can provide an ANSWER.

Without an ANSWER I am resorting to the only answerthat makes sense, and to find out what ways are the best ways to take my life.

This way my fight will be over, there will never have to be another tear spilt.

I will be safe and away from a world that is cruel and for the rich.

I didnt realise how easy it was to get the only real advice that I am brought too.

I will never be seen alive when the baliffs arrive.

They can take my body out for  those lying , hateful neigbors to see for themselves that they finally got what they wanted anyway.

I have always been a winner ut this time I will have to win byith losing my own life that has become pointelss and worthless.

mental health is looked down upon , anxiety isnt even understood by the majority.

And the mental Health Porfessionals leave us in pain and without real support.

PJ

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  • Fairy28
    Fairy28 ozzie1961

    Posted

    Oh Ozzie I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better about everything - I feel so bad for you, I know you say you have tried every avenue but Ozzie there is always always another way, I know you are exhausted with it all but please do not give up, think of all your family that love you and your parents, you are their son and they love and adore you - you are truly valued by your family and your best friend also you are strong and I won't patronise you by saying it will all be ok because there are obstacles but they truly can be conquered if you please just try and ask for more help - your GP and authorities do have a duty of care and surely your life is so worth fighting for, you do have a future and we all do care, honest we do x
    • ozzie1961
      ozzie1961 Fairy28

      Posted

      I have found myself awake again after 2 diazipam.

      I need to take some more right now as I am not finding relief in what should of crashed my mind and put me to sleep.

      I have taken 2 more and this by all means will give me the sleep and rest I need.

      I have no more options.

      I have found peace and comfort in taking my life back into my hands and knowing how to fix everything and all I now need is to build of the courage and confidence to end my life without the interferance of intollerable professionals that have no strategy in prevention and no emotional connection to the needs of those who ask for help but are left aone and isolated in this cold society that has no wil or desire to make simple changes to help vulnerable people.

      I can be free of all this and do what is best for me.

      I have a peace about all this.

      Its when we can come to a decision and have a set plan then we have a real chance to at least stop worrying and adding more pain and distress to our lives.

      I am fine right now trust me .

      I will get through the coming days.

      But i am not going to accept any more advice.

      from any professionals.

      Your an amzing person .

      Stay strong Luisse

      PJ

    • Fairy28
      Fairy28 ozzie1961

      Posted

      Please don't do this - you can get help , SHOUT or SCREAM to your GP, anyone, how about the Terence Higgins Trust one more time, this is your life it is so precious, so very precious, you cannot be allowed to be treated this way - surely there is an answer please don't do this, people love you Ozzie, and we all care here, just one more try xx

       

    • elizabeth20203
      elizabeth20203 ozzie1961

      Posted

      Dear Ozzie,  I really don't know what to say anymore,  i am dissgusted with the professionals that should be able to help you.  There must be another answer to what you are planning.  What of your friend and carer if you choose to die, he will never forget, it's a life long pain that is devastating for those left behind.  I have lived with the fact my husband choose to die and left me with 2 young children,  we lost our home and i don't know how i got through those days. I couldn't save him like i cannot save you.  I wish i could.  Are there any homeless hostels around.  There must be something, someone who can help.  I cannot feel your pain but i can feel your desperation. Please don't give up.  We will miss you here. You are worthy and caring.  You don't deserve this, you really don't. Your unique and have a compassion for others.  

      Love Elizabeth    

    • Fairy28
      Fairy28 elizabeth20203

      Posted

      Dear Elizabeth, just read your post, so worried for poor Ozzie, can't bear his pain - what can we do ?? How can we help, also so sorry you ha e suffered so much xx
    • elizabeth20203
      elizabeth20203 Fairy28

      Posted

      Hello Lou,  I am so worried for Ozzie,  i feel so helpless.  Physically we can not do anything, we can only be there to give emotional support.  We cannot save him only he can do that.  I feel he is giving up and if someone makes up their mind to die we cannot stop them.  That is so sad, i know from painful experience that we cannot stop someone.  I wish we could help him,  you and i and others have tried to advise him,  i have run out of ideas.  I am dissgusted that organisations that are supposed to protect the vulnerable are not helping.  It's like he has hit a brick wall.  Keep praying for a turn of events. xx
    • Fairy28
      Fairy28 elizabeth20203

      Posted

      Dear Elizabeth, thank you for reply - agree this is absoloutley devastating, the poor darling soul is reaching out for help and he has been treated appallingly it's shocking and sickening that he has so many doors slammed in his face. Like you I am utterly disgusted. I live so far away from London actually further than I thought almost 200 miles so I can offer nothing but a shoulder and I hate the fact he feels so desperately alone,you are absoloutley right though Elizabeth we can offer nothing more - you truly are a wonderful caring compassionate lady that has suffered so much also and cannot imagine your pain also, bless your heart for being there for dear Ozzie xx
    • Fairy28
      Fairy28 ozzie1961

      Posted

      Dear Ozzie, hoping to God you are ok this morning - we are all worried about you and care very much - we are all here for you and you have lots of friends and emotional support here, please hang in there and take on board all our messages of hope and support if you possibly can, thinking of you we all are xx
  • deirdre._03652
    deirdre._03652 ozzie1961

    Posted

    Dear Ozzie, Please, please,please do not give up yet ....I have three sons who all have mental health problems. ( schizophrenia also ocd and paranoia. ) they all live with myself and my husband and have good lives....

    You OBVIOUSLY need more help from the mental health teams, you are entitled to it, and really, really deserve it ....

    Please rethink your plans, ..I have seen the aftermath of suicide....it is absolutely devastating...honestly...

    You must get in touch with the SAMARITANS, they can help you, and of course your friend....no one deserves to be this unhappy and desperate,..mental health have a real RESPONSIBILITY TO HELP YOU....not out of pity.....but because they really want to, that is their whole.....and ..SOLE OBJECTIVE....

    YOU could also call the police. Strange as that sounds....but please, please do not give up yet !!!!

    You are in my ( and I am certain many others .) Prayers.xxxx

    Don't leave like this..Ozzie,,please...huge hugs...Deirdre xxxx

    • Fairy28
      Fairy28 deirdre._03652

      Posted

      I second that Deirdre - Ozzie I truly hope you read this, you are really truly valued and loved by all your family and friend, please listen to all of us that want to help and advise, i know you don't believe it right now but it s true - please try to get more help , you are also in my prayers along with all the other dear souls on here, we really really do care x
  • deirdre._03652
    deirdre._03652 ozzie1961

    Posted

    Dear Ozzie, I agree with lou...Please try one more day, miracles can and do happen..and you truly deserve one....even if you just hold on hour by hour, then ask once more for help...do something to make people take notice ( without harming yourself. )..but while you are still here, there is still hope..xxx

    Try to have a restful night..and please, please, please be here in the morning.....I am quite often awake in the middle of the night...if I am, I promise I will message you....I wish so, so much that I could hug you....sleep well, Deirdre xxxx

  • Davesoapbox
    Davesoapbox ozzie1961

    Posted

    Ozzie,

    unfortunately 13 hours have past, I hope that you read this. I feel so much pain and anguish in your post and understand you feel that you can't go on but you must, I don't know you but you are have passion, your despair shows emotion and your post shows that you know people are here. I also understand that words of advice are often hollow when what you need is a hand to guide you. Without meaning to sound harsh but possessions can be re bough, lives rebuilt but a life can only be lived once. It is true that the health profession is lacking with regards to mental illness but they are there and you need to go to them and get help now, your life is important, you may not see it now but one day this dark day will be a cornerstone of strength for you.

    please let us know you are okay, and whilst we are just words they are written with feeling and empathy.

  • deirdre._03652
    deirdre._03652 ozzie1961

    Posted

    Dear Ozzie, I have to go to bed now....Please, please still be here tomorrow morning..have a good and peaceful nights sleep..xxx you will be in my thoughts and dreams.....hugs and much, much ,much more hope for you....bless you....Deirdre xxx
  • deirdre._03652
    deirdre._03652 ozzie1961

    Posted

    Dear Ozzie, hi, hope to hear from you sometime today...Please let us know that you are okay..Please...big sincere hugs to YOU...Deirdre xxxx
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