Extreme Emetophobic (fear of vomiting/gagging)-ruining my life!
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Since I was a child, my fear of vomiting was a serious issue for me. As I age- the anxiety and fear has become much worse. I'm afraid for my life and general well being.
I have met a lot of people and read a bunch of online cases about the same fear. I know I am not alone. In my case, anxiety and depression is genetic from both sides of my family. More so on my maternal side. I am severely affected by this as well as thought triggered panic attacks. It doesn't help that I suffer from OCD as well. My brain is out of control and very frustrating to live a 'normal' life this way. One part of my brain knows it's just fear, negative thoughts...and that vomiting/gagging is a normal human function, however, the other part of my brain completely freaks out sending my body into complete panic attacks. I cannot express how tired my mind and body is from all of this. I'm panic stricken day and night, 24/7. My mind doesn't stop and constantly worried about getting sick or the possibility of when I can eat. Or all of a sudden I will remember something or past experience, even fabricating a familiar taste in my mouth which instantly makes me feel so sick im freaking out. These are my daily battles....When I can sleep, that is pretty much the only time my anxiety isn't affecting me but I have trouble sleeping as is with an overactive mind. Even brushing my teeth has become a worry as I constantly feel nauseous and gaggy because of how shot my nervous system is.
I have lost about 15 lbs over the past 4-5 years. I now weigh 100 lbs roughly. This fear/phobia has tainted my mind in ways where i overthink every situation. As a food lover, i fear my overall health as I struggle to eat. The sight and smells of food...common foods i love....turn my stomach around and make me severly nauseous. When i can/do eat, i feel more nauseous from digestion.
I am not currently on any antidepressants even though my doctor suggested me to start again. I'm very hesitant as I was on them for over 13 years and feel that they have messed up my head and caused alot of my gastrointestinal issues I now face. I do however take clonazepam quite frequently when I feel out of control. Which isn't a permanent or long term goal of mine to continue taking. I know this has long term effects.
Even though I am aware this is all psychological, I can't stop this. I am 35 years old and a single mother. With this fear it makes it very difficult to care for my son when he is sick.
I have been off work now for almost 4 months because of the severity of this mental illness. I enjoy working and staying busy...but I have a difficult time even leaving the house now. I just want to enjoy life...go out with friends....take my son places without the anxiety and panic in my body and without the aid of mild tranquilizers. I need to see a Psychotherapist for cognitive therapy and maybe a hypnotherapist. ...but it's tough as both these services aren't covered under our countries health plan.
I have seen Holistic doctors and one gave me EFT (emotional freedom technique) 'tapping' methods to do on certain parts of the body that aren't helping much.
Anyone have any suggestions for me? Or feel similar? If so, are there any coping strategies that has helped yourself or others?
Thank you for taking the time to read my story. Looking frwd to hearing from others.
Sandi
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Yoga helps many people-cognitive thinking can be eassy to learn and it seems to have a positive effect on anyone who practices it. Meditation is healthy. Good luck
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Pain in what sense? The over all anxiety has caused alot of stomach and gastrointestinal issues for me. So I guess yes I do experience pain.
What a beautiful story about your brother. Thank you for sharing.
I don't think I had an issue with choking in this lifetime but I do recall having a terrible stomach flu which lasted over 24 hours when I was a child. Even then I remember freaking out about it. It's so silly but I can't seem to get a grip on this and find the control button. I know I need help. I do plan to take up a yoga class at some point. I've experienced periods in my life before where I was down like this...but I've had enough of this Rollercoaster ride. I'm just exhausted.
Thank you for your reply.
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Yes I have had an endoscopy/colonoscopy over a year ago and nothing.
It's my nerves....
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Mental issues are tough too,
Do you have a therapist?
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How long have you had this issue for?
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Is this in the UK?
In canada, that is often covered for free.
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What province are you in?
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I have a Psychiatrist however I don't find he's helping much as he refers to the prescription pads mostly. I need cognitive therapy....someone who will help me with my thought pattern
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Have you heard of CAMH?
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Yes I know some are covered however there is a look good wait for them and don't know if I can wait that long...
Yes I have heard of camh. ...my brother who passed away a year and a half ago went there a few times for his alcoholism at that time.
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I'm from Toronto, how about you?
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I'm from mississauga
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If you ever need anything, post on here or feel free to send me a PM.
You are not alone.
You can beat this.
Good luck and all the best!
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