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Paul JTurner. ..a very, very, very trusted confidante.....

Truly and honestly a very good man...you would have absolutely no problem or worries either...

Paul. ...a very caring and truly committed man... trust in him...he really truly can help you ....and all of us..... ..thanks mate....xxxxxxx

So grandad, how does it feel to be given a lesson in social media by the youngsters?

Thank you so much for your kind words, Deirdre. Cheered me up during a difficult time for me personally

Actually, I feel a bit stupid because I am already in a couple of closed Facebook groups and I had forgotten you could do that

Of course we would all want you in the group ..truly and honsy

deirdre...how are you?

Well...thank you Kelly...but I would like that "love" to continue..lol.

​I do belong to a group....in the FB world...and once I start on that page....I could spend ALL day....its enough...Lol....

​Hope you are doing good today...drinking or not.....I assume your not..cause I know when I AM...I tend not to be typing...just fretting about WHY I drank...how I'm going to feel...etc.

Hi MIssy!

I'm doing well.  Thank you for asking.  I did not drink last night.  I can tell you that I'd be quite good at typing and drinking.  For me, beer goes with just about anything but sleep, lol. 

Another day to get through.  It's very rainy and dark in Pennsylvania.  A nice day to just sit at home and drink.  I know - alcoholics find every reason possible & I am one of them!  

My books and researching are really helping my brain stay focused on why I do not want to drink.  Praying for a good day for all of of us!

It was rainy and cold here yesterday and I crave the most on days like that and snowy and sunny days too!  Awesome that you pulled thru it.

​I was a beer drinker too.  I can always type on my first day of drinking....maybe the 2nd....but if I continue after that...i am just in oblivion world and don't care about anything or anyone.

​Gonig OUT in the rain makes me want to drink MORE because it is so aggrivating and cold...want to come home put on comfortable clothes...grab a beer and just sit....I got thru yesterday and I hope you get thru today.

It's funny.  When my husband and I went out to eat he would order wine and I would order beer.  The waiter/waitress ALWAYS got it wrong!  I could always finish two beer to his one glass of wine.  

I grew up in the coal region and beer was and still is more popular than anything.  

I've had problems with my foot since April 7th.  I have numbness in it and it goes up my left leg and it's hard to walk on.  Long story short - my cat accidentally scratched me and I think he hit a nerve so I have to wait til May 11th for a nerve test.  It's driving me insane and sometimes I want to drink the pain away.   I also have fibromylagia and issues with my spine.  Those are the big triggers.  Drinking pain away.  

Going to the dentist today.  I do have my women's recovery meeting tonight. On a dreary day like today I feel like skipping the meeting and staying home.  Of course that will depend on how I'm feeling mentally.

I have faith that today will be a good one.  I woke up sober and checking in here every day helps me.  I'm enjoying the books I'm reading and feel more at ease going with my gut feeling on certain things.  

I hope we all make it through another day!

Yes, another thing about the FB page....I like to keep my identity secret on line....I started doing that when I was employed.....because I belong to many forums..

​Forums that discuss jail (my son was in jail)

​Forums that disucss drugs (my son is or was addicted to drugs)

​Forums that discuss domestic abuse (enough said)

Forums that discuss BAD work practices (lol)

​Forums that I used when I was dating

​MANY forums discussing alcohol

​So...when someone "googles" Misssy2...they may come across some of my rants...but if someone "googles" my real name...they GET NOTHING.

My advice is force yourself to go to the meeting!  You will feel even better for it and more confident that you "got" this.

​Dentist is enough to make me want to drink too.

Dinner is much cheaper without drinks involved...

​I have fibro too...and that is also a reason for my drinking...to top off the fact that when you tell people you have fibro...they really don't believe it because there are not definitive tests that we can SHOW them...it p*sses me off.

I always feel like I have the flu...achy....trouble moving sometimes....

​NERVE tests are painful!  They stick these freaking needles in you...the needles hook up to a machine and the machine makes  noises....and that is how they tell if there is activity in the nerve....and what "scientific" kind of activity it is.....have you ever had one?

​i get the pins and needles tooo...but my nerve tests came out normal....and this is why everything leads back to FIBRO...there was one place in my shoulder that was NOT normal...but it wasn't significant enough for further investigation because all the other "pin" points were normal.  Frustrating.

I'm so upset.  I was set up for two appointments this week.  I have an upper denture that needs religned.  They said they put me through so much that they'd do everything at no cost.  Today would be a wax fitting and they'd work on it for 24 hours to make sure it was a perfect fit.  When my husband & I arrived they said I'm not in the schedule for today - only tomorrow at 11:00.  I said I have two freaking appointments - not one!  It almost turned into a screaming match until I walked out.  Needless to say I'm drinking on this dreary day.  I'm not beating myself up over it either.  That only makes it worse.

So, I will not be going to any recovery meeting tonight.  The girl who is supposed to go with me is a heroin addict and is 2 hours away for a week and using every excuse as to why she can't make it back.  So glad I'm an alcoholic after hearing her stories!  

I've never had a nerve test although I've heard they're very painful.  I was set up for one about a year ago due to fibro and backed out.  This time it's necessary for me to get to one.  I really do think when my cat scratched me and drew blood that he hit a nerve.  I'm curious as to what they find.  Just frustrated that I have to wait so long.  These are the reasons I am so weak.  

So glad my husband called off work and was with me today.  I picked up a 6 pack.  Otherwise, it could have been more.  

Still on this site, still journaling and reading.  And I agree dinner is cheaper without drinks

ok, we need to learn WHY when we have the slightest dissapointment we DRINK...

​Why can't we look at the positives?  Like your husband has the day off...and instead of having dental work...you get to enjoy the day?  I GET IT...I do the same thing.  Actually I AM DRINKING TODAY.  Why?  Because I have been building up to it...I knew it.....

​I am putting myself in a very bad position by doing this...and i keep getting "breaks"....my next post will explain those breaks and how manipulative I really am (I guess).

I am so doomed when it comes to health issues and "disappointments"......I really wanted to flip out at the dentists office but may have slightly.  I now have them put my appointments on a card!!!

The positives about my husbnd being home?  None!  He was outside mowing grass all day.  No enjoyment there.  Building it up, yes!  So glad I'm not afraid to post on here no matter what the situation is."

On a good note...my 27 year old daughter will be on TV tonight working with special needs children. I'm so proud of her but because I live in a different county I do not get that channel.  Trying to find a friend that actually cares

 

Ok..here we are 2 drunks...we can write all night....lol (not funny).  Ok, husband situation (check)....

​I get it about friends too....they s*ck or we do...who knows..but real friends..get it...I don't have any of those ....Can you order the channel for one day from cable?

 

AND we hijacked the FACEBOOK post....I apologize BK...that is what alcohol does...its selfish...I'm going to start a new Rambling post for anyone drinking and lost today.

You're funny! And I got a friend of mine to record it for me.  Otherwise I think I can catch it online somehow.  My daughter will figure out a way to send it to me, I'm sure, lol.

And husband is now napping.....check!!

I'm drinking and lost today!  Start!

go to my rambling post...if you post again tonight...I feel bad for BK.

​Um yea...my b/f is snoring....I need sleep but don't give in to it at all.

 

OMG..your not listening...LOL.

​I'm going to type you a question in the other post to guide you away.

I am trying to follow you