Feel like an absolute useless, worthless, colossal failure.

I am also 26 years old , when I was 23 years old I was suffering from dipration attempted one time for suicide .

Although I am not successful in my life still am confident I will be successful one day . I am happy with my life .

What changed my life?

I read lot of good book .

Be positive

There's nothing to fear, you're as good as the best.

As strong as the mightiest, too.

You can win in every battle or test.

For there's no one just like you.

There's only one you in the world today.

So nobody else, you see.

Can do your work in as fine a way.

You’re the only you there’ll be.

So face the world, and all life is yours.

To conquer and love and live.

And you’ll find the happiness that endures.

In just the measure you give.

There's nothing too good for you to possess.

Nor heights where you cannot go.

Your power is more than belief or guess.

It is something you have to know.

There is nothing to fear, you can and you will.

For you are the invincible you.

Set your foot on the highest hill.

There's nothing you cannot do.

I am 16 and I have tried suicide 4 times and I also have migraines. I just want you to know it's depression if you are thinking of suicide just stop everything and start thinking about it then when you are done thinking talk about it study it and then you will be able to get over just be patient remember there is nothing in this world can do harm to you than yourself you don't know me but I have struggled like for 3 years of depression and I got migraines that like just stopped my life but in the end I am here I am alive just talk with any one I was lonely too find a relative your brother your doctor just try I hope you get well

Hi. 

I'm a writer by trade (it drives me loopy most of the time and will never make me any decent money), but it's saved me from myself. That sounds crazy perhaps but I used too (and still sometimes) get consumed by thoughts that I'm rubbish, no use, undeserving and pointless. I get the social anxiety, I have a cheery disposition on the surface but deep down I have a fear that no-one really likes me and I have absolutely nowt to say. I socialise, but it can be torture!!! Those who think I'm an extrovert don't know me as well as they think!

What I garner from your post is that you DO have things to say, I've learnt about you already, you aren't into studying - but you are a hard worker with a job -they must rate you as you get called in alot! You have no friends, but have work colleagues who you feel like you (it's not much of a hop from colleagues to some form of friendship - start small). You have a healthy interest in death, let's call it healthy as I am curious too - what the heck happens after we depart? Is it better or worse? Does ending it all really end it all? If it does then that's it - there's nothing, I guess there's no pain but there's also nothing at all. I would miss a bit of sunlight on my face or listening to a top tune at full volume! Would you miss anything? With your unstoppable nature you could do something pretty adventurous? Throw yourself off a cliff or building but do it wearing a parachute - base jumping could give you a thrill. I wish I had your unstoppable ethic, I would try so much! 

I'm a scaredy cat myself and trying new stuff for me is the stuff of nightmares, but I'm taking it a bit at a time. I write because I'm not half bad at it (I'm not good, I will never persuade myself I'm good at anything), but it takes my mind off the more troublesome areas of my life. Finding a distraction is key, you have your work but find a passion, it doesn;t matter how many things you have to try (start with free stuff, save yourself a few quid) - walk, run, sew, read, draw, teach yourself how to speak French, walk someone's dog (someone ALWAYS needs a dog walking)! you won't feel like helping out others but force yourself to volunteer, you are a good worker? Great put that to use, befriend the lonely or sick, contact a local charity. Do something that makes YOU feel good about YOU. 

I'm pretty sure you are a decent person and the nice guy that you think you are and don't really want to press a button and get rid of us all (I hope not)! I'm not going to say keep smiling as that sort of rubbish makes me want to hit the person who said it with a broom! But do keep going, please x maybe write something about your struggles? About your deep-seated feelings? It might help, it might not, but when you're done you can file it or screw it up and chuck it at the wall. I hope you do it I would like to read it, I know you said you are a man of few words, but everyone is interesting and we all have a story. Like you said you have nothing more to lose. 

I'm a 15 year old kid,i sometimes feel like killing myself,i feel so useless while everyone around me is getting good grades and being able to socialize.i don't even know how to make friends,i feel so stupid.i know the people around worked hard to study and get where they are now,i want to change but i can't,why is it so hard.i can't tell anyone because i don't really have friends,I'm a stupid idiot who has a masturbation addiction and can't stop no matter how hard i try.i'm a coward,i don't like facing arguments,i also get scared of talking to people because maybe I'll end up saying something offensive.if i ever told anyone they would probably dismiss it and call me edgy or emo.maybe i am that,but these feelings of mine are genuine.i hate myself for not being able to change,i repeat the mistakes i've made out of temptation so many times already.who can i rely on when i don't even have any friends.they'd probably be disgusted anyway about the fact that i have a masturbating addiction.i feel so useless

Hope you reply

It's been 3 years since you posted this, how are you doing now?

My friend. There is a lot of info your post, but the main thing I want to say is that you can't think that way and you can't talk down to yourself and about yourself that way. You just can't. You are punishing yourself and that's one of the reasons you feel this way. Everything that you have described is fixable. Every single thing. You are 26, which is like ridiculously young. You have so much time to fix everything and to accept who you are. Who gives a crap if you are awkward or if you don't have friends? No one does, for good or bad. No one cares about you or anyone else. We are all alone and we have to take charge of our lives. Don't allow self pity to destroy your happiness. You are lucky enough to be on this planet. Make something of it. Work on yourself, oh your mental and physical issues. Work on getting involved in social activities, never be afraid of how you might look because it doesn't matter. And you will feel amazing after you do it. The more you are afraid the deeper the fear goes. Face the fears. It's not all in your head, but a lot of it. A lot of it is up to us and it has to start with starting to believe in yourself, even if you don't at this point. Start somewhere and make a small change, then make a bigger change, and then go for something really big. You are not sick, you just have to retrain your brain to look at the world in a different way. It won't change who you are and it won't cure you, but it will help you cope with the world 

I feel exactly the same as you did when you posted this 3 years ago except I’m unemployed and I’ve been excluded from all my old friends from school I’m scared and I don’t have anyone to talk to about it. Every night I wish that something or someone would just kill me cus I don’t have the guts to do it myself. And as I see it I’m not ever gonna be a productive member So what it the point of living.

Everything you mentioned is treatable and can be gained through more determination and action. I studied maths at school, got a E studied it at college got a D, but then studied it again and got a C+. I was 3 marks away from a B grade my maths teacher said. I was a teachers pet. Studying and learning things in this life is fun. I love learning and communicating. You can get everything back with more determination.