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I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety last september, put on sertraline in October and signed off work since November. I believe that I had been suffering from depression for a while and I also suffered from eating disorders as a teenager. All was going well with my treatment and I was having regular CBT sessions until January when I had to go into hospital for surgery. I therefore delayed the next stage of CBT as I knew I wouldn't be able to drive for 6 weeks. Over Christmas my husband and I talked a lot and made plans including me cutting back my hours at work to focus on persuing a singing career.
Whilst in hospital my husband was diagnosed with cancer which in inoperable as it has already spread. It has spread agressively into his bones and he can barely walk which has made my recovery harder as I have had to do housework and even help him get up etc. We don't have much family living close by although my step son has been coming and helping. When I told friends about the diagnosis everyone offered to help and said lets meet for coffee/ lunch yet when I tried to arrange something nobody has had time. I don't have that many friends living close by but I thought I could rely on some of them but only one has been round since knowing about my husband - I only met her last year and I feel that all of this is a lot for a new friendship. I haven't confided about my depression yet although she does know that I was struggling with panic attacks last year. I confided in 2 friends about my depression previously but neither of them has been to visit and 1 hasn't even returned my call.
I feel bad complaining as I know everyone has their own issues but it has left me feeling completely isolated and not knowing where to turn. It's hard to talk to my husband as he is dealing with so much - we are very open with each other but I don't want to add to his worries. I did find out that he phoned my doctor on friday and they agreed that he would refer me to a private counsellor but I don't know if it is worth it as I feel no amount of therapy or medication can stop the loneliness I now feel.
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