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Feeling like my heart will stop at any moment.

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brandon12949
brandon12949

    About a month ago, I had I bad episode of a panic attack. I ate a little more then I usually do, and I had a very bad feeling in my chest and my heart was racing so we went to the emergency room. They tested my blood, did chest x-rays, and I had an ekg done.

     Then it happend again, and I went straight back to the ER. I was then transported to Riley's Children Hospital. ( A very great place, lots of high tech stuff and what-not. ) I had an echocardiogram done at Rileys, an ekg, multiple blood tests, and everything came back fine. Including the visits from the ER, everything was fine also.

     I then went to the ER three more times, each time they did the same tests and my heart was very good and healthy. I still feel like my heart can stop though, and I get scared ever night. I even had to sleep with my parents one night. After the episode is over I usually break down and cry until I can't cry anymore. I am seeing a psychologist on monday, thankfully, and I hope he can help me also.

    My main point is that I am afraid there is actually something wrong with my heart, and I am afraid of sudden death. Just recently I went to an urgent care center and had a cat scan where they injected some kind of dye in me to see if there were any blood clots or risk of a blood clot. I can't deal with this anymore and I often think about suicide when I break down. I am so afraid of sudden death and I always think the doctors missed something in all of the tests. 

( I am a 14 year old male by the way. )

 

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  • amycathy
    amycathy brandon12949

    Posted

    Hi Brandon, I can’t imagine what you must be going through right now... I don’t have much to say really, other than you would be so surprised at the physical symptoms of any form of anxiety. I’ve been suffering for 4 years now, and the source goes even further back than that. I’m still shocked by how a panic attack or even just early stages of anxiety can make me feel. It’s really scary and I don’t know how on earth 14 year old me would have coped with it...

    I felt like I needed to send you that, even though it’s not the most fantastic response in the world. It’s good to hear that you’re seeing a psychologist and getting the help you need. Just take things slowly and a day at a time until then; and although it’s easier said than done, try not to panic. I wish you all the best.

    • brandon12949
      brandon12949 amycathy

      Posted

      Thank you, things have been really tough around my house since I am driving my parents crazy because they both have full time jobs and it is very hard to be there for me. I hope when I start seeing a psychologist I will get better. Sadly, I haven't been to school in two weeks. Most of those days were excused because of ER visits, and I have missed a total of 3 major projects and my nearly all of my grades are an F at the moment. Thank you for your comment, it means a lot to me.
    • amycathy
      amycathy brandon12949

      Posted

      It is so tough.. You know, the best piece of advice anyone ever gave me was not to worry about my education; health and stability is far more important. You can always give school another go and top up grades when you're feeling better. Exceptions can be made. So take some of that pressure off of yourself and focus on your wellbeing. It's not ideal, but it's a start. 
    • brandon12949
      brandon12949 amycathy

      Posted

      It seems eveyday I go into a panic attack and I think my heart will stop all the time. I have to talk myself out of calling 911 a lot now. Thank you for your replies. They help a lot.
    • kristen49051
      kristen49051 brandon12949

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      I'm so sorry you're suffering from such anxiety. I  have been suffering from horrible health anxietyon and off since I was probably 10 and I am nearly 30 now. Just remember that anxiety can't kill you and will pass. Focus right now on healing. Have you ever thought or heard about acupuncture? I just started it and I am really enjoying it. Everyone I know whom has tried it says it ahas helped. Perhaps ask your parents if they would let you try it along with therapy. Also, look into getting some melatonin to take at night before bed. It is Natural and will help you relax and have a good night's sleep. Also, sounds useless, but chamomile tea helps me relax too before bed. Hope this helps hon, just remember it will get better and suicide is never the answer. You're not alone! Best of luck, Brandon! 
  • emma68890
    emma68890 brandon12949

    Posted

    Oh Brandon.  I can really understand this since been 14 I was having heart palps then a girl died round the corner from me and that was it I got so sick and so ill.. i ended up in hospital with a nervous breakdown lost 2 stone of weight.. i was horrendous. All I thought was I'm gunna die like she did.. im gunna just die any moment. I'm now 24.. and still have them worrys.  I don't want u to waste the best time of your life by doing a me. I wish I could get my life back but I can't.. sad anxiety is awful! But we can control it I'm trying! But please see a councilor or anything. .because unfortunately we can't control what's going to happen so the worrying is pointless. . Says me who frets everyday but your so young sad x 
  • samantha_70759
    samantha_70759 brandon12949

    Posted

    Is it possible you coukd ask to have a special monitor to take home and record your episodes and then the cardiologist and have a look and put your mind at ease? 
    • brandon12949
      brandon12949 samantha_70759

      Posted

      I took home a 30 day holter monitor from ecardio, and a team of cardiologists looked through everything and said I was fine.
    • samantha_70759
      samantha_70759 brandon12949

      Posted

      Aww that's good 

      If all your tests came back fine I would not worry. They would gave found something if there was a problem.

      What have your parents said about this? Could you sit them down and open up to them about how your feeling 

      It must be awful for you feeling like this 

      Can you think of anything that xouks age. Triggered anxiety

  • richard89308
    richard89308 brandon12949

    Posted

    brandon we all fear death, that is a part of our psyche.  I hope the psychologist can help you.

    Richard

    • brandon12949
      brandon12949 richard89308

      Posted

      This fear is killing me. I can't sleep right anymore, I can't socialize with people anymore. All I think about is my heart stopping. I've had 2 mental breakdowns in one day and I just leave me parents in a crying mess after I am done freaking out. Two days just seem like a long, long time away.
    • bri81579
      bri81579 brandon12949

      Posted

      As crazy as you may think this form of anxiety is- I have the exact same thing. Although this comment may not help you in any way, just know that you aren't alone. Of course not everyone is the same, and im sure there are a variety of differences, but being completely terrified of the fact that your heart may stop is completely limiting on life. I have only been to the ER once for my anxiety and of course they said everything was fine. And it doesn't matter how many times they tell me that im perfectly okay, I can't help but have this thought in the back of my brain that there is something wrong. It keeps me up all night, it stops me from leaving my house, I have very little friends because I don't trust them enough to care about my problems and make sure that I am okay. And it's a very unique and difficult problem. I didn't intend to make any of this about me. I just wanted you to know that you aren't alone. And im sure there are others who feel the same way. Of could I can't tell what is going on in your head and I don't know exactly myself what you are going through, but when I read your story I felt confident in myself that I wasn't the only one going through this sort of anxiety.

  • cat40685
    cat40685 brandon12949

    Posted

    Get over yourself.
    • cat40685
      cat40685

      Posted

      You and i know the TRUTH about your condition.

      Ridiculous.

    • nickokeefe
      nickokeefe cat40685

      Posted

      As rude as you are being thats actually the end goal. Getting over ones fears. And just because you youraelf have never experienced this awful anxiety doesn't invalidate what he has.

    • Grant895
      Grant895 cat40685

      Posted

      Wow what is your problem, what did he do to you ? You really need to open your eyes some people have problems this could be anxiety or he could actually have something wrong( I doubt ) but still there is a chance why don't you just calm yourself and go else where

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