Feeling scared

my anxiety is through the roof and my depression seems so severe did this happen to you too when you went back on? its scaring me quite a bit tbh x

how are you feeling now?

like depersonalisation? x

yeah x that and majorly depressed x it was scary to say the least x

sounds like a withdrawal symptom, i had that for many many months its horrible x

its bloody terrifying is what it is! how u feeling?

thank you x I think it's down to how high my anxiety is at the minute. I really hope it passes as it was terrifying x

you still on citalopram?

It will pass, mine did. Yes I'm still on citalopram but down to 5mgs for about 5 months now. I'm thinking of increasing though because of the headaches, dizziness etc. Had enough to be honest, can't see me stabilising on 5 mgs.

it can take a long long time to get stable, i dont even get symptoms after a drop for 8 weeks and takes me 12 momths to get stable on a tiny drop x

Hi Toria

I remember when I reduced both times I felt ok for a while before the withdrawal effects took hold. It's such a long waiting game and makes you doubt if it is ever going to stabilise, that's the problem.

i agree my lovely and i seem to get every symptom their is unfortunately x

would you ever go back on to relieve your symptoms? so you weren't suffering all the time?

are you trying to get off to switch or just trying to get off completely now you're better kinda thing?

Hi potoghost,

I just did, I take my med at 6pm and I've just taken 7.5mgs. I'll see if that helps with my symptoms but I know I will probably have more start up effects first.

I was trying to come off because I didn't think I needed them and because I get gum infections and take antibiotics which don't mix well with them. I think I do need to take something though because I feel stressed out, particularly with family.

Sorry potatoghost ,I replied to a message you sent to Toria thinking it was f or me.

yeah most antibiotics dont mix well with ADs. in what way are you stressed lovely? any depression mixed in or just stress/anxiety ect ect x

the fact you didnt think you needed them is a good thing right? means they were doing their job x

no way!!! i tried an updose it made everything worse x

Just family tensions together with putting up with withdrawal effects and the anxiety and frustrations they cause. I don't think I've had real depression but I cry a lot with frustration mostly. Yes I didn't think I needed them but I was wrong.

I also did my back in today bending over to pick something off the floor, something I do every day, but today it caught me and I gave off an almighty shriek. Now I've got something else to be frustrated about because I can hardly walk. Oh the joys!

How much of an updose did you try Toria? Now I'm worried.

from 4mg to 6mg x

Goes to show we shouldn't underestimate the power of these meds.

i never have i didnt know they were antidepressants when i was given them for migraines, it now going to take me years to get off them! x

That's interesting Toria because since reducing I've been getting more migraines. I never realised until now that doctors prescribe citalopram for migraines. It should have been explained to you though what they were.

it is what it is sonia i just want off them x

Yes I understand.

So I went up to 7.5 yesterday, a bit heavy headed this am. Not sure where to go from here.

why did you go up lovely? x

I was hoping it would ease the headaches, muzzy head, lightheaded feelings. I'm going back on 5 tonight and sticking with i t.

are they your only symptoms? x

No, those are my worst symptoms. I also have (but not all the time) tiredness, feeling drained, tinnitus, restless legs in bed, insomnia, aches all over, feel like I'm catching a cold, temperature sensitivity, noise sensitivity, feel like I am going to pass out but never do if I'm in a supermarket, brain zaps, palpitations , feeling anxious, nausea. All anxiety related or/and withdrawal related but only happened since withdrawing and if I'm stressed. I still get good days but am back to square one the next day. Can you relate?

My bloods are ok. ENT checked, can't find anything. Heart checked, ok.

can totally relate! do you ever feel like you get ulcers on your tongue? its a new symptom grrrrr! for me the fear and racing thoughts are the worst, i can deal pretty well with pain x

I have an ulcer inside my lower lip right now, don't usually get ulcers.

its strange as ive had them every day for about 2 weeks but they come and go x

I get intrusive thoughts, bad dreams, night sweats, ibs symptons and more. Right now I have a whooshing sound going through my ears/ head. As I said, most of these symptons are only since withdrawing and I don't get them all of the time. I had tinnitus after starting citalopram, it just crept up on me over the years.

so are you wanting to get off it then? x

I have woken with a dry mouth lately and I've been eating nuts,, I'm putting it down to that.

I did initially but if I can stabilise on 5mgs , after going through all I've mentioned I think I'll stick with it. Too much drama if I have to go through this with each reduction, I'm like a hypochondriac at the moment, everyone thinks I am.

dry mouth is a massive symptom lovely i get it all the time x

The ulcer, that is.

im on a very strict diet as can only tolerate certain foods x

Do you mean like gluton free or something?

no i dont drink caffeine, i dont eat sugar and i avoid anything histamine rich, i basically eat the same meal over and over until i settle as lots of foods trigger me x

Yes, they are the worst foods for anxiety. For me they can trigger a migraine so I eat them in moderation.

ive lost so much weight as walk so much and only eat certain things x

When I started reducing citalopram I lost a stone and a half in weight. I had no appetite, I ate a bland diet. I guess it was due to heightened anxiety, it puts me off my food. Over recent weeks my appetite has picked up and I 've started to put weight back on. I guess that's a sign that I was starting to stabilise. I wish the light headedness would pass, that's the worst for me. Worse today after taking that extra 2.5mgs. So now I know.

it takes me a year to get stable from a 2mg drop its rubbish, i do eat more when i feel more stable but still size 8 x