Given in to it.

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After struggling along at work for the past 8 months since diagnosis I've finally given in and taken a month off on sick leave.  My relief is palpable. Even Mr Flip noticed! Lol

I'm not sure if it's depression, fatigue or what, but I'm just not coping. My brain is in a fog, I have no concentration and even less care. 

How do you describe it to others when they say 'what's actually wrong with you?"

I feel like I'm constantly having to justify why I'm 'Not right' when I look ok, can laugh and have a good time but just feel crappy ALL the time.  

 

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  • Posted

    I felt like that also - my husband thought I was as he put it losing the plot.  However on the good side my granddaughter always wanted to do her driving L plates with me as I didn't care if we crashed or not ( unlike her mother who was always uptight). I told her it was up to her to listen to me but that she was in charge and I think it made her a better driver as Grandma didn't care.  As I reduced I'm now at 4mg and 17months into PMR I feel my mind has come back and I think the" don't care" part is our bodies telling us not to stress about anything as it trying to heal.  Just go with the flow - its just us and PMR. Maybe try yoga.
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    I've always been in awe of those of you who have to work whilst suffering from PMR.  I'm sure you will feel much better as a result of taking time off if the experience of others who have done this is anything to go by.  It's nigh impossible for anyone who has never experienced PMR and walked in our shoes to ever understand what it is like.  Don't worry about them, just concentrate on yourself, giving yourself lots of TLC and put yourself first for a change. 
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    Hi Flipover,

    I think it is a very wise decision to take some time off from work.   I tried during the beginning to work fewer days but even found that to much.  We (our bodies and minds) are going through so much with PMR, and all the adjustments we need to make, that we need to focus on ourselves.  For a lot of us that is difficult in itself.  Just rest and be very good to yourself.

    As far as what others think is wrong with us - at first I was reluctant to say anything about PMR but now, for the people I am close to, I try and explain a little because it really is an invisible disease (or disorder or what ever you want to call it) and some people  want to understand what has happened to me.  I tell people I have PMR, an autoimmune disease, and that I take prednisone to treat the inflammation in my muscles that causes pain so bad that I couldn't get out of bed or dress myself.  Most people know about prednisone and that it's a bit of a scary drug so they then know I have something "serious" or I wouldn't be taking it.  I also tell them there are many other symptoms, the worst being fatigue and the inability to concentrate or focus. I also let them know that I have good days and not so good days and hope they understand.  With this explanation I have found everyone to be understanding and caring.

    Sorry for the long spiel but you asked😋.

    I hope you continue to feel better and get some good R & R.

    Hugs, Diana🌸

  • Posted

    Brain probs? PMR and pred. Definitely both and it improves as time goes on - I'm back to normal (as evidenced by managing 3 forums and facebook at once...) And I just packed a suitcase with less clothes than I used to because choosing sent me into a meltdown!

    Byeeeeeee - see you in 3 weeks to hear how you enjoyed your holiday! ;-)

  • Posted

    I hate the 'well you look normal' statement to.  I totaly lost the plot one day when a particulary offisive woman said 'there can't be much wrong with you as you smile all the time, must be drunk!' and this said in the company of my club.  Lost it and shaking told her everything in front of the company she had just belitled me infront of.  Since then she has educated herself on my various conditions and has become the font of all knowledge lol.  Still it's better than being labled lazy :D

     

  • Posted

    Hand all your friends and relatives - even your doctor/practice nurse - a copy of 'The Spoons Theory' by Christine Miseriando. Google it!  CM actually has Lupus, an immune system illness with similar characteristics to PMR, but her sudden idea of using spoons to describe how she felt is brilliant!! It has helped many people on this site.  I use/have used the 'spoons' to put some order into my life.  When the 'spoons' have gone, they've gone!!  No more that day! Try it!

    C. 💐

    • Posted

      I had my husband and some of my friends read the "The Spoons Theory" and it really helped them understand what I go through on a daily basis. In fact, my hubby, will come home from work, take a look at me, and say "Used too many spoons today?", or if I'm having a totally rotten day, I can say to him, "I woke up without any spoons today and he knows immediately what's going on. So fortunate I have such an awesome hubby who gets what I'm going through & is there for me, because I know it isn't easy on him either watching me try to deal with this.
  • Posted

    Being a self employed builder with no sickness benefits available to me, no company sick pay or basic state statutary sickness benefit I was unable to take time off work. Doing not light manual work whilst suffering PMR is not the ideal situation to be in because the body has no chance of repairing the dammage caused and more dammage is likely to happen. 

    Whoever coined the phrase "Hard work doesn't hurt you" was either an idiot or had never tried it themself. With PMR it doesn't just hurt, it nearly kills.

    • Posted

      I have sent you a pm, which maybe of some financial assistance to you.
    • Posted

      No, hard work doesn't hurt you, if you are really healthy in the first place.  PMR and 'really healthy' cannot be used in the same sentence.

      So sorry you can't find financial help.  Have you approached the CAB (Citizens Advice Bureau) - if you are in England that is?  They may be able to help.  At least you will get all available information about being self employed and benefits.

    • Posted

      I am what's known as asset rich but cash poor.Which basically means that I am not entitled to financial help because I have assets that can be realised. Unfortunately, until such monies are raised the official line seems to be "BORROW". Without income or the likelyhood of income soon the banks are reluctant to lend on assets that may prove difficult to realise in the short term.

      The DSS has two words that solve this problem....FAMILY and FRIENDS.

      The moral is Unless you can be sure of good health don't plan for the furure. 

    • Posted

      How awful that word is - BORROW!   What a way to have to go in life!  I wonder how many friends one would have left if one kept trying to borrow off them?  It's a pity the DSS doesn't let you borrow from them!!!  

      It really does make you think that saving for the future is futile.  But a lot of us do it.  We just think we'll be covered in emergencies.  However, PMR, Lupus, etc etc can last for years (and these illnesses are not of the worst!). 😡😡😡

    • Posted

      Take a look at the Attendance Allowance via the web and see if you fit the criteria. Also have a word with the Citizens Advice Bureau.

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