Hard to see this is anxiety/stress/ ibs now :( still got this bowel cancer fear I can't push it away

Ok so I haven't posted in a while about this but this is 3 months going on 4 and it's still here! I'm petrified and i highly doubt anxiety, stress/ ibs can do this for this long.

Ok so first of all the weird feeling i posted about before I'd say has nearly gone however in the day now this is what happens usually. I get up in the morning have breakfast and coffee then go to the toilet then when i go the first bit normally comes out fine looks like a torpedo the normal then that's it it sort of cuts off and unless i strain really hard which i don't do btw there's more left in there that just won't come out leaving me incomplete. 

Like yesterday i did a bit felt incomplete pushed a little and a bit broke off but today I went this morning did the usual felt incomplete but I'm not sure if there is still stool left there now but what I'm dealing with atm is like a pressure in my rectum I did go again after and there was 3 harder sheep pellets that came out so do you reckon they've been there for some time? 

Anyway the bit that's terrifying me if i do empty I sometimes get an urge later on and pass bits of yellow mucus! on it's own no stool. So on Friday i came back from work went to the toilet got a fair bit out and felt pretty empty later on the night had some wet wind and when i got home i wiped and there was some yellow mucus. Now this is where I've got incredibly, incredibly scared I had like a really bad urge on friday like i need to go but couldn't. I did some googling when I know i shouldn't but it said tenesmus it's a symptom of bowel cancer! freaked out again

It also said if you try and go more often this may need and investigation in hospital! so i freaked out again.

Does this sound like a change in bowel habit or am i just obsessing at this point? 

And is what i described tenesmus, is tenesmus like a painful and voilent urge to go like you've got to run or what? It's not like that just a little pressure and sometimes feel like there's trapped wind in there. 

I just can't win I either get incomplete evac or sometimes the mucus if i do empty a bit and I'm terrified do these sound concerning or what. Also two weeks friday I went on the night with a little urge and passed some yellow mucus with a tiny spot of bright red in it. It was barely visible and this is gross I know but i had to go through it with my hands and saw it. 

I've had issues on and off for years, i was actually shocked when it was normal once a day perfect for the last 9 months or so last year. But i can't remember having this bit of pressure before  

Since I've spoke on here last, I've seen two doctors both said the same stress, anxiety maybe ibs and I've also started cbt and done 2 sessions but it's not helping with these issues. And if it is that i doubt it's gonna go because I just can't calm down at all I just keep freaking out thinking it's a mass in my rectum or something.

I have been constipated the last week on and off started drinking allot more now during the day I used to just drink coffee and tea all day. 

Does this sound concerning? 

Cheers,Jack

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