Has anyone been soo down, depressed due to ME/CFS that you have resorted to self harm??

Hope you don't take this the wrong way, but: Doesn't seem like a good way to improve things tbh.

Very sorry to hear that you are feeling so bad and hope that things start to improve for you soon. Better to give yourself a hug and a stroke than do any harm imo, but I realise that may sound rather trite. Good luck with everything.

i have been fed up enough to think about giving up and makeing it easier for my wife... but... i just dont do give up. Been a stroppy git all my life always pushed myself on and always spoken up for others regardless... i have the vie that at the end of each day i look myself in the eyes and decide did i do right today that will always be my judge, so i will keep trying and trying harder, and taking the bad days and trying to get something positive out of each day... did i read enough do enough sleep enough smile at view outside, enjoy the rain / sun/ wind/ experience, did i try........ make little targets and achieve them, even if it seems like making a cup of tea is the best, then make it the best cup of tea and enjoy drinking it! many years ago it was a cup of coffee that saved me, so enjoy and treasure a moment each day, then two moments and then........

Yes Rose; I can understand/know where you you ae coming from.  Many a day I have felt, Why?   It's not showing that we are weak.....no.  I often think it's the other way around....to myself, I think, why do I have to just sit around all day, every day?  I'm intelligent....I have had a career running an Emergency Department (which as you can imagine, was a very hectic work load, constantly Thinking,ensuring I didn't lose This Patient)...I have studied with three post-graduate courses...I'm not stupid, so why am I wasteing my life........and when is the end?   BUT do you know what pulls me up...many things: firstly me;  I tell myself that there is a reason why I'm here, and maybe it's to talk to people who are like you (think, why did I find this web-site to begin with...it was by shear fluke); and yes, I have also studied Counselling, so today I feel justified in having studied that Course, and I thank you for letting me make use of this.  Do you have any family....husband/partner, any children...extended family?  to these people in your llife, is another reason and yes, I also know that there are times that I say, "can't they see what is happening to me? Do they not understand? "   and yes, they do....for it is just in the last few days/weeks, that this has been proven...I wonder, have you ever thought about talking openly, firstly to a counsellor/psychologist  (try to to keep away from psychiatrists, as I feel they dig too deep, and sometiimes due to their superior education, they can't reach us on our level)....but I have spoken to a Psychologist, and each time, have come away feeling, that "at last, someone understands......I've actually been able to talk about me, and they have listened !)....do/would  you try that for me?  You have already contributed soooo much to this site, and have proved invaluable,  please now help yourself?  and keep in contact, as that is why I keep checking into site, to talk and to follow others and find out what they have learn't/know, and you have done that....even by talking today, you have opened up  a huge door for all of us, who have all of those thoughts, because of the Sheer Frustration.....talk again soon.

I've been extremely depressed at times, and I sure understand how you could be depressed. Especially with chronic pain. This is a very difficult illness to cope with. It goes on and on, and people around us don't seem to get how debilitating it is. And isolating. Do you have anyone in your life you can reach out to? A spouse, family member, or close friend? If not, what about a therapist--someone who believes in the illness and won't tell you it's all in your head. When I sought out therapy, that's the first question I asked. The last thing I needed was yet another person questioning my illness. Finding a connection with someone and talking can help counter depression. I've found that it's helpful to focus on the moment and appreciate what's going on in the present. Otherwise, I get too overwhelmed by "what ifs" and catastrophic thinking. Meditation/mindfulness has been an important tool for me in doing this. There's a 6-week free online course sponsored by the University of Massachusetts Medical Center that's been invaluable for me. The hardest thing about depression, I think, is to reach out at a time when you want to do just the opposite. Remember, you're not alone. We're all in this together, doing the best we can. 

Hang in. I don't know your symptoms so hard to give advice but look for the good. Try, as hard as it is in the bad times, to remember the good things. They are there. 

Don't be hard on yourself for the Frustaration re noise of tea drinking etc....having read more re symptoms, to us Loud Noises/light are a symptom of CFS....and yes, when someone (my husband) turns the music up above just that one decibal too much,  it makes me irritable too....have to turn it down!!!  Lawnmosers, vacuum cleaners etc do same....but don't be afraid to speak to a profesional Psychologist...they do undestand....as do we all...and yes, there is no x-rays/blood test etc to confirm, and if you like myself, went through every known test there is known to exclude other conditions, like MS, I became Very frustrated, until eventually, I made an appointment with a Doctor (rhuematologist) who I had worked with for many years, and who knew me....that I got my answere, and pain control....keep reading/researching (and printing out for family) and you will come up with all the answers you and your family need....I found a site that suggests it is ?could be a result of the Chicken Pox Virus ????....and I tend to agree.