Hate myself right now
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So I am supposed to be at a family bbq and instead I’m here lying on the sofa on my own, hubby and kids went without me because I just couldn’t bring myself to go. I was all ready, felt calm and 10 mins before we are due to leave I feel the panic rise and I’m frozen. I told them to go without me and the look of utter disappointment in my hubbys face just broke my heart. Why can’t I just get by this, why can’t I just go and be normal. I absolutely hate myself right now.
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demi48809 laura36585
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dylan78236 laura36585
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Maybe ask your doctor about it? I know adding more drugs seems counter intuitive but if you want to be able to handle stress in the short term theyve helped me alot. I know theyre addictive so I only take them when i need them. Im anxious about getting addicted which is good.
mrs_susan74280 laura36585
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It takes some strength, as I am 10mg prozac ,3 weeks can't cope with worse thoughts, anxiety at night walking up heartbeats strong then a coldness wrapped around stomach, gone down to 5mg, had to was at my wits end, going to try updose again later I think , I was in bed with hot water bottle, frightend to death to go to sleep, taking one day at a time, also tryed escitalopram 5 weeks, woke up sweating terrible lost all appertight, lost 9 lb, plus again bad anxiety, ,
dylan78236 laura36585
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How is your vitamin intake? Ive found since ive been able to take my b-complex, krill oil, magnesium and multivitamins and D3 and I am feeling alot better than before. Im only on 25mg still so i kinda think its more the vitamins thats making me feel better.
And dont focus on what you CANT do. Dont beat yourself up about what you cant do, just focus on what you can do. And i am sure its hard for your family to understand it they havent experienced depression/anxiety before, so dont let that get you down, i know you want to get better for them but like you told me about my situation— dont take on more stress than you have to. Go for an extra walk today. Love yourself! We all love you.
laura36585 dylan78236
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dylan78236 laura36585
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I am also not a big fan of big get togethers. Luckily my family isnt huge so im only ever around 5-6 people and they all know about my anxiety so its easier to deal with because i can participate for a while then go off on my own and do my own thing. Its funny looking back at my life ive always done this— i get exhausted from being around people in a recreational/social setting. I need time to recharge by myself.
Kells123a laura36585
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Hoopz laura36585
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At 50mg I was a wreck. Couldn't drive..go in a shop..walk down the road..I was in a constant state of panic and palpitations. I couldn't do housework or I'd be on the floor. This drug is very slow to work for a lot of people..I am now on 150mg and I can drive..go shopping ... and the anxiety, palpitations and panic attacks have stopped. I'm still not 100% but loads and loads better. I need to work on my diet I think now as it's poor. I need to somehow build up my stamina. There is light at the end of the tunnel...It just feels like a very long tunnel I know. Good luck
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laura36585 Hoopz
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