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hi ya badgirl hope you are ok after all the knocks youve had i think the tablets are just kicking in i feel a bit crap today lousy headache i think thats one of the side effects of chloipramine ive got to up my dosage tomorrow so i might get a bit skitzzy hence the namelet me know how you are doing i dont work if i did i would proberly kill myself joke take care
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I think your doing remakably well, I didnt really realise how ocd could be so debilitating-it really is a debilitating illness.
Ive been up suince 3am..neighbours woke me up..and I just coudlnt get back to sleep. I was doin okay, got through to Uni, and had this really good lecture from someone who suffered with your condtion. What hes been through at what hes achieved /the wole thing is amazing. I reallly think its admirable to just not give up and keep going! But Im feeling low...I lost my essay on a wod document 2010, and ive only got word doc 2003, and my spell checker is brokenso ive been tearing my hair out, srying and I dont knkow.I found an old version so using that now instead.
Im trying to stop drinking too....Ive not had some in a while and really toiling..and feeling unwewell, Flu like symptoms and burning, sort of sharp pain in back and down my hip.
God, then the lecture this afternoon..mad me paranoid about polycystic ovaries ( oh no no!)......
Okay. god I talk about myself to much. I really hope your ok....does that chloromapine help you? Im more of a checker than a worrier about germs, so I understand it a little, but not hugely. Chin up and hope you are ok
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I know im not depressed, im not sleeping very well because of things, but I dont htink im in any way like I was before, but im scared il slip back. dadis just out of hospital and im scared to speak with him because of the scaenarios that go on with my step mum( I like her, I know she means wlee) but I anit going to be some foot grip for her to hold me down and judge me! Okay, that was my 3rd glass of wine.im going to bed. I hope someone can make sense of what im trying to say -, but ill never get passed the lecture\"its okay to be slow\" I dont see it that way, I just dont see things as a one thing. the only way Ive got better is by doing lots of things in lots of places with lots of different people..if that stops ill be singing from lamposts again and puking everywhere-drink or no drink - its till there! What should I do ? Where can I get help? Im having trouble with funding my course and I am really anxious about it? is there anything I can do- or should I give up my dream and end it?
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Good to hear you are feeling a bit better. Why did the doctor want to give you Diazepam? Iam struggling with things at homw, crying too much. Though I dont feel too depressed just tearful /emotional. My daughters birthday is coming up . She will be 10. I cant believe ive been a mum for a decade!
My exs mum has taken really ill and its really not nice ( we are all on edge!!
But missing my girls..I cant wait to see them tomorrow, Theyve gone on holiday with my mum to Loch Lomond. Its lovely there! I couldnt go because mum was trying to make me do some work , and I had work too. Im trying not to drink so much too, but finding it really tough. I must admit though , Ive been worse!
Its good to hear from you!
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Then I have these notions of \"when I get home, im never going out again\" Cant do that...or thats it, Ive had enough...Im so embarassed and fed up with these that I dont want to tell people its started again. I check every alley ( god only knows why..I check everything and perrty sharp I ove if I think anything dodgey is coming my way-but now I seem to just be my own danger.I trapped inside a person I really dont want to be and I cant get out-no matter how hard I scream shout and ball about it , I cant escape. I cant understand why my children love me?
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Anyway, I just feel really peculiar
I saw my dad yesterday and he exclaimed \"Have you lost tons of weight?\"...I dont think I have, but he seemed to think so... My dad always manages to cheer me up...he seems accepting of who I am, and thats that, but I felt weird about my step mum she was cuddily etc, but wanted to not be around me. I found it sad.
My exs m um has probably hours now. It hurts my wrists thinking about it, and finding things hard to swallow!
Not looking at coursework etc0just wanting to stay warm and cuddle my children.
How are you doing? has the diazepam helped?????
Sorry for the negatives but i really just wanted to talk to someone!
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To be precise im a total mess!
Ex mum passed away. it was awful!
Feel so bad, so bad I can hardly walk.
Trying to get an exyension for coursework and had to ring doctors. I mean what are they going to write\"Katy is a pisshead-please extend her work\".maybe thats all I deserve!
My mum is being really annoying. The more she tries to help the more I get cross with her!
I keep choking too , on my tongue no less and all i can taste is sickness.
Anyway, im away to read about unconditional positive regard\" whoop whoop . This is the thing I work hard when I do and I dont think just because I drink or just because im so stressed out my box all the words merge into one or float over my head and I cant take it in at all. Its like total dyslexia . I cant concentrate!
Owe well, life goes on-just not mine. My eldest has taken it all badly-I want to go to bed but really just dont want to feel like this. God I hope you understand me-feeling really lonely!