Health anxiety

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Omg where do I start

I've always been a worrier and started with panic attacks in my 20's. I've had lots of counselling but nothing seems to work, I was put on paroxetine and it did the job. I'm now in my 40s and suffered with anxiety off and on for years. The past few years I've been suffering with health anxiety and I'm now at an all time low. I Google my symptoms constantly sometimes over and over again on the same day. CANCER!:that's all I see. I'm now convinced I have pancreatic cancer. I've lost a stone in weight in a month and am sick with worry. I took myself off to A&E last night because I worked myself into such a state. They did lots of blood testsbut everything OK. I went back to my doctors today and she's sending me for a scan more of a peace of mind thing I think. It's the losing the weight that's frea king me out, I have lots of wind and my stomach makes noises. I've Google this and it came up with pancreatic cancer. But if it's not this cancer it's another 1. I'd rather be dead than live like this, people just don't understand and laugh at me. My partnerves is sympathetic to a point but I know I must get on his nerves. He's even threatened to take the Internet out because it's an obsession. He can't possibly know how I feel because he doesn't suffer. I'm currently on proactive because paroxetine stopped working, but don't feel like it's doing me any good. This horrendous illness has zapped all the life out of me and I can't take any more. I told the doctor I was suicidal and she just said she wold refer me to see someone.I need help now! Forgot to mention my appetite isn't great at the moment either. Feeling very frightened wish I could feel normal😓😓😓

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    Hi Lisa

    please go back to your gp and ask for an immediate referral and explain that you are suicidal and need help.

    this really should not be ignored.

    take care

     

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    Hi Lisa, I can totally relate to this .. I have been experiencing a worrying amount of symptoms for months now and it all started from the most awful headaches, I convinced myself I had a brain tumour, I went to my Opticians to check eyes they reassured me I don't have a tumour however I failed the field vision test which can detect many serious health problems which sent me into even more of a frantic panic.. They are checking my bloods and I have to have scans.. which is indeed having a overwhelming sense of fear and dread and taking its toll.. will continue when I get home but please be assured you are not alone... Have so much more to share with you. Zoe xx

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      I failed the Vision Field Test so they referred me to my doc for pathology tests and a CT Scan... all this has been freaking me out and last week I believed I was having a mini stroke! I felt so weak, shaky, numb and half of my side just felt weak.

      Doc referred me to the medical unit who did loads of tests and convinced me it wasn't a mini stroke. Went to the T.I.A Clinic yesterday who assured me it was a panic attack but my symptoms feel like it's a lot more serious!...

      I have also been googling my symptoms and they have been escalating and it's all getting out of control..

      Since I believed I had a mini stroke

      (which the T.I.A consultant tried to reassure me it wasn't a stroke, it was a panic attack) I'm still not convinced.. I keep googling my symptoms, I feel so weak with tremor, I am expecting the worst diagnosis like MS or something and all weekend I've been experiencing chest pains thinking I'm going to have a heart attack...

      I'm so weak and I have got myself into a right state.. my doc has tried to convince me it's all anxiety related... but how can it be?!! X

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      Also I've been told ... Stop googling all the serious and sinister stuff and googling stress/acute anxiety and our symptoms do all relate ... ;-))

      I have also lost my appetite as been worrying myself sick but this is also common due to stress.

      It's the weakness that is freaking me out but I have to believe it's all stress beacause I am making myself worse fearing the worst xx lots of love to you 💖

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      I know how you feel zoe. I told the doctor I was suicicle and she didn't bat a eyelid. She said we've done bloods and il send you for a scan but there's nothing more we can do for you. just get in touch with lets talk! Which is a counselling group. I think I'm having a nervous breakdown x

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      That's shocking Lisa! They tell me to get in touch with IAPT but they didn't work for me.. We need to be referred to see a psychiatrist.. I'm not suicidle but I know I need specialised help xx There are people who can help you Lisa .. Can you change your doctor?

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      I understand totally x I have seen some rubbish Doc's in the past.. and I've broke down and I've been so distressed I had no hope.. But I'm happy with the Doc's I see now, and it's important that they understand, and don't belittle it .. a good doc will support you and give you reassurance that you will get better .. I wish you could see my doc xx

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      I wish I could too. The doctor today just brushed me aside. I had a total meltdown and was crying and she just sat there and well didn't do anything, offer me any reassurance or anything xx

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    Hello Lisa I can't imagine what your going through but one hing I've bin told is not to look up horrible things on the internet I made that mistake and I even panicked even more I myself suffer panic disorder and severe anxiety and I'm getting the same symptoms you are getting I've bin in out of hospital put on all different medicines not working all I can do is see a psychotherapist and I've bin accepted for that long term..if you can try and talk to someone you are close to..it's not a nice situation to be in at all it will take some time to get better your not alone..try do activities that you enjoy to keep you from thinking so much I really hope you get better very soon love

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    It is amazing, I think docs become so jaded by ill folks, they seem to disscociate from the patient and their ills.  

    If you have not been checked for Celiac Disease, please get them to. It is often the problem that many docs do not see until it is too late (if you get the test, make sure you are eating glutenus foods prior to testing)

    If you are not eating, you will feel sicker. Your body need good fuel, when you eat, eat only meat and veggies, limit fruit and always eat it with nuts or other quality protein. 

    hope you feel better soon!

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