Health anxiety taking over my life....please help!!
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I have been suffering from health anxiety now since having my first daughter 6 years ago. It got so bad I become agoraphobic and suffered terrible panic attacks. I really thought after having CBT therapy and years of feeling better I had finally over come this. I had my second daughter a year ago and 4 months ago it's suddenly come back out of the blue. I feel the worst I have ever felt.
It started with a pain in my right breast. I was and still am convinced something is wrong. My GP reassured me on two occasions that all was ok but I was not convinced. She referred me to the breast clinic where I saw a consultant and had a breast ultrasound. All came back fine but here I am still convinced they have missed something and constantly googling every slight twinge that I have.
What is wrong with me? Somedays I just sit and cry and just long to be a normal person. I watch people walking down the street and just wished I could be normal like them. I would love to just wake up without having the black cloud above my head or just somebody to say it's going to be ok?!
I was just wondering really if anybody else out there has ever constantly worried even though being told they are ok? I'm thinking about paying for a second ultrasound but would that really help? My husband doesn't understand. He tries to comfort my crying but how can he when he doesn't know what's really wrong.
Really appreciate any advice!!
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MrFez sallyann54427
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I suffer from (largely) health anxiety and low mood disorder, from constant feelings of allergic reaction when I eat to heart pains and palpatations and panic attacks. All of these symptoms feel incredibly real, and are very, very frightening. I have a few words of advice for you.
Firstly you have to stop googling illness, I did this for a long time and it makes everything much, much worse. The more types of illness you know about the more illness you will diagnose yourself with.
Instead, do research into health anxiety disorder, and learn to understand better the impact that might be having on your brain and body. For me, understand what was happening in my body whilst having a panic attack has allowed me to understand and control it.
Thirdly, try and arrange with your GP to go through some CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy). For me this was a revelation, learning how to control (to some extent) the symptoms and learning how to manage anxiety within my life.
If your anxiety is taking over and causing depression, also speak to your GP who will be able to perhaps perscribe you an anti-depressant (most of which are also used to treat anxiety disorders).
Aside from that just know you are not alone, and there is nothing abnormal about the way your feeling, many of us feel the same way
hope this was helpful
sallyann54427 MrFez
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I am going to see my gp again tomorrow so I think I will mention about seeing somebody for CBT.
Your right it feels so very very real. I honestly think I am going out my mind. Google has become a nightmare. I have convinced myself of all sorts. I will however look more into health anxiety and educate myself better as if I'm honest I don't know a lot about it.
Thankyou again.
MrFez sallyann54427
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vickykm12345 sallyann54427
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sallyann54427 vickykm12345
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I am trying to get out more and try and take baby to groups it's just I can't seem to have a conversation properly either. It's like my mind is constantly focused on me being poorly or something being wrong.
I am trying to take each day as it comes I just wished it was brighter but fingers crossed I can do this!!!
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kirsty1989 sallyann54427
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I'm exactly same as you I get chest pain and think I'm having a heart attack or Iv got breast cancer, Iv had every illness going, I'm constantly asking my partner if something was wrong with me they would have found it in the tests they did, this all started for me after I had my daughter nearly 6 months ago x
sallyann54427 kirsty1989
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Whether is could be post natal going on I'm not sure but if I'm honest u have had this for some time it's just this time it's getting out of control.
If I could sit and cry the whole day I would. Has yours eased any Kirsty? Have you found anything which helps?
kirsty1989 sallyann54427
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tracie20455 sallyann54427
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roxanne33073 sallyann54427
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sallyann54427
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Somedays are better than others. I'm the same constantly checking my breasts in a way to reassure my self but at the same time I am making myself worse. I can't seem to enjoy anything as it is always there in my mind. I will talk to my gp I think about medication as I can't see myself beating it alone this time. I would start to panic about medication though that's the problem.
It was my daughters first birthday last week and my sister thinks that something's not right. I can never sit still and I'm always doing something. It's like I have to to try and push away these thoughts of mine.
I just feel such a mess. My husband thinks I'm stupid wanting a second opinion so soon. One thing I do know is though that google is making me worse. Everything that comes up is breast cancer!!!
Just can't thankyou all enough for listening to me and not telling me I need to get a grip!!!
kirsty1989 sallyann54427
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