help me stop
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Please help . Ive been feeling really down the past two years and my drinking has got out of control . I drink a 75cl bottle of vodka a day with red bull energy drink . I hardly ever sleep and wake around 4.30 am every day have a glass of lucozade and then start on the vodka . How do i stop ? I feel ill and sick every day . I know i need to stop , but every day i tell myself tommorow will be the day , but tommorow never comes . Strangely i am never drunk i think i just must be used to it as the vodka has no effect on me now . I lost my younger brother 2 years ago in an accident just weeks before his 18th birthday . It was a big shock . Im agoraphobic so I very rarely leave the house . I can not turn to family as everybody is suffering with the loss of my brother . My panic attacks have got worse and I cant sleep . I have bad nightmares . Is there any way of just stopping drinking . I want to stop now
Thwnk you anybody that has taken the time to read
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ADEfree Ninzy
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Ninzy, you've come to the right place. Congratulations on recognizing that you have a problem, it's almost a certainty that you can get on top of this if you want to.
Just so we can help get you pointed in the right direction, are you in the UK, US, Oz, etc?
Do you have a regular doctor?
ADEfree Ninzy
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BTW, It's rather late where I am, so I'll be hitting the sack. Just wanted to get things rolling, if someone else doesn't pop in with some input, I'll get back to you tomorrow morning. Don't worry, what you want to do can be done, 100% for sure.
RHGB Ninzy
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I think you have too many other issues other than alcohol misuse, to cope without it. I think anything you try to do to give up drinking is unlikely to work because of these external factors.
They need to be dealt with first, before you can even contemplate removing alcohol from the equation. Have you thought about asking your GP for counsellling? I know you're going to say you suffer from anxiety etc. and couldn't contemplate going to see your GP. Two things, he may be able to prescribe something to help your anxiety and secondly, if you're holed up in your home and don't tell anyone, how is anyone ever going to know you need help and be able to offer help?
Ninzy
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Im not good with keeping appointments , what I really wanted to know is there anything I can do from home to stop . I do tell myself daily thats it tomorrow im not goimg to drink . I think im more addicted to the energy drinks than the vodka because I get cracking headaches when ive tried to go without
I know that people will think I need to deal with my brothers sudden death but talking does not help . It will not bring him back
Is there any tablets that I could buy to replace the drink that would give me energy ? With my ocd im constantly active and running on very little energy
Thank you for replys
RHGB Ninzy
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You shouldn't need tablets, just eat a decent diet. I bet you don't eat very well? I'm not be patronising, just that that is so ofteen the cause that people don't eat properly three times a day.
h1954 Ninzy
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Hi , Ninzy. I'm so pleased you recognize you need help and this forum is a good place:-) to be. And I'm so sorry for the loss of your brother, it must have been devastating for you and your family.
Just wondering - do you live alone?
You feel like you don't get drunk. But I reckon if you feel ill and sick every day you are getting drunk, but you don't notice it.
The headaches will be withdrawal from both the energy drinks and the vodka probably.
I know it's not easy for you, but I strongly urge you to see your doctor, before you end up really ill and in hospital. Please don't try to stop drinking completely at the moment as that can be very dangerous. But could you maybe cut down by a little every other day? Alternate between red bull and a different mixer eg lemonade, because as you know the red bull is stopping you sleeping, so gradually stopping that will help.
But please see your doctor, even though it's difficult. Then you might be able to get home based alcohol advice, they do it in some places.
I wish you well.
Ninzy
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I have made an appointment with my doctor for friday and im going to be honest and tell them about my drinking
Yes I very rarely eat . Its hard to explain how I am without sounding like im a complete nut job . I eat onve a day and its usually just a sandwich . I do cook healthy meals daily , but I have a weird fear of food touching
I have my son living at home with me . He will be 18 later this year . He knows I drink alot . I used to hide it by filling pop bottles , but it didn't take him long to figure out what I was doing
I was under mental health and had home visits . I stopped this just after I lost my brother because I didn't want anybody in my home . I was under mental health with my ocd not for drinking
I only drink lucozade or energy drinks , but I will start to drink more lucozade and cut the vodka and redbull down
Thank you
RHGB Ninzy
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'Yes I very rarely eat'
That's because you are getting all your calories from alcohol and energy drinks. But you are getting nothing proper like nutrients and vitamins that your body needs to function on. It will give you brain fog, as it is empty calories, like eating sugar and white bread all the time.
As you as you cut down the energy drinks and alcohol, your body will start to crave food and make you hungry again. Meanwhile your GP should be prescribing you vitamins to make up for what you are not getting through proper food intake.
Ninzy RHGB
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Thank you
RHGB Ninzy
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Now remember, don't find an excuse not to go tomorrow. You need to at least have the conversation so that you can take it from there. He/she may not be overly helpful, but if that is the case, we can advise you of the next set of steps to take.
thomas1967 Ninzy
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Hi ninzy
It really is a difficult situation your in, I myself was a heavy drinker and whilst on holiday last year had a pancreas attack due to alcohol consumption, I had drank heavily all my life, as did my family, but In hospital they told me I had to stop which was the scare I needed, I think when your in a dark place it's a scare you need.
I have not drank for 9 months and have no intention of doing so, I take each hurdle as it comes, first football match without alcohol, first birthday, first Father's Day and so on, I'm currently on my first holiday without drinking alcohol, it really is an eye opener an though you don't believe it right now, life is so much better and clearer and enjoyable without alcohol, honestly if I can do it anyone can, hope I can be of some help to you
Thomas x
Ninzy thomas1967
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Thank you thomas
I have reached a point now where I know its a problem . I have brushed it aside for too long now . I feel really ill every day , but with my ocd I push myself . Anybody that does not have ocd finds it hard to understand . Its like my brain will not switch off . I get my energy from redbull and the vodka calms me and helps me block over thinking
Well done for quitting . You must be really proud of yourself
I am going to do this
Thank you
x
thomas1967 Ninzy
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Hi ninzy
Yep I am proud, but it is still difficult, I know I don't understand ocd, but I think if you went the doctors and had some tests done that would be the scare you need, I to was unwell for a long time and just kept ignoring it till I ended up in hospital, I didn't think I was doing any harm but I was, I lost my sister due to alcoholism, it didn't stop me though, I also lost another sister, both around the same time, life is hard but it's even harder when you mask over things.
Please go the docs, make that the first step
Thomas x
ursulauc62 Ninzy
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I have OCD though its fairly under control now, but it still effects me a bit every day. I used to have it much worse, so I know how awful it can be. I used to spend so long checking things and doing rituals before going to bed that I never got enough sleep and was exhausted in the morning - and the more anxious I got about the OCD making me lose sleep, the worse it got.
I didnt even go to the Dr about it because it was some years back, and I didnt even know it was a recognised condition - I thought I was just going mad!
What does help it quite a lot sometimes are anti-depressants. I am prescribed prozac, as I had bad depression as well, and it did also help the OCD.
Anything that helps the OCD may well help youre other problems. Are you on any medication currently? You sound quite like my sister who drinks alot and hardly ever eats and actually still works fulltime. She does look totally washed out all the time though. God knows how she keeps going, but I'm very worried about her.
Please tell the Dr about all your problems and fears.
Take Care.
angela26170 Ninzy
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Hi Ninzi,so sorry to hear your problems,so awful about your brother,no wonder you starting drinking vodka.Do you really need energy drinks at all? Try vitamins,and your doc should recommend protein drinks.I drink half bottle vodka day,but don't start until 9pm ish,and go to bed around midnight,nothing to be proud of,no,I worry about my health,but your life sounds a constant battle.You need to visit your family,and I,m sure they would want to help you,you need to distract yourself from your usual routine,I don't understand your phobia,but tell your family,so they can come to you.You need help from your doc,but try and cut down a little,and start later,when I have my vodka and Pepsi max with ice,I feel relaxed and eventually feel sleepy enough to go to bed and sleep,yes,one wakens quicker and more frequent with alcohol,but your life seems a constant battle,I wish I could help.I hope your doc does all he can for you,now you are "crying out for help" you are on the road,long road,but your recovery has started.x