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hyper aware of my own conciousness

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alison82593
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Has anyone experienced this? It's like i get anxiety from being alive. My surroundings are strange and almost unreal. Sometimes I question if things are real. I know they are but then I start thinking really deeply about life and the universe and just weird stuff. When I wake up I feel a huge rush if panic. It's like im scared of living. I'm scared of dying too though. I find life really strange and everything we do is just strange kind of. I've read about derealization and stuff like that. This time it feels different then that. Almost like im new to living. Or an alien almost. I've become too aware of my own self and the world that it's actually uncomfortable it's like being high on a drug but I don't do drugs at all. Has anyone felt this. It happens everyday and the anxiety is almost constant. I feel insane. Like no one should think this deeply about life and existence. I've spoke to professionals and they say it's anxiety and ocd but it feels weird. I wish I could just not over think everything and be dumb.

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  • shaun45836
    shaun45836 alison82593

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    I am the same life can be scary at times and I think worrying about death is common with anxiety well I have had the same thoughts so you are not alone that's for sure try keeping active exercise regularly 30 mins a day at least go for walks in the countryside. it's good you are speaking out because it's not good to keep things bottled in . When these thoughts pop into your head think positive thoughts somwere you want to go people you want to see put the tv on and watch a comedy film to uplift your mood listen to uplifting music bob marley evry thing is going to be alright is a suggestion I no its not easily done but you have a life to live and I'm sure u have friends and family who care about you reach out to them tell them your worries if you feel you can't do that I'm here if you want to chat about anything.if you can't do all the above in one go do it in small steps you should consider going to the doctors there is medication that can help you get on with your life it's not nice battling anxiety but you have already made your first step to recovery by reaching out and expressing your thoughts don't let anxiety take control of you you have so much to live for hope this helps you in some way shaun
    • alison82593
      alison82593 shaun45836

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      These thoughts make me feel like im going crazy. Then I vet strange thoughts like what if all this wasn't actually real and freak myself out. I know it sounds childish but it makes me really anxious. My mind just always races. I look at everything and it's just so strange to me at times. Like literally anything I look at will just be weird. It's hard to explain
  • shaun45836
    shaun45836 alison82593

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    I no where you are coming from you should see a doctor maybe ask a family member to go with you explain evry thing and be honest I can tell you that you are real the things around you are real It's not nice having these thoughts I no but you should seek help because you deserve a happy life you owe yourself that when these thoughts pop into your head think about the things you would like to do or be and take small steps to achieve that you can over come this Alison but you have to get the strength that we all have inside us even when we feel weak it is still there remember your a beautiful human being and people care I care and hope you overcome this as soon as possible and become a stronger person for it
    • alison82593
      alison82593 shaun45836

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      Thank you so much. Reading that made me feel better. Anxiety csn do amazing things to us. I know everyone is real but the feelings of derealization get so intense it feels like they arent. Then my ocd wants to question everything. It's a mess. I feel like it's something time will heal. Doctors only say to take my meds. I'm not into meds. I've been through something similar to this before years ago. I got over it. I just hope I can do the same this time
  • shaun45836
    shaun45836 alison82593

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    I'm glad you feel bette Alison and I am here for you even though I can't be with you in person I will help you evry step of the way in any way possible another thing I think may help you is when you feel down think to yourself I'm Alison I'm better than this I'm alive and in good health and I'm going to enjoy evry moment of this if you don't find that helpful switch your favour ate tv program on and try put your mind off the negative thoughts live life laugh I'm not saying sit in front off the tv all day get fresh air go for walks exercise I'm sure you will get through this Alison if there's anything else you would like to get off your chest stay in touch Alison I would like to no how you are getting on and coping all the best love shaun
    • alison82593
      alison82593 shaun45836

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      Thank you so much. I just feel like im going crazy or that I already am. I've always had severe anxiety and it's always from deep thinking or for no reason at all. I'm glad I'm not a lone. I've read others who have experienced the same thing also.
  • shaun45836
    shaun45836 alison82593

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    My pleasure to help Alison all the best in your road to recovery I'm here if you want to discus this further if you would like 1 to 1 chats you could have my email if not stick to the forum all the best
  • kayla1865
    kayla1865 alison82593

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    I have those symptoms everyday.. I'm getting tired of them. But, I'm getting into therapy. I just have to wait for them to call me.
    • alison82593
      alison82593 kayla1865

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      It so uncomfortable it's weird to exist to me.. along with everything else. Does it cause you a lot of anxiety
    • shaun45836
      shaun45836 alison82593

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      Stay strong Alison You have a life to lead you are important you can live a happy life things won't always be like this get help go to your doctor do you have diffusivity sleeping there are videos on YouTube called asmr requests they realy help you need .like I say get stronger yourself and one day you could be strong enough to help other people who are going through simular things all the best shaun
  • lisalisa67
    lisalisa67 alison82593

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    You know in some cultures you would be considered extraordinary with that. I know that sounds awful because your so uncomfortable but if trained properly you could easily self calm yourself. It has to be geared properly and with positivity. 
    • lisalisa67
      lisalisa67 alison82593

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      You should go on utube and go to healing meditations. Try a few.heightened awareness is a goid thing during these meditatiins. Try. There are oeople who use theta waves to get heightened sensitivty but you have it so train it.
    • alison82593
      alison82593 lisalisa67

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      I feel like it might make it worse. I think it's just something I need to deal with. I just find life so strange. I've always had bad anxiety and the drs say that I have ocd that's why I'm always having racing thoughts about this kind of stuff. I know everyone thinks about it but it causes anxiety
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