I am definitely terminally ill!!
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Can't cope no more.
Suffered anxiety round my early teens. Reached its peak at 16. At 18 got better, seemed to almost go away. Turn 22 and it's back from no where. Had a few days of bloating belly ache and I have a panic attack. From then I feel sick, tired, down, I have constant upper belly discomfort. To top it off had a scare back in Novmeber about ovarian cancer (all came back clear) diagnosed with polystic ovaries. I am in constant discomfort in the upper part of my belly and round my ribs. It feels tight - almost like it feels when your reaching your peak doing belly exercises. My belly seems to twitch lots. I'm constantly thinking about my belly. To top it off all I seem to hear about at the minute is bwoel cancer, liver cancer, pancreatic cancer and bile duct cancer. I literally can't relax. I feel guilty if I am ill, for getting ill and putting it on my children. I feel like crying all the time. I've had ultrasounds, bloods, dr feeling belly, stool sample, internal camera by gyna. I just don't know what to do!
My gps next step is a endoscopy which I've just read about and I am absolutely out my mind. I dorm like being put to sleep incase I didn't wake up but the thought of being awake is a close feeling too! Then I look up complications and that's it I can barely breath thinking I'm defiantly going to be in the small percentage of people who have them.
I don't even know what the post is for jsut need to get it out! Feel free to comment
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Soanxious georgina_80922
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georgina_80922 Soanxious
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Thing is when I sit for a second and deep breath and relax I can alsmost feel this discomfort subside.
That was my first panic attack back in Novmeber. It was from my sleep. I woke up shot up and was unable to breath. Didn't last to long not as long as some people have them. I have a lot of shoulder and neck aches aswel. I'm adiment my symptoms are from something major than anxoety causing them. I haven't been through anything major for anxoety to show its ugly head which makes things a lot harder
Guest georgina_80922
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Your health is out of your hands. You have spoken to your doctors and you have taken the appropriate steps. That's all you can do at this point. Any anxiety at this point just takes away from your own life and takes you away from your children.
Think about the happier moments in your life, and try to get back to those. It's hard but you can do it.
If you need anything, keep posting on this forum or send me a PM.
All the best.
georgina_80922 Guest
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My belly just constantly feels off all over really.
I'm so fed up.
I have told my gp as I'm worried he wil just put my symptoms down to anxoety and not test further.
I haven't told no one else. Not my partner mums no one.
I feel I'm silly for feeling this way and quite embarrassed
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nicole101681 georgina_80922
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