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Can't cope no more.
Suffered anxiety round my early teens. Reached its peak at 16. At 18 got better, seemed to almost go away. Turn 22 and it's back from no where. Had a few days of bloating belly ache and I have a panic attack. From then I feel sick, tired, down, I have constant upper belly discomfort. To top it off had a scare back in Novmeber about ovarian cancer (all came back clear) diagnosed with polystic ovaries. I am in constant discomfort in the upper part of my belly and round my ribs. It feels tight - almost like it feels when your reaching your peak doing belly exercises. My belly seems to twitch lots. I'm constantly thinking about my belly. To top it off all I seem to hear about at the minute is bwoel cancer, liver cancer, pancreatic cancer and bile duct cancer. I literally can't relax. I feel guilty if I am ill, for getting ill and putting it on my children. I feel like crying all the time. I've had ultrasounds, bloods, dr feeling belly, stool sample, internal camera by gyna. I just don't know what to do!
My gps next step is a endoscopy which I've just read about and I am absolutely out my mind. I dorm like being put to sleep incase I didn't wake up but the thought of being awake is a close feeling too! Then I look up complications and that's it I can barely breath thinking I'm defiantly going to be in the small percentage of people who have them.
I don't even know what the post is for jsut need to get it out! Feel free to comment
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