I am unable to care for myself and am losing interest in life

I am so tired today and finding mmyself in bed more and more.

I get out of bed , have a peunt butter sandwhiche and take myself back to bed.

I cant manage my medication and have little interest in taking prozac and the HIV drugs, I have multiple Anti biotics to take for the infection of my Lympatic Nodes I have had for the past month.

I am retreating into my own world and not able to cope with appointments , often missing them now due to my mental health and lack of interest in my issues of eviction soon to be.

I often dont even know what day it is now.

Maybe the way I am feeling is irreversable , I dont really care.

Anxiety follows me into the appointments where I again have to go through my housing issues, the details of false allegations made against me, and i am like alwys then referred onto the next person to go through the whole process again only to ebd up where I am now and here.

I have been here before , but as time closes in on me and the day comes when there is that knock at the door and I am told to get out of my home, I really dont want to be found alive.

I have done my fight and done it mainly alone .

There is no one able to stop what is happening to me.

I email and write to everyone I can think of and the responses have even stopped coming.

I understand my situation and have aacepted there is just one way to win my 4 year battle that has been the core reason I was diagnosed with anxiety 2 1/2 years ago .

For many there is hope and for some there is nothing to hold onto.

I will always be a winner. No matter what is to come of me.

PJ

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