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I am unable to care for myself and am losing interest in life

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ozzie1961
ozzie1961

I am so tired today and finding mmyself in bed more and more.

I get out of bed , have a peunt butter sandwhiche and take myself back to bed.

I cant manage my medication and have little interest in taking prozac and the HIV drugs, I have multiple Anti biotics to take for the infection of my Lympatic Nodes I have had for the past month.

I am retreating into my own world and not able to cope with appointments , often missing them now due to my mental health and lack of interest in my issues of eviction soon to be.

I often dont even know what day it is now.

Maybe the way I am feeling is irreversable , I dont really care.

Anxiety follows me into the appointments where I again have to go through my housing issues, the details of false allegations made against me, and i am like alwys then referred onto the next person to go through the whole process again only to ebd up where I am now and here.

I have been here before , but as time closes in on me and the day comes when there is that knock at the door and I am told to get out of my home, I really dont want to be found alive.

I have done my fight and done it mainly alone .

There is no one able to stop what is happening to me.

I email and write to everyone I can think of and the responses have even stopped coming.

I understand my situation and have aacepted there is just one way to win my 4 year battle that has been the core reason I was diagnosed with anxiety 2 1/2 years ago .

For many there is hope and for some there is nothing to hold onto.

I will always be a winner. No matter what is to come of me.

PJ

 

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  • elizabeth20203
    elizabeth20203 ozzie1961

    Posted

    Hello Ozzie,  What date is the eviction i know it is near now? I know you have exhausted every avenue and come to nothing, no help for a man with mental health and other illnesses to contend with. I am ashamed that this as happened to you in a country that cares for refugees whom are given food, shelter and medical care. ( i have nothing against helping refugees ) but to not help a man living in this country and allow him to be homeless through no fault of his own, because of lies from nasty neighbours is beyond my understanding. There are individuals that care on this forum, we are all thinking and praying for you, i am actively praying as a christian for a resolution to your situation. Please find the strength to eat, your body needs fuel to function. How did you get on with the media, did you write to them?  You are a unique individual that has a heart for others, you have helped others on this forum, so i know you are a caring person. 

    Elizabeth. xx

    • ozzie1961
      ozzie1961 elizabeth20203

      Posted

      I am supposed to be with court documentation, I ahve nothing in writing.

      We were given 6 weeks . 42 days by the court to move out of the property.

      This is up on Thursday.

      I wrote several emails to the media , no replies from any of them.

      Thanks Lou

      PJ

    • Fairy28
      Fairy28 ozzie1961

      Posted

      Another thought - have you no papers from the court ? I have no legal knowledge but can anyone actually evict you without the relevant paperwork - just thinking.
    • ozzie1961
      ozzie1961 Fairy28

      Posted

      yes i am also aware of this The CAB are questioning why I am without any paperwork still.

      They want to see me again next Monday.

      And my point is here Lou

      I am exhausted from one appointment to the next that all leads to nothing.

      I am really giving up on having support for anything.

      Society and THE Uk has let me down do badly.

      There is only myself that can then make the ultimate choices of what my options are.

      And i am feling now it is this that i need to concern myself with.

      The rest has become pointless going around and around for 3 years being told we cant help you.

      PJ

    • elizabeth20203
      elizabeth20203 ozzie1961

      Posted

      Hello Ozzie, can you get an advocate from CAB to speak on your behalf and support you? 

      Elizabeth 

    • ozzie1961
      ozzie1961 elizabeth20203

      Posted

      Elizabeth give me a moment as I have been talking to the lovely LOu in private about my current situation.

      I am so tired right now the best i can do is forward you what i have already explained to her

      Cheers

      Ill message it back to you in 2 minutes

      PJ

    • elizabeth20203
      elizabeth20203 ozzie1961

      Posted

      I have pm you, sorry for it's lateness, i have had grandkids today so been busy.
    • elizabeth20203
      elizabeth20203 ozzie1961

      Posted

      Sent you a pm. They do one is nearly 4 the other is nearly 16mths. I love their cuddles and smiles and innocence.
    • ozzie1961
      ozzie1961 elizabeth20203

      Posted

      UPDATE THURS 25TH JUNE

      I HAVE JUST HAD 2 MEDIA PEOPLE AT MY HOME FOR 2 HOURS FILMING ME SPEAKING ABOUT MY STORY AND THE SITUATION i AM IN TODAY.

      THER ARE DOING A DOCUMENTARY ON THE PLIGHTS OF HOMELESSNESS.

      tHEY ARE SEEING IF AT LEAST 3 OF OUR NEIGHBORS WILL SPEAK TO THEM REGARDING MY SITUATION AT THIS MONET.

      i AM WITH MORE ANXIETY HAVING TO RAISE MY ISSUES AND AM NOW MEDICATED TO RETURN TO BED TO TRY TO STOP THE ANXITY I AM WITH

      x

      I HAVE NOT GONE TO THE ROYAL FREE TODAY AND AM NOW FINISHED FOR THE DAY

      x

      HUGS pHIL

       

    • elizabeth20203
      elizabeth20203 ozzie1961

      Posted

      Hello Phil,  I am glad that the media have been in touch and taking your situation seriously. Hope you get some rest and will speak to you shortly.

      Hugs Elizabeth xx

    • ozzie1961
      ozzie1961 elizabeth20203

      Posted

      So I am 

      Whether this will have any impact on what is about to happen, I dont know at all.

      I am trying to rest but my mind is all over the place right now.

      I have ahd yet another email from one of the Board of Directors from the T H T , and again find them continuing to reccomend referrals that are unhelpful to my needs and I have responded to them.

      Hugs

      Phil

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    • elizabeth20203
      elizabeth20203 ozzie1961

      Posted

      Hello Phil,  How are you?  I am not around much today, more so tomorrow. Thinking of you. 

      Hugs Elizabeth 

    • ozzie1961
      ozzie1961 elizabeth20203

      Posted

      Hi Elixabeth

      thanks for thiinking of me first thing in the morning

      I have had a little window of HOPE open up to me yesterday after a phone call from Stonewall Housing.

      I am going to try to wash myself and do a little cleaning of the home today.

      God willing I can achieve this and hope start eating again.

      Have a lovely day

      Phil

  • jamie68756
    jamie68756 ozzie1961

    Posted

    The Power of Now.
    • ozzie1961
      ozzie1961 jamie68756

      Posted

      Thank you Jamie

      for those few but empowering strenth in words.

      I hear you mate

      PJ

    • jamie68756
      jamie68756 ozzie1961

      Posted

      You're Welcome. Its a book I think you should read, I was hoping you would google it. Download a pdf version for free, type 'The power of Now pdf' into google. I genuinely look forward to hearing what you think, even if you get back to me after a couple of chapters.
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