I can't believe this is my life now.

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I was a normal 43 year old working woman one month ago. Suddenly, at work I had an aura w/o migraine. I had no idea what was happening to me and thought I was fainting due to a particularly heavy period. I was transported by ambulance to the hospital and released 5 hours later. It happened again two days later and then two days after that. Since then, I have had eye disturbances (blurry, flashes of light, wavy lines, visual snow, etc.). I had ever test imaginable (bloodwork, thyroid, hormones, CT scan, MRI, carotid ultrasound, etc.). I have seen my primary, a neurologist, ER twice, ophthalmologist, and the obgyn. Everyone says my tests are normal/negative and I'm okay. I'm not okay...at all.

As all this testing began, I started getting waves of nausea with sweating on palms and feet. Then, came the flu-like feeling. Along the way, I started having intense anxiety. Mornings and nights brought adrenaline surges. I have so many strange sensations that there's too many to list. Least fun, are the palpitations, pressure/tension in head, internal shaking, inability to relax, and constant worry that I will have another aura.

Prior to this starting, I was planning on changing jobs and pursuing a second masters degree. Now, I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown and about to lose my job. I cry everyday. I feel like my whole life is over. I am single and don't have any children. I'm scared, alone, and just wish someone would help me.

I'm so confused. I thought perimenopause was just hot flashes and sweating. I work with dozens of middle aged women who are thriving. Why am I so sick and housebound?!

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    I have had the same experience since I was 51 years old, still suffering a lot of symptoms. I have been emergency 4 times with different issues. Now even my GP gives up me. I have found I have thyroid problem, still having. I had experienced muscle turn around inside my body, firework in side my body, electronic shock inside my body, clogged throat, burning mouth, joint pain, fibromyalgia, anxiety, depression , body ache ,neuropathy, palpitation , thyroid enlargement and so on, so on. I had to deal with each of them. My life is so difficult, have no idea where to go. After two yeras, I got used to it, just like my doctor said, that your new balance! But we will get better and better, if we do not give up! Hold your hands!

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      Thank you for replying. It is such a sad way to live....such suffering. My doctor said something similar to me, "...this is your new normal and you have to get used to it." I hope everyone here gets better...we deserve to thrive.

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    I was in the same nightmare a year ago. I was convinced that I had a kind of terminal disease. It is unbelievable the impact of estrogen loss in our bodies. I am on hrt. My blood tests were normal too but after changing a lot of gyns I found someone who knows and cares. My life is back to normal. Hope it helps! 😃

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    hi there! i know this is an older post but i am wondering if your symptoms have improved and if so, how you did it! ❤

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    i too had the eye disturbances, i tripped over items because my peripheral vision was terrible it caused me extreme anxiety because they couldnt find anything wrong i questioned my doctors ability i felt like i was going crazy.

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    Welcome friend! You are not alone. Unfortunately, many women suffer and fake it until they make it so to speak. For those of us with symptoms that are over the top and terrible, it's harder. That's why I love this group so much! You are not alone! I have experienced so many of the same symptoms with no explanation from medical doctors. I would HIGHLY recommend finding a hormone specialist or functional medical doctor. Acupuncture and herbs have helped me more than anything. In the beginning of mine, I would type in a symptom into an Amazon search and see what products came up and read the reviews. It has been a wild ride; it has gotten better for me, but it takes a lot of time and it's really stressful. I have thought many times that I was losing my mind. But you know yourself, and you're going to be okay! Research and keep popping in here! It helps!

    XOXOXO!

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    I have a similar story I was wondering how do you feel now?

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    Hi, this is an old discussion but I recognize a lot I was wondering do you feel any better in the meantime?

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