I can't take this anymore! Is there any way to get help?
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Hi I'm 23 years old and for the past year I've been suffering from palpitations. I've been to many cardiologists the last one diagnosed me with inappropriate sinus tachycardia. Ever since that diagnosis I suddenly became ultra aware of my own heartbeat. That caused the beginning of a string of panic attacks. I tried therapy but it didn't work for me. Then out of the blue I started suffering from intense nocturnal panic attacks which caused my heart beat to reach 175-180 beats and stay like that for like 20 minutes. Last night I had one of the most potent, debilitating, extreme panic attacks I've ever experienced. I was crying for help and my mother rushed in. I was drenched in sweat crying like a moron cursing and begging I was completely erratic. My pulse was around 170 and as soon as I saw that it made my panic attack even worse. 40 minutes and half a xanax later I started to calm down. My mom seemed totally disappointed. You see I've always been a winner. Back in high-school I was a valedictorian full of dreams and ambitions, I ve won many international contests, I was a driven person full of life caring about my community and right now I'm just an anxious loser stuck at home. I'm even scared to go to the grocery store all by myself in case I have a panic attack. I've also stopped driving and I m scared of travelling. Basically I can't do anything other than being homebound. I'm not suicidal, yet I think that death is my sole redemption. I don't see a way out of this maze. And my family is just tired. All they see in me is a wreck. All I care about is my goddamn heart rate. When I was a kid my dad's brother died from a heart attack before my eyes. He was only 24. That thought me that young people can also have heart attacks. That's why I worry so extensively. I'm sorry if my post is exhausting you. I just needed to talk. All of my friends have abandoned me since I dropped out of college. I couldn't get on with it. I flunked every test my palpitations and panicky thoughts wouldn't let me concentrate. I felt it was best to drop out. Even temporarily. My life is going downhill and there's nothing I can do to stop it. It's got to the point we're i get 3-4 panic attacks per day. This cardiophobia has ruined me inside out. I just feel helpless, I sob every night till I fall asleep and then I wake up again having a panic attack. It's a living hell! It's like someone has cursed me to become the opposite of who I used to be. Now I feel like the most epic loser in the world.
Thank you for reading this.
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I HAD to reply to you as I've been going through a somewhat similar situation; that is to say, you're definitely not alone and I really hope you have been able to improve your mental state since your time of posting this.
Being 25 years old, I've been dealing with chest pain for 6 months and, as time has progressed, I've been having more symptoms that have just been tearing through my mind in fear of it being something fatal.
Went to the hospital twice, had a sudden panic attack both of those moments, and I just felt that going there was my best choice. Well..my heart turned out to be healthy, my blood was healthy, and my breathing intake was healthy as well during both of my visits. Even so, my mind is still filled with these doubts.
Now I went to a therapist and in the process of clearing my thoughts from all this.
One thing that has helped me with all this is researching the Vagus Nerve. I've found videos of stretches that are moreso to stretch out your nerves rather than focus on your muscles. Also finding certain points in your body to massage to relax those nerves since that's responsible for your parasympathetic nervous system.
Would love to hear how you've been. Dealing with anxiety is so tiresome and I just want you, me, and everyone else who's dealing with it to live a peaceful life once again.