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My withdrawal from alcohol has gotten so much worse in the last years. I am on Day 2 right now from withdrawing....I drank 1 week, day and night...did not eat food....if I wasn't sleeping...I was drinking...I was drinking beer.
Day 1 - I could barely drink anything...everything tasted horrible. I managed some soup (about 3 tsps)....some yogurt and a glass of Gatorade.
I was lucky enough to have lorazepam to get me thru shakes and sweating.
Day 2 - chills...still no great appetite...didn't eat till 3:30 this afternoon.
Trying to choke down the water.
The psychological toll it has taken on me is even worse...total panic all the time...alot of anxiety...feeling like a failure to everyone around me.
I know from experience that I will feel better every hour of every day that I stay sober...but the Nausea this time is so unbearable (sure I have pancreatitis again).
My boyfriend must be so sick of me saying how sick I am...moaning...can't help around the house...I felt lucky to take a shower today. I am ANGRY...to the point where I dont care what he thinks...but deep down i just physically and mentall feel sick inside and out.
I had 8 years sobriety and gave it up....I had 2 months and gave it up....I don't know why I keep going back...because everytime I drink I end up this way or worse.
I hope anyone that feels like me today...knows they are not alone. Because I feel alone...and like such a waste of breath.
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