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I have always suffered with quite bad anxiety since being a small child. As I became a teenager I was very angry with everyone and would often say things I didn't mean. When I left school I became depressed and attempted suicide twice. I have has CBT for quite some time now and have been on fluoxetine for a few months. I'm now 20 and after feeling like I was getting better, I hit a rough point about 6 months ago. My mood changes rapidly from extremely happy and hyper to angry or depressed within hours. My parents and boyfriend have often said that they don't know which person they are going to get until they talk to me. I have started self harming again and I am having suicidal thoughts every time I get a depressed mood which is quite often. I'm now not only scared i'm going to harm myself, I'm scared I'm going to harm others. I have punched and kicked my boyfriend recently when I had an angry mood - I'm scared that one day i'm going to do some real damage to someone. I have been to the doctor multiple times and he doesn't want to label me with any conditions - he is keeping me on the fluoxetine and continuing with the CBT but I am just getting worse. I also haven't been to work in over 2 weeks and risk losing my job. I just can't cope. The doctor told me to grow up. I am stuck on what to do next. I don't want to hurt anyone else.
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