I feel like I'm dying..
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So, I've been diagnosed with GAD and severe depression recently and I've had my good days and I've had my bad days. I've had constant tension headaches that make me do nothing but cry. Lately I've just been feeling down, no energy to do anything, weird pressures in my head, my head feels heavy, I'm dizzy, my chest feels heavy, it's hard to breathe sometimes (I don't know if I'm holding my breath or hyperventilating. I can't tell) sometimes my cheeks get super hot and red but I don't have a fever.
I've gone to my doctor for fear of a brain tumor because I had a bad pressure feeling on my left temple and I was dizzy and it was constant and she told me I had nothing to worry about, that what I had was a tension headache (or possibly a small migraine) that it's all just anxiety. My psychologist says the same thing. My thyroids are perfect, I've had bloodwork done and everything is fine, I just find it so hard to believe that anxiety and depression have the power to make me feel so bad. Why is this happening to me..?
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ralph96593 cindyloo
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matt1889 cindyloo
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Sorry to hear what you are going through at the minute, it sounds like you are having a real rough time and stuff.
A hell of a lot of people on this forum including myself can relate to how you are feeling at the minute. I had always been a "happy go lucky" sort of person without a care in the world up until about 18 months ago when an allergic reaction to some everyday hayfever medicine triggered Anxiety for me.
I had exactly the same thoughts as you are having now! You feel that rubbish that your mind works overtime and you convince yourself that something must be really wrong with your body for you to feel the way that you do. I convinced myself every other day that I was really ill, I had bad headaches as well and found myself thinking the same as you. I was ridiculous with it checking my pupils and balance and everything! I felt like I was going absolutely insane!
But this is Anxiety for you! I am pretty much out of the tunnel at the other end now thankfully, I still have my ups and downs but I would like to think that I am getting on top of it all these days and that I don't let it effect me as much.
The key for me was to understand what they body does or at least what anxiety does to the body. The whole "fight or flight" thing and the over working of the brain can make us feel pretty rough! In fact it can make us feel shocking! But the truth is that as horrible as it makes us feel, it can't hurt us and eventually things return to normal and you start to feel better again.
When we start to stress or get anxious the body does a number of things. During panic attacks the body releases Adrenaline as it's natural "fight or flight" response. This increases the pulse and the breathing and everything else as the body is convinced that it needs more oxygen in order to react against what we are telling ourselve is going to happen. The truth is that it is all something manifested in ourt heads and nothing bad happens and as we eventually coime to realise this our body returns to normal and there is no harm done what so ever.
It's a vicious circle because we sit waiting, convinced that something bad is going to happen and although it doesn't we work ourselves up and this tires us out, it increases the blood pressure and makes us all achy and lethargic and dizzy and everything else which again makes us feel something bad is about to happen and you just go round and round and round.
You have to break the cycle Cindyloo, it is really hard but that is how I came to deal with Anxiety and eventually get the better of it!. At my worse not a single day went by without me suffering and feeling ill. From first thing in a morning to last thing at night I felt horrible!. Once I understood what was happening with my body I began to test myself and push myself more and more. I started to do things to keep my mind and body busy. I started decorating the house and I started to go places and everything else. I did more and more every single time and eventually I was in control on things and was beginning to push the Anxiety to one side. This taught me that I didn't have to worry about things, after all I had been doing all sorts of stuff and nothing bad what so ever had happened. As time went on things got increasingly better and my body began to feel better bit by bit and although I have the odd of day even still now, the majority of the time I am back to my normal self again.
You can beat it hun but you have to take steps towards doing so. You have to take the positives and build on these. You have had a whole load of tests and these have all come back fine, this is great news right? Challenge and push yourself bit by bit and you will start to realise that you are able to get back on top of this!. It is scary and it isn't easy but you can do it if you really try!
If you wanna chat any more about it feel free to message me, I'm always willing to listen x
cindyloo matt1889
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joe1991 cindyloo
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so i ask myself, why do i feel like this when i keep getting told I'm okay? It doesn't make sense. But that is anxiety. Once it triggers it doesn't make sense. You just have to fight fire with fire. Keep going despite the anxiety. Being stagnant creates more anxiety. You just gotta keep truckin'
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