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I feel so alone, trapped in my nightmare!

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Hey guys, its me agin (yawn) I just hope writing it down will help. Iam not so sure I write what I mean ahlf the time. I so love my children and inturn it makes me want to love him, it just hurts so soo much. I feel really old, with no confidence whatsoever, i donthtink hes a bad man at all, I think he has been up against sh1t too.

Right now I am shaking, i dont know what to do with my life. Ha;f of me would rather not think about it. Maybe its normal for a relationshp to go poor after 10 years, and maybe as I have not been open about prior things, maybe he could be forgiven. I am truly confused!

I am now tring to read this back want to howl, but no tears will flow, stomach incredble pains, but hey Ill get over this, ive been over worse. Love to you all, hope you can understand my pain,

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    Thank you Ja. I ve been on my own for a bit, just thinking, Stupidly not done any housework, so dreading him coming home. I just cant face it.

    I just keep getting dizzy and think , right I am going to collapse now, most the time, I hope I will. I cant continue like this. I know this, but I just hate the idea of breaking my childrens secure world so young and so innocenet. Everytime I look at them I boil up with , fear, haterd and dread.

    Nothing take this sense of self disgust away fform me. Nothing...I dont know why I am feeling like this. I cringe now when I see him and his dad. His dad that thinks it s okay for females to keep them small and sweet by plying them with millions of dishes, and then think its okat to say sit down , \"the dishes will get done\"...I just think (Yeah , right who by????????). I cant do this anymore, making do , no fun , no time for fun, love or laughter, it nail grinding , teeth biting, clean up sh*t life. Well I ve had eneough. Ive had it, I love my children, but I certainly do not cherish myself, and I am certainly not going to if I have to hurt my children, but hey, thats life!!!

    Oh and see if another person tries to walk through me again I am going to SCCCCCRREEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMM!!!!

    Ja, do you believe in god? I dont, never have and never will!!!!

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