I feel stuck..
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Hi community,
How can I be happy with a generalised anxiety disorder? I don't think I can. I am a gemini which need freedom in life, but I can't grab that with anxiety. I'm now stuck in my house for too long and I losing my last friends which I have left. I feel like I had totally enough of my crappy life. I see a psychologist every week, but she is now on holiday for 6 weeks and I feel more stuck then ever. I don't have many people to talk to which can give me advice etc. I'm not suicidal or anything, but I wonder like every minute of the day; what is the point of life if I can't even walk outside my door normally? Dealing for 3 years now with this disorder and before that period I wasn't a happy person either due to difficult things in the past. My symptoms are really complex and varied.
A short list of what I feel;
Depressed feelings
Losing control of my thoughts
Can't handle much incentives
Feel like I don't have enough oxygen in my brain
Blurred vision
Obsessive thoughts (Can control them though)
Headaches
Insomnia
Nausea
Stress (Lots of stress)
Fatigue
Dipsophobia
Insecurity
Gonna test my blood this week for the first time in 3 years and I wonder what gonna get out of that. Suffering from heavy anxiety for 3 years too, so it would interesting if something come out of it.
Posted this not for a specific reason, but just to clear my mind a bit and maybe for some tips and advice. Curious if people here can relate with the stuff I'm dealing with.
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tania27 Contakt2
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hi i have the exact same symptoms especially the feeling of no oxygen to the brain x
crystal24820 Contakt2
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hi i also feel the same things you do everyday like my brain is not getting enough oxygen like im gonna pass out anytime i get dizzy when im moving around i feel like my brain wont shut off i feel like im not here when people talk to me i forget what they said to me right after they talk to me . i feel like im losing it i dont have many friends i only have one best friend but i cant really hang out with her because of my fear of being in cars i was in a big tour bus accident i thought we were all going to die i injured my back had to get surgery and my knee and neck so im in constant pain everyday i wont take pain medicine cause i have bad acid reflux it makes me sick if i take it too .i also been living with ibs mixed c and d for 30 yrs so thats my other fear of going anywere cause of fear of not making to a toliet i cant work anywere i have alot of very bad health anxiety , social anxiety, ptsd , bipolar aslo. speech problems . and a learning disabilities . slow at everything. i keep thinking why lm i here still but i keep thinking of my children they need me thats keeping me here and my sister too because she says to me all the time i talk to her about how i feel shes says to me you need to really think about all the people who have it way worser then you like my dad died in front of me a few years ago with lung cancer we saw how much he suffered so much and fought so hard to survive he didnt want to die he wanted live so i say to my self im beening selfish wanting to end my life and look at my dad wanting to live. i started taking zoloft after i started taking them i was feeling so much better for awile then they made me very shakey like i was on speed or something it was a scary feeling so went off them slowy now i dont know what to take cause im so scared to take any antidepressants now . because of all the side effects they have . i want something more natural but i dont want to smoke marijuana because i have asthma and i never smoke before so i wont smoke anything. i tried the cbd oil but it tasted awful and burned my tongue and throat. so im stuck at what to take now. i was seeing psychologist but she wasnt very good at it. so im looking for another one right now. now my youngest son 17 is suffering with bad anxiety and depression so im looking for help for him too. i feel like i caused it because of my anxiety i have. i feel so bad for him and i dont know what to do because i dont know what to do for me either this life sucks but you got to keep going in life and find some help theres gotta be something to help us. sorry for rambling i often do that lol take care and hope you get some help too.
staci88515 Contakt2
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I don't know if this helps, but in my 20's I had severe anxiety to the point of agoraphobia. I lost my job, my friends, everything. It lasted for years with many if the symptoms you mentioned. I recovered and have been living a normal life up until a few months ago. I am now 44 and dealing with a medical issue that brought back the anxiety. Long story short, you can recover from anxiety.
crystal24820 staci88515
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i too suffer from severe anxiety what helped you get better i cant take any medicine because of all the side effects please can you tell what you did to get better. thank you
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Good to hear it is possible to get rid of it. It's hard to find any 'positive' story of people which defeated anxiety. I'm very curious in how you did things. Would apreciate it if you can me more of things that helped you out. I'm sure others would be very curious about it too.
staci88515 Contakt2
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I'd love to say that I have some magic solution. Honestly, my life just became so awful that I couldn't do it anymore. I had panic attacks that would last all day. I had panic attacks in the shower. I had panic attacks walking to the mailbox. I was consumed with intense panic all the time. I was terrified to be alone. I would sit in my mother's car in the parking lot of her work for 8 hours every day. I was agoraphobic.
My life was so bad that I started to think, "What would happen if I fainted from panic while out? They would take me to the hospital and maybe someone would finally help me." Like everyone who suffers from panic, I was afraid of the worst possible outcomes. Would I faint? Would I have a heart attack? Would I be embarrassed? Would I die some horrible death? Would I not be able to handle myself during panic? Then, I just took the first step. I decided that I would rather have any of those bad things happen instead of living this life filled with crippling anxiety. Guess what? None of those bad things ever happened. The braver I became, the less anxiety existed.
Soon, I was able to travel across country by train alone, fly on a plane all by myself, go to work, go to university, navigate NYC subways, and be a completely normal person. There is no way around anxiety, there is only through it.
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Your message give me a lot of hope. I think the thing I need is also just time. Time to accept my feelings and find out who I'm actually am. I've got those moments that I'm just done with everything and then everything seems to get easier to do sometimes, but this just stays for moments now and I can't give it the right twist to stay on that line.
Can you consider you as a happy person in those years after it went better with you? It's sad, but I never have feel real happ
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happiness* If I ever conquer this anxiety disorder I want to be stronger then I was before all of this.
You must have had ups and downs in your journey to recover yourself right? I can't believe that one day at the other you had this thought and everything was getting better for you? Are there any extra thoughts you had or methods which have helped you? I take medicine myself right now, but I don't think there is any effect left. I can't stop right now though, because I'm looking for a job now, so this like the biggest threshold in years for me.
I'm only 19 years old and I just feel like a throwing away my life. I'm actually completely done feeling this way.
staci88515 Contakt2
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I did not have ups and downs. My biggest fear was being alone, driving alone, and being in crowded places. So, I just decided to drive to the store and walk around. Something that millions of people do everyday without anxiety. I wouldn't say it was easy, but I did it. Then, I did it again. Rinse....repeat. The more you face your fears, the less anxiety you have. I would not say my life has been filled with happiness. I have always been poor, my father died when I was young as did my grandparents. My mother became ill some years ago and my brother visits infrequently. I don't have any other family and all of my friends are married with children. I have had very little luck in love and my career is unpleasant and does not pay well. But, my life was anxiety free.
I often worry about being completely alone as I get older. The thing is though, that no one or no thing can help you with anxiety. You have everything you need to overcome it. You are the only one who can let go of the fear and live. I never took medicine, but I did self medicate with alcohol. The only thing that I did that offered any relief was hypnosis. It was by a medical professional in an office, not a side-show circus. It helped me subconsciously relax.