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I was diagnosed with depression back in August, which isn't a very long time, but I've been feeling this way for over a year now. I'm 16 years old, my 17th birthday coming quickly and I can't seem to get a grip on my own life, even though, in theory, I have nothing to feel so bad about. But reality is a different story which I can't control. I'm not really sure what to say here, I was recommended from a transgender friend of mine to seek some help outside my counsellor from other people who are experiencing the same thing as I am.
My doctor said that my depression was brought on from loss. May it be through death or list leaving me, which has happened quite a lot in such a short series of time. My nana died ten years ago which hurt a lot and that's where it started. About 6 years ago, my dad moved to England (I'm from Scotland) which is always hard. Last year is when it really started to get bad. My best friend started dating the guy I liked and told me not to speak to him so I stopped talking to them both which was absolutely heartbreaking. I didn't know what to do and I was devastated for months. This happened in the summer of 2014. A few months later, in December, my papa died after battling cancer for months, whilst he lived with us, and that completely broke me. I haven't been the same since. I'm not interested in much anymore and I don't feel like counselling is helping me. I don't know what else to do, where else to turn to. I'm so tired of this situation and I just don't want to disappoint anyone, especially my mum. It also didn't help when my brother moved out. A couple of weeks after he moved to England, I was diagnosed with depression.
I just had to get all of that out and if anyone has any advice, that would be great, any ideas on how I can be proactive and help myself and stop feeling so unreasonably down all the time. I wouldn't be surprised if this is ignored due to its length but it had to be said, one way or another. Thank you for reading if you took the time.
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dk25651 Heather924
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It's been a little while since you posted this, how are you feeling? I'm sorry to hear about all the losses in your life, it sounds like a lot to handle, especially for someone so young, it sounds to me like you are a very strong person. You say that you 'have nothing to feel bad about' and this is something that you mustn't say to yourself, even people who are very very fortunate with wonderful lives can experience depression, it's a medical condition, not something which we choose or can just 'snap out of'
Luckily there are lots of things that can us with depression. Hopefully your counselling session will help eventually, but if they don't don't lose help. Remember that if you do decide on medication it's not something to be ashamed of. Lots of people take them and are really helped by them.
I hope you're feeling lots better soon!
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