I just can’t do this anymore, please help me

I’m just really scared, it’s the sleep issues that are making me worse I think. The doctor wants me to go up to 30 as he doesn’t think that 20 is enough but I’m not sure. I fear that the sleep issue will be greater if I go up. I Just don’t know which way to turn at the moment.

Hi Paula, how are you? 

Hello Star, how are you?

I am getting improvements, my eyesight is much better, I knew it had got worse, didnt put it down to meds. Am quietly confident that I am going to be ok, just taking each day as it comes. Nausea, tummy and exhaustion is worst thing at the moment.

Hi Paula,

I’m doing a bit better thanks. The anxiety isn’t fully gone but not as bad as it was. I’m also starting CBT therapy in a couple of weeks which I’m happy about, my new therapist sounds really nice. Glad to hear you are feeling a bit better. Hopefully your other symptoms will ease up soon x

Hello Paula how are you feeling..your eyesight?do you mean your photosensitivity??

Hello Lois, am starting to feel a bit better, could be a window hopefully not.

My eyes, am short sighted and they have been getting worse in the last year. I wear vari focal contact lenses and have to keep taking them out or wearing reading glasses to read my phone. I was typing away on here the other day when it suddenly occurred to me that i was wearing my contacts and reading everything clearly, I kept testing it thinking nooo, maybe I am imagining it, then I noticed my distance seemed sharper. So not only has my photophobia disappeared my eyesight has improved. To think I had to see an eye specialist for my eyes, even they didnt pick up on all this. Parathesia has improved, only have it in one foot now, i do get moments in the day, oh and the hot legs has gone. All good

Am so pleased for you Star, one day you and I are going to be ok 😊, I wish it would hurry up grrr! We will get there

That is lovely Paula..so.happyfor you.

Have you ever discussed with your dr about  taking Trazadone at night for sleep? When used in small doses, it works as a sleep aid, without the weird side effects that others on the market do.  I have been using this medication for many years bc every antidepressant I’ve tried gives me terrible insomnia. I only take 10 mg of citalopram and have sleep issues- so I take 1/2 of the lowest dose of trazadone tablet they make (50mg) and my sleep is much improved. I’m sorry you are having these issues- honestly one of the worst feelings in the world is to be so tired but not to be able to sleep- it makes everything so much worse! I have been there many times before. I would ask your dr about this med and hopefully it could be of help to you! Let me know if you have any other questions or just need to chat!

Thanks Lois. Since posting to you have had a bad turn, am feeling awful. Thought it was too good to be true

Yes expect those waves..

Thank you so much Paula 🤗 it’s weird. I look ‘normal’ and I’m able to get on with most things but anxiety still creeps up on me. It’s strange, it’s like my brain ‘checks’ to see if it’s still there and the thoughts like to still pop up and remind me they’re around 🙄 but, I’m in a better place than I was a couple of weeks ago.  Hopefully one day soon we will both fully get there!! 🙏🏼

I have been reading up on windows and waves with ssri's and it mentions intrusive thoughts, apparently they get further and further apart. Tell the thoughts to buzz off 😊, easier said I know. We will be ok theres no hopefully involved, just need to give our brain time.

Thank you Paula, and yes you’re right, we will get better x