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I just want to feel like myself again

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jordyypri
jordyypri

Ever since my anxiety and panic attacks started a few months ago, I don't feel like the same person. I was so goal-oriented, determined, thoughtful. I wrote and contemplated things and was constantly on the go. Now, every time I try to sit down and do something that requires any extra thought, I just can't think. I can't focus. I just don't feel "right".

I look at pictures of myself smiling with friends and I don't believe it's me. I can't remember feeling that happy. It's as though I'm constantly in a really bad, empty dream. Does it ever feel normal again?

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  • Guest
    Guest jordyypri

    Posted

    Do you have a therapist or a counsellor or someone who is trained to help?
    • jordyypri
      jordyypri Guest

      Posted

      Yes, but it doesn't seem to be helping. I can control my panic attacks now, but I can't do anything that requires any sort of stress or thought without going blank or feeling spacey. I'm considering medication at this point, though I'd rather not.
  • lynne82155
    lynne82155 jordyypri

    Posted

    Sorry computer went a bit mad there

    Anxiety knocks your confidence

    Consider therapy it teaches you how to cope

    Stay strongcool

  • richard89308
    richard89308 jordyypri

    Posted

    If you try and let yourself you can be your old self.  How about some cbt sessions which may help you.
  • lisalisa67
    lisalisa67 jordyypri

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    Panic attacks alter you. Your old self is how you got to this situation. Once you get this disorder its a journey to find peace of mind again. You need to find a new self now. Cbt, therapy and a lot of love is needed. I wish there was a magic wand or evem some real answers but there isnt. You will kind of go into some kind of survival mode thing for a while where getting theough the day feels like an accomplishment. Its a strange disorder. It waxes and wanes so you will get time spans where you feel "normal". Some people do get it to go away and many kind of manage it. Its just a different way of living. 
    • jordyypri
      jordyypri lisalisa67

      Posted

      Ahhh it's so frustrating. But your words are reassuring, thank you.
    • Pearlvicious
      Pearlvicious lisalisa67

      Posted

      Thank you,, I have had panic attacks for years , they would come and go, about 3 weeks ago I had an attack and did not fully recover,

      My story is a long one, your answer brought me somewhat peace,and truth and is so deep.

      I hope one day not to feel so worried and with perhaps with a little help from other, and I pray that i don't have to take medication I will be Linda again, maybe not entirely the same but at peace,

  • Jenijar
    Jenijar jordyypri

    Posted

    Hello, it sounds like you may be experiencing depersonalisation and or derealisation, which are symptoms of anxiety, Maybe look it up and see if it fits what you are experiencing. I've been told that it's only temporary but can take a while (months) to fade and feel back to normal
    • jordyypri
      jordyypri Jenijar

      Posted

      Thank you. I'm about to start medication, so I'm hoping that will help in some way
    • Jenijar
      Jenijar jordyypri

      Posted

      It should help by lowering your anxiety levels which in turn will lower the feelings of depersonilastion and then you will feel back to normal smile
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