I'm in a breakdown :'' (
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Right now i'm on the way to a path of destruction. I been stabbed in the back too many times and my enemies have got the better of me once again, I havn't got the energy no more... i have lost interest in all the things i used to love doing and now i force myself to even do something. I feel so miserable everyday i feel like i'm in a nightmere... people's voices make my skin creep, i feel like i'm dying or something i feel so lost within myself... there's not 1 day goes by without me thinking about death, i feel like i should be in some trash bag with a hole in my head being ready to be crushed i can feel myself being slowly detached from this world through all the trauma i been through i have done extremely well to be were i am today and sh** is my thanks. I cry all the time because of the hurt i'm going through... i just want to feel numb 24/7, School life didn't work out for me, college life didn't work out for me, family life didn't work out for me, i am too hurt to connect to this world... my heart is broken... everytime i leave the house i always plug my earphones in because i hate the sound of life and being alive. And even today when i went out for a walk in nature i still felt alone like if i'm not part of this world. I really am a peice of sh** right now... i havn't got nothing mutch going for me, i suffered alot,i even considered to drink and do painkillers because of the hurt i'm going through and i thought if i'm hurting i made aswell hurt even more, i just wish somebody can just put a needle in me so i can finally end this nightmare and be in heavenly peace. Amen
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julian33896 False_Hope
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Many people go through this, you are not alone. How long have you been feeling like this/how old are you?
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killerkid700 False_Hope
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You sound like you're suffering with a horrible amount of depression, I really recommend you talk to your doctor about this. Please, don't end your life, you've got lots left to live. Find someone who will help you, be them friend or professional, and try to get through this. There will be something better eventually, you just need to stay here and keep fighting.
Good luck to you Xx
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mari34228 False_Hope
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killerkid is right. You need to speak to a doctor. They will get you the help you need. And you CAN be helped. It's hard to admit the way you are feeling to anyone but once you do then you can start to move forwards with your life.
It sounds like things have been hard for you but don't give up on yourself.
Take care. xx
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mari34228 False_Hope
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Are you registered with a doctor? If not it's easy to do. But get yourself an appointment soon. You don't need to tell your dad. In the meantime, have you tried phoning helplines such as Breathing Space or the Samaritans? There are people there who will listen to you and will not judge you. That way you can get out how you are feeling.
People DO care. xx
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mari34228 False_Hope
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Please go to your doctor. You really can be helped. You don't believe that right now as everything looks so bleak. But that is because your mind is depressed and depression is crippling and sends you into a negative spiral. But with professional help you can get out of that. I promise. It will take time but firstly you need to make that first step and talk to your doctor.
Your life CAN get better. Speak to your doctor. Please. xx
hypercat False_Hope
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I agree the world can be a sick place, but on the reverse it can also be a wonderful place. You have to take the bad with the good! But don't give up on life coz there will come a time when you realise this - trust me. x
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