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It's so scary reading these posts and seeing how many other people feel exactly the same as I do!
Since having my two children I am just petrified of dying, but of nothing else other than cancer.
It's ALWAYS the big C and so far I've diagnosed myself with every type of cancer I can think of (with the help of Doctor Google, obviously!)
Skin cancer, a brain tumour, throat cancer , cervical cancer , bowel cancer, breast cancer and now most recently ovarian cancer.
Now.. Baring in mind I'm only 25, these cancers I know are extremely rare, but that doesn't stop me constantly feeling for lumps and bumps, pushing deep down Into my stomach or my breast(mainly my left) and feeling around for anything... Anything!
When I'm out and about, busy and doing things this doesn't even cross my mind for a second! Not one measly minute does it come into my mind.
I'm so tired of feeling like this, my partner gets so angry that I will google my symptoms sometimes waking him up at night in floods of tears convinced I have cancer - but still refusing to see a doctor just out of pure fear! I'm a head in the sand kind of girl.
How do I stop this before it takes over any more of my life?
I hope you all find peace with this, xx
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