I'm worried about my units
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I try not to think about units. A few decades back I was Anorexic and for years I've refused to weigh myself (given that I've had 3 beautiful healthy children and put on a couple of stone it's not critical)
But I go cold when people talk about their unit consumption.
I currently drink every day and I'm waiting for Naltrexone (on order) to help me out of the cycle.
But on non driving days I can happily soak 30 units a day whilst still functioning and people not really noticing.
To be honest I get away with 20 anyway.
I am a successful affluent 39 year old who works from home.
Today for example I went to the hairdresser for my 10am appointment and as I knew I'd be there for at least 3 hours (trying to defeat the greys) I took a small flask of 80% gin and 20% lemonade. Managed to drink the lot before the appointment. After the appointment I waited for my friend who was going to drive me home and bought a small bottle of Jacobs Creek. I checked the first bottle of my favourite brand sauvignon but after seeing a disappointing 11% I opted for the 13.5 % chardonnay. I went to the nearest public loos to decanter it into one of my childrens (past) water bottles whilst standing in my very nicest shoes in a puddle of p i s s because I was in too much of a hurry to get to a nicer cubicle. I actually can't believe I'm writing this and that this is actually true and me.
I came home and altough I've cooked dinner and been ok and everyone loves me etc I've pretty much drunk loads and loads. Had a conk out before the kids were dropped home by a pre arranged friend date.
I'm going to probably have several more glasses and possibly a large G&T before bed and my biggest hope is that I stay awake long enough to sleep the whole night, because if I conk out before 11pm I coud wake up mid night with a raging hangover. Otherwise I can sleep till 6am and be fully funcional.
GOT TO GET A GRIP!!! Thanks for listening xx
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liz31181 alexandra00711
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alexandra00711 liz31181
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Amazing that you're asking! Ermmmmmmmmm really bad. I'm happy and flying along in my hospitality job but no one knows that I've drunk so much. At least a bottle of wine and several large gins from 9.30 this morning. I spread it so that I dont appear too drunk at any one time just happy and friendly and glamerous front of house etc. I'm waiting for these Naltrexone pills to arrive and then I'll really commit because hopefully they'll curb my craving for more more more. Saturdays are my worst day because I don't have to drive and I work which I enjoy. I popped down the road st 9.20 to meet a friend for a quick breakfast and we shared an omelette and tea. But I'd already hit the bottle and had a large wine. I can't keep doing this. I know it's very wrong. Its theraputic talking about it because it registers how bad i'm being and how much i need to change. Thank you for asking xx
liz31181 alexandra00711
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Don't ever feel that you are on your own... so much more out there as you prob have read on this site that are going through the same, a problem shared is a problem halved? ? ??.. you are still very much able to respond to messages & not mumbling or jumbling up your words. Is this a good thing you think ? Or not.. the fact you can drink so much & not be functioning /.. either which way I am thinking of you and I hope you get your tablets soon. You were doing well yesterday.having your drink but waiting till a little later to have it. Love & might.. I put a candle in my local church for you today. I'm not sure if you believe in all that sort of thing but I reckon it can't harm you only maybe do some good. Xxxxxxx here for you ??
liz31181
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Love & light I meant & I lit a candle for you not put ?????? I havnt had a drink yet & I'm jumbling up my words ?? you can only imagine what I would be like after a few ???? x xxx love Liz
vickylou alexandra00711
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Flying along in,my hospitality job when no-one knows you've been drinking, won't last much longer. More like you'll be flying out the door with your P45.
alexandra00711 vickylou
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Hmmm well, it's my business and I built it up and its incredibly successful so i wont be flying out the door with my P45; what I want is not to be in hospital. Thanks for listening and i'll post about my recovery when it's well under way x
alexandra00711 liz31181
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Paper_fairy alexandra00711
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Hi Alexandra. Belated reply and just catching up on emails as I've had a busy, sober weekend with children( grown up tho!). Anyway everyone's replies have been brilliant. I've done the filling bottle in toilet thing and worse. People will realise you are drinking so be careful at work.
Im on naltrexone and I really hope it works for you. Some don't have side effects but I did. But you MUST stick with it. Nothing is as bad as a bad hangover so bear that in mind if you feel rubbish at first. Can you start it over a weekend and take some sick leave for a few days when you start it.
MOST IMPORTANT advice I can give you is you MUST follow it strictly. Please pm Joanna or there may be a link on here for the CORRECT way to take it. If you don't do it properly you will fail. This is so important as it is going to save your life.
Keep us posted and sending my hope and blessings to you. Stay safe and take care xxxxxxxxx
Robin2015 Paper_fairy
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alexandra00711 Robin2015
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