I need serious help
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I really don't want to be here anymore. I can't handle this anxiety anymore. The doctors aren't doing anything either. I don't know how much longer I can do this how do I cope
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paul666 lauren63237
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I take paroxatine have been 3 years at first I thought I was OK
but supported housing said I wasn't I smoked weed a lot I
was apparently obsessive badly depressed and anxious with
slight ocd and suicidal a lot
I felt I was taking it to please others but not for me ...I couldn't
take more than 10mg it would annialate me so I took one
everyday and soon didn't want to not take it the effects were
Anything could happen and it would not effect me ..death
anything I was numb to it all I watched a man nearly die in front
of me 4 times while challenging 9 massive life changing
moments
Also I had a very disabled partner who had learning difficulties
This drug has f.Ed my life I do nothing except sit on a sofa
I am scared of everything I don't know danger I have constant
suicide thoughts plans actions but I also changed my life the more
I took it I am now paying all bills I have a new flat I left the girl she
Was way to crazy for me the weed was hard to stop but I'm doing
That too after smoking it 28 years non stop
I physically vibrate it's very weird I think I'm having heart attacks
I dream mad very realistic dreams and don't sleep well
I could watch a person die and not feel emotion to it that
I don't like I seem to want to delete people out my life over the
slightest argument
I don't think it works now but it does help I need to get off my sofa
But I can never give myself a good reason why
I tried changing and stopping but if I do I automatically go back to
A very scary night I wanted to die it won't go away
I'm very focused on problem solving but I fixed and stopped every
Part of my life which was a problem but now I'm boring and do
Nothing
What's bugging me is people still say I'm nuts and hard work
It makes me roll my eyes back a lot I dunno why I took extacy in the
Past I feel it's very similar with out the euphoric feeling
I hate the NHS they jgnore me and never want to let me talk I been
Doctors about 800 times in a year and called 111 on every anxietype
Attack I need to go back to work but even painting a wall becomes
Very challenging
I'm losing all my friends and just want to be alone I'm not afraid
To die I'm kind of used to death now bit weird I know
I think the drug is having the reverse affect now
Advice please
lisalisa67 lauren63237
Posted
I do get how you are feeling. I cant speak for anyone else but i do have times i feel like that myself. I wouldnt even say its depression. Its symptoms or ailments and anxiety all at once and its like enough already. But then they dissapate and pass by and you get to a place where you do feel well and love life. And its not that you want to die but you want relief, a cure so you can live your life without some intense symptoms or your body fearing whatever is going on.
someone on here has a great idea detox your body. I have done that in the past, not really by choice just lost my appetite from all this, but i did do,it and drink alot,ofmfresh water during it..i think it gives the body a break. We eat stuff, breathe stuff that are filled with chemicals and additives and who knows maybe we are all really sensitive to some of it.
I will say a holistic therapist is a great addition and help with all this. That or a very compassionate therapist.
lisalisa67
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kayla74476 lauren63237
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I need help I'm scared of everything that surrounds cancer and health and dying idk what to do I just tried killing myself two days ago but couldn't do it because I might wake back up on can't handle this anymore I want to end it all no one has gotten me any help I really just want to be done with everything
marleen85993 kayla74476
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Hi Kayla this is an old post so a lot of the people on the forum won't see it.I want you to go to your doctor and get therapy for your health anxiety.Do not kill yourself this illness is treatable so tell your doctor exactly how your feeling as soon as possible please
Patient_Mod kayla74476
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Hi kayla74476
We note from a recent post which you have made to our forum that you may be experiencing thoughts around self-harm. If we have misinterpreted your comments then we apologies for contacting you directly. But if you are having such thoughts then please note that you are not alone in this, and there are people out there that can help.
If you are having these suicidal thoughts then we strongly recommend you speak to someone who may be able to help. The Samaritans offer a safe space where you can talk openly about what you are going through. They can help you explore your options, understand your problems better, or just be there to listen.
Their contact details are on our patient information leaflet here: https://patient.info/health/dealing-with-suicidal-thoughts, which also offers lots of other advice on how you can access the help you may need.
If you are having such thoughts then please do reach out to the team at the Samaritans (or the other people detailed in our leaflet) who will understand what you're going through and will be able to help.
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