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I drink way too much, most days a pint of Crown a day. On a blood test my liver enzymes were up and that scared me alot. My dad was an acholic and is deceased. He was never a father and I never wanted anything to do with drinking. I just kind of started and didn't stop. I quite for over a month and my liver tested fine then. I told myself that I could control it if I had alittle, even went to AA for awhile. But after I had a drink I didn't stop. NO ONE now knows what I do. I live alone, I NEVER go to bars and if I happen to be somewhere that people are drinking I wont have a drop and not even tempted too. I have major sleeping issues and I think it started there cuz it would help me sleep. Then it took more and more so here I am. I hate it and wanna stop. I tapered off before and that was fine but I'm scared! It seems I'll buy some to taper off again then I drink it all then feel guilty, I just want to be done with it. Please don't say to contact a doctor because i won't do that or go to a rehab. I guess I am in desperate need of encourangement and stories of people that have done it on their own. I know I can do it again and when I do, I will never start again. Please someone tell me how you did it. I have to be able to go to work and be smart about it but then I end up home alone with a bottle that I'm only supposed to use to wean off then I drink it. It's a everyday battle! :'( I pray the Lord will take it away and I don't know now to go cold turkey or wean since the weaning isn't going very well this time. I am on meds to help me sleep that is typically used for epilepsy although I don't have that so I'm not worried about seizers. I just need to get through a couple days without drinking and I can do it like I did before. Thing is when I stopped before I had a past boyfriend I finally called and told everything too. He helped and I knew I'd have to answer to someone about what I was doing but he's gone now so I thought maybe I could find someone online to be accountable too, pathetic I know!
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