I think I have OCD but don't know and am to scared to talk yo my parents or anyone about it
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Please help me I don't know what to do! I am nearly 13 and I have recently been thinking I have OCD. For the last few months I have had several obsessions/rituals or whatever you want to call them. One of them is that I am terrified of someone breaking in and hurting me or my family. I am obsessed with shutting windows and will get scared if they are open. I will wake up in the middle of the night worried that I might have forgotten to shut them and have to get up and check. Another problem is that I constantly feel lonely and are incredibly attached to my parents for my age I(Idon't know if this is anything to do with it but might be.) I will feel lonely unless someone is talking to me or I am touching someone else even if were in the same room. I also have to check my whole room for about 20 minutes before I go to bed to check for anything such as spiders or anything else abnormal. Thee are a few other things but don't want to bore you. Like I say I don't know if all if any of this is OCD but need to know as it is scaring me now please help!
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Elanora Fullj098
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First thing I noticed is that you are well clever for your age!!
You know why I thinks so?
Cause you allready answered your core question. the WHY, where does it come from..
Fullj098: that I constantly feel lonely and are incredibly attached to my parents for my age I(Idon't know if this is anything to do with it but might be.)
You want to be in control of your secure ness. you are like a body guard on guard all time making sure you are safe and the family is and you want to stay sure of that so you chheck it all.
Are you parents very chill people or the opposit?
And to be fair, try to read other ocd stories of 13 or 14 year olds. Those are like really diffrent from each other, some have to check the toilet light bumb 19x times before they go to sleep, so it doesn't break.
when I was 12 I remember goiing through a fase just like this, but I did not have parents to talk to :s
You seem like having greatt parents, use them by beiing honest and letting out your fear, that's the most beautiful thing for a parent to receive and help their own daughter through. maybe they will even share their own experiences of it.
but having ocd is way worse on a long therm period, like for 5 years, not beiing able to control it.
You can, so try to go to your parents!!!
and keep me/ uss updated bout ur actionss
x
rachael57421 Fullj098
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deirdre._03652 Fullj098
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I think that almost everyone has some traits of OCD in their make up, I have to check that the lights are off by repeatedly turning them on and off, also every piece of crockery has to be lined up perfectly, and many other things.
If you think about it your fears are because you are being protective, which is quite logical, what you don't want is them getting too intrusive in your life.
Please speak to your parents, I am sure they will understand. I have two adult sons who (I won't say suffer) have OCD that has really impacted on their lives, it is a real shame that we could not have helped them earlier, I am certainly sure that your parents will want to do all that they can to put your mind at ease. Good luck and very best wishes to you.....
AnonymousWoman Fullj098
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I guess if you are afraid of someone hurting your family/you are attached to your parents you must love them and they must be supportive of you. I think it would be a good idea to try and explain to them how you are feeling. I know OCD is probably a tricky one to talk about as you might be worried people will tell you to just stop doing the rituals but of course it's far more difficult than that, but I really think it sounds like your parents will be supportive of you and try to help you through this.
I don't know if I have slight OCD or else OCD personality disorder (which is different according to wikipedia) but I used to make lists of things to do and end up re-writing the list if I had ticked something off because I felt it was no longer clear to read and could end up writing the same list 3 or 4 times for basically no reason other than this compulsion to be able to refer to a list that was easy to read. I also used to re-check things, exam answers (even before I was done the exam, which caused me to lose time), check things were locked, check I had taken the right things with me out of my locker. It got to the point where if I was anxious, I would forget that I was just checking something once and I would just repeatedly check it feeling more and more anxious and less sure I had done it right because I wasn't concentrating on the checking 100% so I might have made a mistake checking I had everything and missed out on something I hadn't done. . . Anyways, what I found helpful was literally telling myself, "This is just my OCD. I dont' neeed to check this again." or making myself remember I had checked it before I would just instinctively recheck it. "No, I know I checked this already because I saw it in the bag." Of course, sometimes you will have to doublecheck something again because the compulsion will be so strong and that's ok but the more you practise the less tied down you come by these compulsions that can start to rule you.
I hope this makes sense and is of some help to you Fullj.
Let us know how you get on and best of luck, you can get through this!
Best wishes,
anonymousgirl
PS Even if you're not ready to talk to your parents about it, you can still talk to us here anytime you need to
ClaireR080613 Fullj098
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It could be OCD, it could be a phase, it could be anything. I have always been obsessed with being safe and secure but it tends to only come out and panic me when I am in a new place (e.g. staying wth family or on holiday) on on my own overnight. There is going to be a simple reason behinid it (and OCD is a simple reason, it is the coping with it that is the difficult part). It could be you had dream or watched something on TV that has triggered the subconcious thoughts to be concious. It could just be a phase.
For a 13 year old, I must agree with Elanora, you do seem pretty bright to be able to pick out these patterns and notice that they are bothering you. If you aren't comfortable talking with your parent, are there any other family members that you could talk too? (Grandparents, aunts, uncles, older siblings etc)If not what about teachers or support staff at school? IF you feel that none of this is helping, you can still see your GP (if you are in the UK) and discuss it with them. Your parents DO NOT have to go with you and anything you discuss wit them i confidential.
Well done for noticing and talking about something that is bottering you, it is a very hard thing to do.
Take care
Claire x
Fullj098
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joan152 Fullj098
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You have mastered the worse as been said in recognising you may have a problem Hopefully you will talk to your parents tonight,and maybe they have noticed things and will be pleased you have come out with it they may have been delaying the situation the same as you.Remember at your age hormones are all over the place a horrible age to b going through ,but you will come out of it with asking for help,and as mentioned you can go to GP and it should be confidential ,Do wish you better and don't leave it.
Let us know how you get on,there will always be somebody on here to listen.
Fullj098 joan152
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AnonymousWoman Fullj098
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I hope it goes well for you, do let us know how you get on and we will still be here for you.
All the best,
anonymousgirl
ClaireR080613 Fullj098
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joan152 Fullj098
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so so proud of you well done you have taken the first step and that needs some doing,but thought you could by your post you had recognised it.
Now treat yourself to something nice if only a naughty bar of chocolate,you must feel a bit relieved.Take each day as it comes small steps ,Just and try and eliminate a thing a day that bothers you.
Keep us posted.
Well done again remember a problem shared Ida problem halved.
AnonymousWoman Fullj098
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Welldone!
anonymousgirl xx
joan152 Fullj098
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