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I think someone is going to kill me and others soon.

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bryce35165
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Ive been paranoid over the thought of someone plotting either, robbery/murder on me or my family and i have no possible idea what i could've done. im a teenager and i did have some problems with a kid but we cleared it up and his cousin talks to me and says i have someone for you but later that day we cleared it all up and a few days later or a week maybe 2 people add me and i ask who they are, they opened my message but never responded i asked again and they said they dont know me but go to a school near me. i was suspicious and removed them both then adding back later see if one of them wanted to hang out they said no i dont know you. i removed them both and a girl later added me from the same highschool and i feel like they put her up to it ti find my location or something. and then before this i felt like some hacker or something has been monitoring my phone and watching my every move and has my address and stuff through my internet and all that. and ive been telling my bestfriend the past 2 weeks maybe that someones trying to kill me. he said bro you need to chill and i said nah bro all of this is too suspicious theres alot of other suspicious things that been going on like uhh. people askin me when ill be back in town. and earlier today i found a random life insurance ad infront of our driveway and i started to freak the f**k out. idk if someones really got like a hitman or me or im tripping im really stressed the f**k out. i cant enjoy my days anymore im in constant paranoia, and constant anxiety and stress. i dont know what to do. ive been trying to reach a counselour but then even then how would they know if im just over reacting or this is actually happening? that life insurance ad infront of my house REALLY freaked me out. like really. and none of my neighbors had any in their driveway that i saw. i dont know how long it couldve been there but its just all scary. also feel like somehow someone or the same person that i think in monitoring my phone right now is monitoring my PC. i just. i need help and i dont know how to go about this. and i dont know if im getting too parnaoid and my minds playing tricks on me or like my minds trying to tell me something. my friend said im going to go crazy if i keep thinking like this but i cant help it. only thing that helps is smoking weed. but before you say anything about weed. no ive been smoking for few years now and never experienced paranoia like this. and this paranoia thing happened while i was a month clean with no weed. my friend also said it couldve been because i took a break but ive taken breaks like this before and havent felt like this. i feel like my time is limited here and im living in fear everyday. thank you for all the help and suggestions. Also i dont know how I can change this thought and even if i do what if this was really going to happen and i just stopped worrying about it? this is a bad situation for me all round i need help badly.

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  • Aspinan
    Aspinan bryce35165

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    Hi there, sorry to hear about your problem, and it has become a problem for you, you have become extremely paranoid and I hate to say this but that's what weed can do even if you've had a break from it so the first thing to do is stop smoking weed, it isn't going to help you.

    You need to make an appointment with your GP if you've not already done so abd get the right help whether that's talking therapy, meds or a mix of both.

    You are not thinking rationally at the moment and that needs to be addressed. 

    The life insurance thing is just a coincidence, you will probably find the other leaflets have been posted through your neighbors letter box or it was simply disgarded.

    Nobody is out to get you or kill you, this is anxiety causing these irrational thoughts, I battle them everyday at the moment but it will pass.

    Get some help young man.

    Keep posting here as plenty moral and experience support for you.

     

  • Careful1
    Careful1 bryce35165

    Posted

    Sweetheart, you need to see a Dr asap... no one is out to get you and I fear what you are going through is more then just anxiety. I don't want to bring it up on here as I am no Dr but please for your well being see a Dr and soon. Explain all these feelings to him/her.

  • Ashley025
    Ashley025 bryce35165

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    Lol dude stop smoking weed. It might be the one causing your paranoia. I don't think it's true though why would they be after you over a small fight in school UNLESS THEY were gang members or something. Then watch OUT. Be careful and stay alert at all times. Be cautious of all those who want to befriend you. Stay away from that kid you got into a fight with. When you see him smile at him and deep down don't trust him. He might have secret intentions. If he's gang related or in bad things. Don't worry be happy -Bob Marley. smile Always report anything suspicious to the cops. If it's something serious.

  • johnkov
    johnkov bryce35165

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    Hi,

    ​As others said - you need to see a GP as soon as possible. What you experience is paranoia and delusions. Whether these were initially caused by weed or whether you had predispositions that were set off by weed consumption is irrelevant now. You need to be started on antipsychotics ASAP, otherwise your symptoms will develop into a full-blown psychosis. Again, these symptoms will not go away on their own - you need to see a doctor urgently.

  • bryce35165
    bryce35165

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    man you guys gotta understand its not the weed!!! ive been feeling this before when i took a month break of smoking and during the end of the month some weird stuff has been going on like i mentioned above and its jsut nonstop fear its not weed. it may boost it when i dont smoke since i am again but ive been feeling this before i smoked
    • Careful1
      Careful1 bryce35165

      Posted

      Caused by weed or not, that's irrelevant at this point but what you are describing indeed sounds like Schizophrenia or some kind of paranoia.

      We are just trying to be helpful, in the end it's your choice.

      If you are in fear for your life and have some kind of evidence that backs up your claims then call the police and file a report...

      We really can't offer you much advice beyond that.

    • bryce35165
      bryce35165 Careful1

      Posted

      Hey, dont get me wrong i appreciate every help and answers i get. i just know its not all the weeds fault and dunno how i couldve developed schizophrenia. paranoia definetely 
    • Ashley025
      Ashley025 bryce35165

      Posted

      What if it's a withdrawal from the weed though?? You never know.

    • johnkov
      johnkov Careful1

      Posted

      I agree. What he describes sounds like very typical prodromal symptoms of an imminent psychotic episode. His only chance to avoid psychosis and involuntary hospitalisation is to start taking antypsychotics (probably olanzapine) right now. The more time he waits, the more serious the problem will be.
    • Careful1
      Careful1 bryce35165

      Posted

      It is possible sweetheart. I am not saying that to scare you but to let you know this is serious and you need to get in with your Dr as soon as you can before things get worse.
  • bryce35165
    bryce35165

    Posted

    and also that life insurance thing was tooooo sketchy man. like.. it wasnt in our mailbox, mail day wasnt that day, and its just like infront of our driveway. i dont know if other neighbors got it. but can you guys see like what ive already been dealing with then to see that. and i constantly dont speak around my phone because i think someones monitoring it and listening to me
    • Ashley025
      Ashley025 bryce35165

      Posted

      Why would they be after you though? Just because of the fight? Look at the guy if he seems suspicious then something's probably happening and you need to file a report against him. I hope everything turns out fine and it's not really nothing that you should be worried about. But if it is report them to the cops. Suspicious activity should always be reported. Stay cautious.

  • Aspinan
    Aspinan bryce35165

    Posted

    Dear Bryce, listen to what people are saying and go to see your GP ASAP, you are ill and need urgent psychiatric help before this progresses any further.
  • joe84133
    joe84133 bryce35165

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    Hi, Bryce, my name is Joe. I'm no psychologist, but I'm very experienced in this field as it's my life story. What you're expierencing is very real. Subconsciously, you were traumatized by the initial incident. Your conscious mind perceived the conflict as being resolved. But, your subconscious mind is still applying an extreme concern regarding the threat of your life being taken. This is what I need you to do. If this is still an issue for you as of now (six months later) I need you to make a formal complaint at a local police station. Then I want you to tell your family you love them. Leave no loose ends. As your subconscious mind is terrified of death because you've not yet fulfilled your desires, it's attempting to resolve a matter of scenario it's repeating without your conscious recollection. By filling out a police report, telling your family you love them, what you're actually doing is causing your subconscious to accept anything that could possibly occur. And what that'll help you accomplish is refraining from a paranoid freak out which will allow you to properly access the situation with more rational accuracy. After you've done this, seek a psychologist. Ensure them that this isn't a customary thought pattern of yours. That you're generally concerned. Point is, it started off small, your subconscious blew it out of proportion in attempt to problem solve. You never received closure for this situation and now your mind is spiraling out of control in search of reassurance. Do these things, and I promise you'll find your resolve. Your problem is lacking closure and being fearful of death as your mind can't process a systematic approach due to the situation having traumatized you. You'll make it bro, I believe in you. You've alot more fortitude than this. You're not weak, you're not helpless, and you're not vulnerable. Your aggressors have programmed you to believe you're helpless. Don't allow them or anyone in the future to control your psyche in such ways. Constantly tell yourself you're strong, tell yourself you're smart, and tell yourself you're safe. Do this daily, repeatedly, and you'll program yourself to not only believe it, but to live it aswel. God bless, brother.

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