I think someone is going to kill me and others soon.
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Ive been paranoid over the thought of someone plotting either, robbery/murder on me or my family and i have no possible idea what i could've done. im a teenager and i did have some problems with a kid but we cleared it up and his cousin talks to me and says i have someone for you but later that day we cleared it all up and a few days later or a week maybe 2 people add me and i ask who they are, they opened my message but never responded i asked again and they said they dont know me but go to a school near me. i was suspicious and removed them both then adding back later see if one of them wanted to hang out they said no i dont know you. i removed them both and a girl later added me from the same highschool and i feel like they put her up to it ti find my location or something. and then before this i felt like some hacker or something has been monitoring my phone and watching my every move and has my address and stuff through my internet and all that. and ive been telling my bestfriend the past 2 weeks maybe that someones trying to kill me. he said bro you need to chill and i said nah bro all of this is too suspicious theres alot of other suspicious things that been going on like uhh. people askin me when ill be back in town. and earlier today i found a random life insurance ad infront of our driveway and i started to freak the f**k out. idk if someones really got like a hitman or me or im tripping im really stressed the f**k out. i cant enjoy my days anymore im in constant paranoia, and constant anxiety and stress. i dont know what to do. ive been trying to reach a counselour but then even then how would they know if im just over reacting or this is actually happening? that life insurance ad infront of my house REALLY freaked me out. like really. and none of my neighbors had any in their driveway that i saw. i dont know how long it couldve been there but its just all scary. also feel like somehow someone or the same person that i think in monitoring my phone right now is monitoring my PC. i just. i need help and i dont know how to go about this. and i dont know if im getting too parnaoid and my minds playing tricks on me or like my minds trying to tell me something. my friend said im going to go crazy if i keep thinking like this but i cant help it. only thing that helps is smoking weed. but before you say anything about weed. no ive been smoking for few years now and never experienced paranoia like this. and this paranoia thing happened while i was a month clean with no weed. my friend also said it couldve been because i took a break but ive taken breaks like this before and havent felt like this. i feel like my time is limited here and im living in fear everyday. thank you for all the help and suggestions. Also i dont know how I can change this thought and even if i do what if this was really going to happen and i just stopped worrying about it? this is a bad situation for me all round i need help badly.
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marlee420 bryce35165
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As a kid i belived life was beautiful and thing nothing bad could ever happen... obviosly growing up you see that the world is currupt on alot of levels and is set out to take from you whatever possible. You are always taught to study hard stay away from drugs and bad people so you can have the best possible life. Even when you achive this through years of grinding out school college and university you may not even understand what life is about and still be as miserable as a homeless man.
Anyway as i was saying, only this year in my life can i see clearley what my family and friends have been doing to me my entire life which was shielding me from the way life really is and making out drugs are bad and weed is the worst.. I found out my family who i live with and other close siblings from other parents had been taking money off me, selling me dogy phones and asking for money for random reasons... worst of all i found out my mother and my other bother and sisters had all been doing crack and conforming agaist me to scam me out of money at every turn.. My own mother was botching my passport forms so i could leave the country.. My work mates where dumbing me down saying i was s**t and was never progressing anywhere when in reality i was better then them all combined and has skills exceeding their own from their teaching..
I was being sold to a pedophile ring for profit from my mum and sisters to whoever was willing to pay enough to get hold of me.. My bother sold me a tapped phone.... when i search my location of my pc it is showing a nearby software company they my ex best friend worked at now i have reason to bealiv helped them in the past scam me..
Everybody around me now is talking in code and every now and then something slips and i get a glimps into some idea they are planning on me.. They have already had 1 attempt on my life so i have nobody to turn to, i dont feel safe at home..
My family organised a crisis team for mental health to come out and asses me and they told me i was absolutely fine and was even intelligent...
After the team had left and what i had thaught and the feelings i had for my family had only become solidified.
Now I cant stay at my house at night in case a team of people come to get me, i cant trust even my mother brother or sisters for any help, I dont want to involve the police as its my family so im really stuck for choice
This is the life i lead now and I have nobody to turn to, I dont fear death as this is all just an illution... a blue pill... Im trying my best to escape this country but as i said my mother was sabotaging my passport up until now where i have to do it on my own and rely soul on my efforts to move anywhere in life with clarity its not been f****d.
I have reason to bealive my phone is tapped and my pc has been linked to another one close by in my town as the location shows not my home address.. So i dont even know if this message will be seen...
Im trying my best to keep myself together but my family know everything before ive even said it so its kinda scary being around them.
I hope reading this lightest your situation up a little bit as what i am experiencing is true and real and to have nobody at a time like this is really hard.
Hope you make it through.. and me 2.
Thanks for reading.
anna07933 bryce35165
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I understand how you feel. But you know they are just thoughts right? You didn’t have anything to do except maybe talk about it with your family to make you feel better. Maybe it could have been a bit that but I honestly doubt so, it could be something more. But only an expert can say for sure. What do you mean “I have someone for you”? Seems weird. Just yeah continue to clear it up and perhaps take your distances and talk about it with someone you trust preferably an adult if it feels needed even if you don’t want to for whatever reason. Well maybe they saw you were not far and therefore added you but weren’t too reassured to talk and hang out with a stranger. Maybe you worry too much, you should talk to it with your parents or a trusted adult because this is not healthy and good for you. Yeah I think it’s normal stuff than can happen but you don’t interpret them the right way. I used to have that problem too. So I understand how you feel. Please don't feel alone because you're not. They are just confidences but what’s going in your head could make you think it isn’t. I understand how you feel but try sincerely talking about it with someone like a psychologist and maybe even someone who’s gone through the same thing as you. It does seem like paranoia and it’s good you know it but if you don’t trust completely a counselor contact a mental doctor to diagnose you and help you correctly. It’s their job after all. I understand you worry too much that you could be in danger or someone close to you. But it’s all in your head. Again please share this with someone like family, friends and a doctor. Would help you very much. And as I read from people with a similar experience as you, weed only increases that so you have to stop or it’ll only make things worse. Plus, ask a doctor or someone who knows well about it but weed is never good for you. And as I read also you could still be suffering from all the smoking that happened not so long ago. Just remember that it’s gonna be okay but you HAVE to stay clean or else it could turn out REALLY BAD so take care please and do not hesitate to talk to someone possibly a loved one but also a specialist. They will guide you and know what to do so don’t worry about that. You’ll be okay. And honestly it’s all in your mind so it’s not gonna happen; you know bad things can happen like good things and if they do just take them as they come and don’t try to anticipate possible hardships that may not even happen. Don’t stress yourself too much because you don’t deserve it and you shouldn’t make yourself feel worse. All is gonna be okay. Stay strong! And please listen to advice given to you and judge if it could be helpful or not. Have a nice day/evening. I'm always here if needed but remember you can do it and we believe in you. take care please