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I have been depressed since I was about 3 years old. I remember crying and feeling sad all the time. As the years have gone by it has only gotten worse. I have never accomplished anything that has made my life better. I've quit going to school twice in my life. As soon as something happens, I crawl back into myself and contemplate suicide.
It has been a year since I've had a car. I have been using my brothers car to go to work, but every day I'm thinking what a failure I am, and when is it going to end.
About 2 years ago I was diagnosed with Arthritis, Fibromyalgia, Hypertension, and Bipolar Depression. At that time I had insurance, but now I don't. It has been 8 months. I take OTC Ibuprofen, about 1000mg. and I'm still in pain every day.
For the last 4 months I have been on an eating binge. I have never eaten as much as I do now. I've given up and hoping for a heart attack. Sweets and junk food every day. There is no one I can talk to, because they feel I should just get over it.
I just ate a huge bag of salty Corn Puffs and 6 apple cinnamon rolls. I'm disgusted with myself.
I don't know what to do.
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