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I've Lost The Power To Post !

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Sober_As
Sober_As

Good Morning, my friends in battle.

My iPad power connection cable has broken... the part that slots in, to power up, has split.  One little wire has detached... so it won't charge.  What on earth will I do today?  Posting on here has become my favourite pastime.  I check Notifications obsessively !

I'll get back when I can get a new cable.

Power down to 12%, now.

Keep Well and Conquer( the drink) !

Alonangel 🎇

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  • Paper_fairy
    Paper_fairy Sober_As

    Posted

    Howdy Misssy USA and Angel and Nicola( sorry didn't mean to miss you out yesterday). So what's going on, why are we all so rubbish? Is it a full moon here or there? The guys seem to be doing very well and very positive, while us girls are struggling. Though us girls do have it harder with hormones and stuff to deal with on top of everything else. Don't want to be sexist though, haha!! Woken today feeling so sad, angry with myself .. Too ill to start the detox today. Just can't do it. I've got my 3 diazepam I found in an old box from the move, so I'm all set up to go for the detox. Tomorrow hopefully. Misssy I'm so sad for you as you were being so strong. I'm usually happy on a binge, after about half an hour. Lasts me maybe a couple of hours. Then it's all down hill from then on. The last few days the hate, anger, regret, depression, loneliness, stomach/headache all makes me despise the demon drink. It just gets you and won't let you go. I will get back on track, very soon I hope. I'm a freakin failure and despise myself right now 😡😢🙏
    • Sober_As
      Sober_As Paper_fairy

      Posted

      Oh Paper fairy, I don't know what the heck is going on.  If you have read through the recent Posts, you will see that I have "lost the plot", again.  Sometimes I wonder if I ever had the blessed plot !  

      I am on the Diazepam today.  My body can't cope with any alcohol just now.  I am ok.  I truly hate myself for my reckless behaviour, but I am ok.

      Good Luck for tomorrow.  Have you got more Diazepam, to continue the detox ?  What strength are your 3 ?  You will need to continue for days.

      Alonangel 🤒 🤔 😳

    • Misssy2
      Misssy2 Paper_fairy

      Posted

      The move? You moved? That is enough to drive ME to drink...I hate any physical things and I hate change. When you say too ill to start the detox...I freaking get it...that is what happened to me 2 days ago.  I drank so much that first night...I woke with the mouth so dry...could barely open my eyes...and was in such misery.  I opened a drink right away...and right away that 1st drink took away many of the awful symptoms...so of course I kept going.

      ​yesterday I got thru the hangover...much anxiety...sweating...feeling nauseau...not wanting to eat as good...lazy...sat around all day...let the house fall down around me....didn't take phone calls...hardly went out...The 2nd day I drank from the morning until night...and at night lost all my "cookies" in the drain of the sink.  It was horrible. 

      ​Last night went to bed at regular time...on regular medication and hopefully I will feel better today.  Yesterday the big JOB was making sure I drank enough water....today I will get some cranberry juice...some sport drink...take a vitamin B complex....my regular antidepressent and hopefully be back on track.

      I wouldn't call yourself a failure...you only fail when you give in and stop having the thoughts of trying.  Your still here....so you are still trying.

      ​Like you said...I'm usually good with the first few drinks and then the guilty and shame set in and even then I don't stop drinking.

      ​For me 75 days...no one wanted anything to do with me sober. The first day I drank this week...my mother (who I have been fighting with) shows up in front of my house.  I had to ignore that she was there because I did not want her to know I was DRINKING.  My thoughts were what the H*LL...why didn't she show up all that time I was sober.  Seems everytime for me that I slip...something comes along to make me feel even MORE guilty...LOL

  • Paper_fairy
    Paper_fairy Sober_As

    Posted

    Thanks for replies Angel and Misssy. KNow what you mean about everyone leaves you alone when you're on a binge, but I kind of understand that. My dad, lives 45 mins drive away, he's always there the day I stop the insanity, and very supportive. Suppose it's the old fashioned caring dr in him, you don't get many of them anymore really. Though I've got a good one now🙏..so yes I have a best friend, alcoholic too, we call each other everyday. So I have someone when I'm insane. My house is a tip, not washed for several days, crumbs in bed and everywhere, same old..

    Had to laugh at you major trauma of cookies down the drain misssy xx

    • nicole36330
      nicole36330 Paper_fairy

      Posted

      I never have visitors to my house so have never had worries about someone knocking and finding me drunk,just the postman or the window cleaner lol
  • Paper_fairy
    Paper_fairy Sober_As

    Posted

    Plus the move, I've moved house 4 times in nearly 4 years. Been settled here for 8 months now. All 4 moves I ended up in hospital, mental health ward or rehab! I hate change too x
  • Paper_fairy
    Paper_fairy Sober_As

    Posted

    Just to say, I haven't been able to get on this site for an hour or more. That's why you don't hear from me and I give up. I do love you all  though. I don't want to be quiet tonight though.. Blumin love quirky comments from alonon gel, love misssy, my twin, love you all, RHGB and Ade too x
    • Sober_As
      Sober_As Paper_fairy

      Posted

      Aw, my lovely Paper fairy friend.  Whenever you get through... that is fine by me.  I have enabled Private Messenging now, too.  The little envelope does not show, under my Picturebox thing... Gravitar.. or whatever it is called...icon thing.   I am a "Techno-phobe"... but I persevere.

      I do so hope you are well.

      I love that you love my chat.

      Beautiful Blessings to you,

      Alonangel X 🎇

  • Paper_fairy
    Paper_fairy Sober_As

    Posted

    But my posts ain't getting through xx
    • Sober_As
      Sober_As Paper_fairy

      Posted

      They are getting through now, baby.....  bring it on!!!

      I am so freaking RETRO !  

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