i want to die

Hey Saman

If you want to talk PM me. I'm like you I feel the same way. God is not punishing you. It's our depression making us feel this way. It kills us inside. The only difference we have is I didnt pay attention to people who wanted to talk to me. I wanted to be left alone. I'm 24 years old too. I have battled with this for 7 years.  (Depression)But since I was 4 years old I wanted to die. Dont commit suicide. Think about your family. Suicide only passes the pain to them. Get help please. Urgently. Do it for yourself most importantly. Dont harm yourself. You're not alone millions of us battle with the same issues. 🙌I hope you get better and NEVER give up. Stand back up its your life don't let the depression win. When depressed you're at a vulnerable place you might listen to the bad thoughts. But don't do it. It WILL get better. Time heals. I felt like you. I was on the brink I didn't do it but two days passed by and guess what? My family came to visit me and we were having a good time and laughing. I wouldn't of had that happy moment with them if I had killed myself. Please don't do it. I'm here if you need me. I can be your friend if you want too or if you need to talk.🙌

Hey Saman

I feel exactly the same way. I believe in God too. He can help us but you also need other help. Therapy. What you are describing is depression. God is not punishing you. God doesn't punish us. He loves us. The depression is whats harming you. I'm 24 too. I have been in my house for 7 years because of my depression and Agoraphobia. I feel lost too. I've never had friends but it's because I ignored people who wanted to talk to me. I just wanted to be alone. That's what I thought because of my Social Phobia, GAD, Social Anxiety. The truth is I did want friends. But when I had them they turned out to be bad influences I didn't agree with them. I don't drink beer or do drugs. So I preferred to stay alone than be with bad company. Sometimes it's better that way. If you need friends try to get nice people like you are. Get help first. Please get therapy urgently. I was like you too. I thought about ending it but I didn't two days passed by my family came and we were talking and laughing. See what happened. I'm glad I didn't go through with it at the end. When we sink so low like in Depression. We think about it we actually think we want to do it. But our mind is lying to us we are at a vulnerable place. Dont do it. Suicide only passes the pain to someone else. Your family. Think about them please.  Get better for them and most importantly for you. You deserve to come out of that darkness that is depression.👍🙌

Hi Saman.I'm 54 and understand how you feel.I've been going thru some hard times for about 9 months a they put me on some meds for my IBS/anxiety/depression while also weaning me off an old on.I really don't know if they're helping or hurting.I talk and pray to God ALOT and I just want to be better.I usually only get about4 hours of good sleep and then anxiety kicks in for about 3-4 hours and it's hard to sleep and I say why God why?This past night I really was talking for that time to Him and He answered me even though I really couldn't tell.He gave me some ideas to carry on and help my situation but I pray He helps more sooner than latter.YOU ARE NOT BEING PUNISHED,however.God forgives us thru Jesus's atoning blood and sacrifice and we are saved by God's grace.He ill heal us!! Don't be afraid to talk to people about it.There are more of us than we know that have problems.Hang in there!! God Bless You,Bob

Hey Saman

I feel exactly the same. I read your post and at last I found someone who feels the same way like me. God is not punishing you. God loves you. The depression you have is causing your troubles. Please get help urgently. Dont do something against yourself. 🙌

Hi Saman - religion has so much to answer for with their god of judgement and punishment. It's just so not true. You are not being punished for anything. You have an illness that needs to be addressed. See your GP and discuss what is happening with you. An assesment needs to be made. It's all very well to pray and/or meditate, but hands on action is the realistic and mature way of dealing with your illness. In this day and age there are avenues to get help and educate oneself on our issues. Btw, death is a part of the life experience - you can't have one without the other, and we all get there in the end.