i want to die

i want to die but the only thing that worries me is my family . they know nothing what i am going through its been 8 years i am fighting with myslf .when i was 17 i used to think i will get better and everything will get better with time but its getting worse i am 24 now and still im alone i hav no friends nobody wants to b friends with me in college i had no friends in uni i couldnt make any friends im ok being alone i dont want anyone but my brain my thoughts some1 inside me tells me to kill myslf . i cry i cant sleep i cant eat i cant even move sometimes . i pray to God i read Bible that He will help me but may b He is angry with me I must hav done something wrong . This is my punishment to be like this. i hav this pain inside me its so powerful. i normally hurt myslf but i dnt feel any physical pain but this pain inside me i dont knw what it is . it is not visible but it kills me i never shared my feelings with anyone because they say i am might seeking attentiion i dnt want anyone attention i just want That God heal my brain Me . and if this is my punishment then take my life and give to som1 who needs it cox there are people who want to live but are dieing

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