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I want to kill myself

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worthless
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I want to kill myself so badly. I tried earlier this year but I was prevented and given Prozac to treat my depression. For as long as I can remember, I've been suffering with ADHD, depression, anxiety, and various other mental illnesses. I have an abusive mother, and a father who lives across the country. I'm trapped. I've tried psychiatric help, medical help, every kind of help there is. Sometimes I feel better, but I always come back to wanting to die. Today I got mad at my two best friends- They went somewhere without me after saying they would let me come. They both know I have anxiety and I always get upset whenever they do things like that- but they continue to make me a third wheel. And to make matters worse, they humiliated everyone with them by showing them my texts and how upset I was. I yelled at them and they yelled back, and now I'm here with both their numbers blocked, my phone off, and looking for the easiest ways to commit suicide. I can't take this life anymore. My friends were the only happiness I had left and now they're gone. All I ever do is cause trouble for the people around me and I can't take it. I've said it before without really thinking about it; but now I'm SURE that everyone would be better off without me. After all, how can my own mother and friends be wrong when they tell me I'm an annoying, controlling, lazy, bitch? I've tried to stop- I really have. I've tried so hard, but now I'm giving up the fight. I can't take this. I need to die.

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  • hi99413
    hi99413 worthless

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    you cant kill yourself because of other people
  • sam18386
    sam18386 worthless

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    hi worthless, firstly you are not! you are worth something to someone somewhere and you may feel like you do but what has caused this? something must have made you feel like this. have you actually planned how to end your life? do you know what steps you want to take? are you just reaching out for support you have never got off complete strangers? talk all you like, i can not stop the path you wish to follow but as a trainee counsellor i can listen all you like! tell me everything, the release might help and you may see everything differently, i am Sam, if you can tell me yours it would be easier to talk to you. i am here. if this post goes quiet i know you've done something else, you may have acted further on what you've said. fight. what have you got to lose? 🤔

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