I want to kill myself
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I want to kill myself so badly. I tried earlier this year but I was prevented and given Prozac to treat my depression. For as long as I can remember, I've been suffering with ADHD, depression, anxiety, and various other mental illnesses. I have an abusive mother, and a father who lives across the country. I'm trapped. I've tried psychiatric help, medical help, every kind of help there is. Sometimes I feel better, but I always come back to wanting to die. Today I got mad at my two best friends- They went somewhere without me after saying they would let me come. They both know I have anxiety and I always get upset whenever they do things like that- but they continue to make me a third wheel. And to make matters worse, they humiliated everyone with them by showing them my texts and how upset I was. I yelled at them and they yelled back, and now I'm here with both their numbers blocked, my phone off, and looking for the easiest ways to commit suicide. I can't take this life anymore. My friends were the only happiness I had left and now they're gone. All I ever do is cause trouble for the people around me and I can't take it. I've said it before without really thinking about it; but now I'm SURE that everyone would be better off without me. After all, how can my own mother and friends be wrong when they tell me I'm an annoying, controlling, lazy, bitch? I've tried to stop- I really have. I've tried so hard, but now I'm giving up the fight. I can't take this. I need to die.
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eli_bird worthless
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kara28886 worthless
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PS. change that undeserved title you have chosen for yourself....
I look forward to seeing your next post (renamed as something positive xx
keleee worthless
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I am old now but I still have major depression since I was 13. That was so long ago and I felt the same way you do or did. Depression runs in my family and the one thing that helped me the most was the advent of SSRI's or the new anti-depressants that gave me my life back. It is almost a miracle how these new drugs lift depression and have less side effects. I'm 50 now but I will need them the rest of my life and I'm ok with that because I feel so much better. My son is also on them or he doesn't function very well. Ask your doctor about SSRI's for major depression because they really do make life worth living. I'm so happy none of my suicide attempts worked because I would have missed out on a good life I didn't even know I was going to have and on my son who is a great kid.
Geeee worthless
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MRcountry worthless
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i would never stop anybody ending it all i have thouht about it but havent the guts and i do try every day to find a postitve its hard and im on the floor of life but tomorrow will be another day i come from a so called loving family but cant find any days that where good .and now they have disowned me .i don't understand you friends why would they do this to you. there is always some one who will help you i live in Nottingham and go walking on my own with my music and this helps me so my darkest days hope this helps and i wish i could take away the pain Andrew xxxxxxx
areejgh worthless
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* You must conect with nature
* maybe you have to practice sports alot or yoga and meditation
* Help poor ppl or poor kids in your school , you will feel happy
wut about painting ? practice any type of arts or play any kinds of music
life is good and you dont need someone they dont need you or selfish and bad friendsm look at ppl in middle east they killed every houres and no body cares ,maybe you have alot of things ppl wished they have it .
change your life dear . god bless you , i wish you all the best .
with love
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