Is This Normal For Bipolar? Do Cycle Lengths Change?
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I've just been told I might have Bipolar. I'm not so sure and would love your detective guys's help?
Can it change super quick.. a few days quick?
I get really depressed and then extatic which seems like bipolar... but within a few days of each other. So Monday, Tuesday crazy acting like a toddler. Then thursday wearing off but Friday and Saturday I can't even get of bed,sleeping 18 hours at a time.
This has been happening for a few months but before it was weeks between changes in mood.
It's so hard to deal with, please does someone else have this too?
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charlie79548 emma96514
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I have the exact same thing as you, my moods can be extremely complex. In my experience it can be one of two things.
I myself have Bipolar Disorder, but also have Borderline Personality Disorder. Speaking broadly, my psychiatrist explained that bipolar is responsible for long terms shifts in mood, i.e. I'm manic for a month to two months, then I 'crash' and I'm in bed for months on end. Borderline is responsible for day to day shifts in mood- I have severe emotional reactivity and this can mean I'm really happy one moment, angry the next, then feeling suicidal the next- and so it goes on. I'm medicated for Bipolar with Lithium, and Quetiapine to help taper my emotions with Borderline.
Another explanation is that you have 'rapid-cycling' Bipolar. I'm told this is extremely distressing and one is contantly at the mercy of one's moods (or brain chemistry). I'm no expert, so I would suggest going to your doctor and asking for a referral to see a professional psychiatrist, if you haven't already. I only advise you because I see a lot of myself in what you've written above. A good psychiatrist will spend time getting a grasp of your moods, and present you with a diagnosis that you can both work on with either medication or therapy.
I hope this helps- please do comment below if you have any further questions. I would advise getting educated on bipolar and seeing if you recognise any symptoms in yourself. My psychiatrist is great in that he works with me and takes my opinions into account when working out diagnosis and treatments.
emma96514 charlie79548
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Firstly thank you so much for replying and replying so quickly. I was sure that no one would really care but anyway thanks.
So Ive not even heard of Borderline Personality Disorder, does it get misinterpretted as mood swings alot? Are the two related, so do they come hand in hand or is it just random for people that have have Bipolar too?
How does the fact that Bipolar affecting months of (for example) depression react with BPD when you get a high? Is it just that is muted effect? What if you go low does teh depression get even worse? That must be so hard to deal with.
See I did look at that and even that said it's not really 'classed' as Bipolar until you have weeks/months of a time.. which seems so unfair as even within the same symptoms you can be 'Outcast'.. I don't really know what I'm saying but hpefully you can make sence of it?
I went to the doctor and now I'm currently on waiting lists for CBT and all that jazz so hopefully it will help. But I think asking questions to people who truely know and have experienced it will help a lot too.
I've done my research and I'm quite scared really. It's quite scary to see what sometimes happens and the idea it may get worse horrifies me. Which may all be b*s but yes it seems like a possibilty disregarding the time scaling issue.
Thanks again, Emma
charlie79548 emma96514
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My diagnosis is really complex and I've been really blessed to have a great psychiatrist who's helped me a lot. Sadly, Bipolar and Borderline are often mistaken for each other, because they can exhibit in the same way. Bipolar type 2 is often comorbid with other diagnoses, which can be a personality disorder like I have, or substance misuse for example.
The best way I can explain is this. My psychiatrist put me on Lithium as an 'experiment'- what it's done is removed my hypomanias (or what you said running around like a toddler) and has also helped me to feel much less suicidal when I get low and I'm not as inclined to self harm as I would be without it. It's levelled me out a lot, and I'm able to engage better with people, learn new facts and read books, all of which I struggled with when I was undiagnosed. What it doesn't do is change my emotional reactivity day to day- for example, I still get really angry, still get upset etc. Whilst Quetiapine (an antipsychotic medication I would recommend highly) helps with this, the way forward for me now is therapy to help go back in the past and see why I behave this way. I had a really difficult childhood and was abused badly during my teenage years- my dad also passed away when I was 10 which I've never really dealt with.
There's no need for you to feel like an outcast- all of this has an explanation, you just need to bare with it and trust the professionals to help you. If your condition is giving you real problems in your day to day life I would suggest getting help from a CMHT (Community Mental Health Team) if you haven't already. You can be referred by your GP and they will help you out- they will also push you up the list for CBT if you need it. It may be helpful for you also to find a support group in your local area- I go to one and the guys in my group are pretty awesome to talk to. People with bipolar are not 'mad' or 'wierd'- I'd actually argue we're far more interesting than most people!
Finally, don't be scared. It's true that both of my conditions have got worse as I've gotten older, but if you seek help, get on some good medication and get people around you to help out, you will be absolutely fine, I promise! I would suggest the 'Mind' website (just google mind.org.uk) as it's a good place to find out about your condition and get some extra support.
I hope this helps- all the best to you and don't be scared!!
emma96514 charlie79548
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Lithium does sound like it helps a lot and Ill deffinatelly give both that and Quetiapine a go at your recomendation.. if the doctor does prescribe it.
Im currently going through exams and it obviously effected this alot. I was put on to the waiting list for CBT six weeks ago being told that it would most likely take four weeks at the most. They also told me that I couldn't be put on a waiting list for secondary care such as Chams as well. Which is very annyoying as showing that the process is going to be slow and I'm most likely going to have to resit the year because of this. I will try to get back to the GP and ask about any way to help this.
I would deffinatelly agree in saying that I am very intresting on the highs!
Thank you and I'll be sure to check that out.
I'll try not to look too far in the furture an focus on facing the soon to be exams, thank you.
stacey45027 emma96514
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I did the same but mine wasnt really acting like a toddler more like I had loads of energy and didnt know what to do with it so I tryed everything even extreem sports for the adrenaline aswell as sex loads of sex with anyone just so I could try and get rid of the energy. But no matter what I did I couldnt. I embarrased people when I was out by starting fights and acting like a teenager to witch I still do sometimes act like a teenager that is as medication only helps yolu so far. and no sleep at all and thinking that i was someone specail and put here by god for a reason.
My lows was me sleeping 12 + hoursThen scared to even go out as was addiment people where talking about me aswell as following and stalking me or addiment they where going to take me away if they got me. Saw what I call devil shadow people with red eyes and vioces 100 vioces all at once even people I didnt know tellin g me how low life i was and to just kill myself. I took 2 over doses cut myself 3 times and It got that bad I was hanging myself every night as I just wanted it all to stop and had no clue as to what was going on with me. and I abused alchol.
Now Im on tablets I feel ok but i still am not on the right strength and still not getting the correct help. I was first diognosed with depression but I knew something else was going on. its now been 3yrs and still not on the right stength or getting the help needed.
emma96514 stacey45027
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How many types have you gone through to get the right dosage and tablets?
Is it just a given that it'll take a long time to get right?
stacey45027 emma96514
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stacey45027 emma96514
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emma96514 stacey45027
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Thank you stacey sounds like you have it more sussed than me and I hope to get there soon!
Yes sounds judt like me.. I got told that I might have to resit the year but refused to give up and trying to get back to normal. xx
BadNewsBrain emma96514
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emma96514 BadNewsBrain
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I love that song! Hahaha
BadNewsBrain emma96514
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regarding how to control rapidly changing moods: a lot of the stuff Charlie and Stacey said earlier is good advice - such as listening to music and singing along with it - though different things work for different people, and its best to try the main things out. There's some evidence that loud music works better than quieter music (actually boosts relevant neurotransmitters in your brain) - rock and dance music does it for me, but I know some bipolars find classical music works better for them (probably just a matter of taste). Similarly, watching happy/funny/upbeat movies can help with lower moods (sounds obvious, but seems to work), while meditation, yoga and other relaxation techniques can help with high moods. But a lot of the time, I can't control the mood-shifting whatever I do, and then its more relevant to work out how you can get yourself and other people to cope with it better. As I said before, explaining to people that you a rapid mood-cycler can help (it relieves their guilt/anger/confusion with you); and you can also try to avoid people who have no empathy for your condition when you are yo-yo-ing around a lot. I am sure you have heard a lot of stuff like 'just pull yourself together' and 'don't be so self-indulgent; or 'calm down' or 'cheer up' or other useless directional advice haha. Lastly, I also try to make use of some of the more mid-range moods - like reading a long book when I am feeling low and fatigued; and doing house-chores I usually avoid and tricky computer work when my brain goes fast and wired. good luck.
emma96514 BadNewsBrain
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Never tried yoga and that type but will deffinatelly look into it.
I know that it will help to tell people but it's hard.. and the stigma and not wanting to look attention seeking etc etc
Oh see I find it quite hard to read the words when I'm down.. they repaet themselves and move haha but glad you get that indulgence!
BadNewsBrain emma96514
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emma96514 BadNewsBrain
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Well aren't we unique! How lucky... eventhough most people may dissagree with that, I still think that the highs make up for the lows.