is this normal with bipolar type 2

i got all irritable yesterday racing thoughts i was worried sick how i would be went to a party last night a 40th i was dreading the crowds as knew a lot was going but it wasnt as bad as i thought it was packed some days am more confident than others crazy it is i not working with my mental health probs plus i hav physical probs its hard to deal with it all on when theres both going on in one day i hope you hav a good day today its great we can chat and compare notes lol xx

aw hunny its awful you feel like this you shoukd not havto compare yourself to anyone although i do tend to beat myself up mentally over my size im a 16 bottom half i just been on the nhs choices website downloaded an app on my phone called change4life its great i also downloaded the nhs bmi caluculate so going try lose 10% of my body fat slowly them ain for another ten medication dont help us all psychiatric meds cause weight gain i saw it on the crazymeds website lol i tend to shut myself off sometimes especially if things get too much i can only cope with small amounts with my mental health i tend to lie in my room and listen to relaxation music or watch a relaxation dvd it helps me aw i hope your enjoying your day xx

hiya aww wow well done for getting out woop woop so proud of ya it isnt easy is it hunny? but well done you prob feel tearful and flat as the whole episode has exhausted you so much its an effort to do these things when were feeling the way we do i went to a birthday party friday night i was ok ssaturday never went threw door all day lol i was exausted and yesterday managed get out for a walk clear my head as i felt a bit low and tearful today i woke my head feels really light and muggled up lol i am still low but keep trying shrug it off its possible becauase i put a brave face on friday and its emotional drained me it take a few days before i come back to reality lol im on holiday from friday for a week im getting anxious about that now lol how you feeling today ? xx

Hey...

I do feel emotionally drained, low & had a cry when I first woke up this morning. Did my usual with my husband, full of apologies, please don't leave me, I'm sorry I'm like this again, etc,etc...

Thankfully he just said his usual; shush already, of course I won't, don't be silly, then makes light of the situation with a joke!

Not having to worry about his reaction & instead having his support is incredibly helpful & needed.

I could shrug more off & crack on a bit, but I'm limited in what I can do & will allow myself to do.

Because I'm not working finances are limited & I can't go out spending or doing things that require money. My lacking confidence makes me self concious & I therefore don't like going out much alone.

Because we moved away I don't have long standing friends or family around & I don't help myself much presently! I'm my own worst enemy.

The efforts over the weekend made me feel great, I did have a bit of a situation that made me uncomfortable on Sunday at the cricket & I couldn't get away quick enough!

I look a fright today!! 

I've burnt my face! Bizarre really as I was really cold most of the day, as the grounds are so open, any wind/breeze makes them chilly! I was covered up in layers, but it was sunny so I had sunglasses on! Later last night I looked in the mirror & my forehead, nose, cheeks, chin & some of my neck are all bright red! Then I have panda eyes, circles of white where my sunglasses were; quite funny really & I'm not going anywhere to overly worry about it, just the school run & sports training drop offs!

I get so run down as I can't see a way out from how I feel.

I'm worrying about a few things in the near future & I know that's why my mood isn't lifting significantly despite being on medication. 

Anyway, I'll fret about that later, enough doom & gloom for now hey?! Haha

Where's this holiday taking you then?

Abroad somewhere or to the coast or countryside in the UK?

I hope it lifts you & it's wonderfully enjoyable...

It's good to hear from you, the contact I'm having through this forum is helping me & I like supporting others in a small way too.

Having somewhere to express yourself without worrying about bogging people down...

Here's hoping your day is more on the up than down...Xx

i cant believe how much were alike you know i hav low opinions on myself i mentally beat myself up over my weight i never go out alone i aint got confidence too its mentally draining for you going out at weekend too and like me i worry stress over something months away cant believe were so alike im going spain friday i hope i can get a signal on my phone so i can keep in touch its great to talk and support one and other i fet situations were i feel uncomfy and walk away cant deal with ertain things and situations me aww i hope you feel better as the day goes on its great u hav a supportive husband that i hav incommon with you lol i do too he is my hero xx

Wow, it's great!

To be able to talk so openly & have so much in common therefore understand each other that bit more...

I wish you didn't have the things in common we do, as it means you go through the mill too!

Ooh fabulous, enjoy Spain. It would be good to hear of your holiday & how you are, however, if there is no signal or time/inclination, I'll look forward to hearing your news on your return.

I feel ok thank you, although I haven't done anything other than sleep, post on here & read Metro online!

So not a taxing day...

I'm off to do the school run now, I just drive & park opposite the school, no more going in & my son is 10 & doesn't mind, actually prefers a bit of independence.

I don't like confrontation at all & I don't bullying it upsets me & yesterday I had a little outburst at the children at the cricket match because they were clapping & cheering the other player & not my son.

Afterwards I felt uncomfortable & wanted the world to swallow me up, however I felt for my child & would for any other in the same situation, I am very fair.

I'll probably feel a little on edge at the next game but I'll have to handle it as I can't get out of going & shouldn't as I do nothing as it is...

Must dash & grab my boy.

hope you're smiling? ;0) Xx

my kids are grown up mow but i used hare school runs lol i always felt out of place stood in the playground sort od on edge i didnt like having to go in school to sort anything out even picking them up from after school activitys i was always on edge and felt out of it i suffered depression on/ off for years some days i feel confident and some days i want crawl bck under the duvet brain chemicals are out if zink am going fiight my corner with the mental health team to try lamotrigine i hav seen so much on internet about it being great for bipolar especially bipolar 2 i hav fibromyalgia and mild/moderate cfs/m.e some days i cant function without the added mental health issues lol aw i hope i get a signal from there i can keep in touch with you and my hubby n family lol im going wiv a friend n her kids my hubby not keen on abroad he loves uk dorset is his favorite place 😀 xx

Back again & I've washed the pots & made up the packed lunch for tomorrow!! Hahahahaha...

What an achievement!

I'm almost 45 & have another son of 19 & a daughter soon to be 18, my teenagers don't live with us now we've moved to London from the Midlands.

I was married before, in the relationship for 11 years & left him for a number of reasons when I was 30! My beautiful teenagers live with their father & I see them once a month when I go back up & we keep in touch lots too which is great for teenagers; we have a great relationship, which I'm so thankful for. I'm very open with them & their great, very understanding & appreciate when I'm struggling with a situation.

Goodness, to battle with bipolar & your physical health is no mean feat!

Wow, you have a lot to contend with.

I cannot begin to imagine having extra to deal with on top of my moods, the common cold on top is enough to make me want to feel sorry for myself! Hahahahaha...

Good luck with the MH Team regarding the new medication.

I'm not keen on mood stabilisers & so only take antidepressants when I'm depressed & low.

I gave them a go & didn't feel protected by them, just had the side effects & weight gain & that's a huge no no for me as my main trigger!

I was the same with or without them, still experienced mood fluctuations so thought what's the point?!

My husband & son will be out all evening at cricket coaching & although it's a catch 22 situation, if they were around I'd perhaps feel lifted, however with them not around I don't feel as guilty feeling low...

Although I am myself around them & quite upbeat, I'm not morose, I just don't want to do anything that's out of my comfort zone & requires confidence! I do push myself, as I did this weekend, plus I don't like letting my family down & will push myself when I can.

I'll stop waffling away for now...

Whereabouts in the country do you live?

My husband completed an Ironman in Dorset last year, in Wheymouth. I liked Dorset, however I wouldn't want to miss out on Spain!

Xx

hiya, im from up north 😀 not far from liverpool 😀 weather rubbish at minute massive hailstones yesterday and during the night kept waking me up lol yes i tend to live in a comfort zone what am happy with it sends me all emotional when i hav to step outside it i dont tend to like change as well errr we go weymouth and surrounding areas when we go dorset love the place we do defo go back there nxt year hehe we hav a 6 year old grandaughter shes adorable never fails makes us chuckle i hav brought my children up to be open about things as i didnt hav a good childhood and wanted things so different for my fanily no amount of psycotherapy makes me feel better about things but i knw am so lucky to hav my hubby n the crew around me supporting me am the big 50 this year am going to hav a party never had one these are sorting it for me am going be an emotional wreck but worth that part of my life do u find your mood changes sometimes during day i can be happy then feel my mood fluctuate typical brain chemicals all imbalanced lol how are you feeling ?xx

Hello...

Sorry I haven't replied yet, I've been feeling a bit drained & flat, therefore quiet.

I'll bounce back soon & enjoy responding properly.

I hope you're feeling ok. 

I'm a bit fed up, preoccupied over analysing my situation & future!

I'll be waffling again soon...

;0) Xx

aww bless ya hunny how you feeling today? xx

Good Evening...

How's you?

I'm sorry I've been quiet...

I suddenly just felt emotionally drained & withdrew!

Although today has been bizarre on the emotional front, especially this morning, it's ended ok as I 'achieved' & survived & I'm now telling the tale!

That last text box was dodgy, wouldn't let me type, so I've started this one.

So you're up in Liverpool, my parents lived in Preston for a fair few years with my father's job & I went to Liverpool a few times, you know the Docks & the Weather Map, Beatles Museum, etc...

The big 5-0 this year!

And a party, get you, Ms Brave Pants!

Good for blinking you, go for it!

I have my mum her first grandchild at 44, my age now, I certainly can't imagine being a grandparent now!

My eldest children are a touch younger, my mum was only 20 when she had me, I was 25 when I had Harry! He's now 19 & can barely tie his own laces, so I don't see him with a baby any time soon! He's a gorgeous boy, all six foot three of him!

I'm with you, no amount of therapy is going to sort out my head, especially what's in it from the past. I could do with undoing a few silly beliefs, but that's just it, I'm intelligent enough to know they're silly, but I listen to my inner demons anyway!!!

So what's the point?

As for fluctuating within a day mood wise, ABSOLUTELY, that's exactly what happened today.

Woke tearful & suicidal!

couldnt find things, kept getting wound up & upset!

I know it's because I had to leave the house & do things...

I took my son to school, which I do anyway, but then I needed to take my husband to a job interview, after that I had someone's hair to do, then attend a cricket tournament to watch my little boy, then go back & pick my husband up & drop him off at coaching, followed by collecting my son & then finally collecting my Hubbie from coaching at 8:30pm!

The sheer volume of things, timings & going out in general, as well as being around people just made me fret!

I almost cancelled the hairdressing, however that's a lovely elderly lady in a wheelchair from a stroke who I met when I worked in care before leaving due to depression. I didn't want to let her down & she's also not a challenge & I enjoy seeing her, it was just the thought of everything I needed to do after not leaving the house all week.

I did it though & despite the very VERY rocky start, I can actually say it went well...

I wanted to drop some waffley lines to the couple of lovely ladies I've enjoyed chatting on here with & I'm to bed to watch Big Brother now on record so I can skip the ads!!!

I've got something to share with you tomorrow that I think could be quite good for me, came across it by chance, I'll run it past you, see what you think? 

I hope this this week has been kinder to you & you're feeling reasonable.

Catch up soon, I know you're off on holiday shortly...

;0) Xx